Rp Plot Desires: I Am Suddenly So Obsessed With Hurt&comfort Romance.

rp plot desires: i am suddenly so obsessed with hurt&comfort romance.

i just wanna write all that good shit of hands tracing over another's body, viewing each mark and kissing it again & again, their lips lingering with a soft intakes of air. so jagged and so heavy and so full of emotion when they see their scars... each breath, each look, each touch is so wrought with love & obsession. and they exude a desperate hope that maybe, one day, a thousand kisses will finally add up to weigh more than the pain? they hope one day that the hold of those marks, that pain, the sadness which haunts their other half will be conquered and banished... all they want is for happiness to be their person's and only theirs because nobody could deserve it more than their beloved.

it's the flex of another's fingetips as it etches across the tapestry of their skin, they lean forward to call each mark "a battlescar,". those marks that the person they love defines as flaws, but for them it's always only a sign of strength, of a time where they wished so dearly that they could've known and helped the one they love. that mark, the tremble of the bones– those things never equate to weakness. they're a reaction, a sign that they should do more and that you're still you. i kinda love the idea of what one finds ugly & broken about themselves being this something that only inspires a rapt, neverending devotion in another...

a whole, 'i could never not love you' thing. 'the world was unkind to you, so i'll be even better, i would fight anything for you.' and 'i'd do anything just to see you smile'. that kind of love is both beautiful and wildly dangerous. it's fascinating because this love errs between exceedingly selfless and overwhelming obsession. it's all because the result of their passionate love for a singular person is the formation of a a dire hatred of the world that hurt them in the first place. there's so much that could be explored because it's not idyllic affection, but it isn't something repulsive or unrelatable either.

TOM HARDY as REGGIE KRAY in LEGEND (2015)

Margaret Atwood, “The Blind Assassin.”

When I see you again

And I'm greeted as a friend

It is understood

That we did all we could

I always thought it was sad

The way we act like strangers

After all that we had

We act like we had never met

Halston Sage for The Bare Magazine, January 2021