Just A Small Update On The M.list, Adding Yet Another Section To It. But No Other Groups! I'm Loosing

Just a small update on the M.list, adding yet another section to it. But no other groups! I'm loosing my mind for all these comebacks and I'm trying my hardest not to cave and start writing for others when I can't seem to finish the ones I have

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I am currently writing for both BTS and Stray Kids! Please see below for a quick overview of my fics, if you wish to see a more detailed list click on the group you wish to dive into!

BTS

Drabbles:

803

Endlessly yours,

Eucalyptus - 001 || 002

Gamblers Ruin

Headphones

How Far

In Too Deep

Not Gonna Happen

Tell Me Again *coming soon*

The Price We Pay

Treasure - 001 || 002

Truth Or Lies

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Series:

Don't Tell Me What You See

Lucid

The Restricted Collection

To Breathe Again

What I See

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STRAY KIDS

Drabbles:

Answers

Camera Roll

Fallen Star

Fleeting Tempest *coming soon*

Floored

We Are Liars

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Completed Requests (for both groups)

Tell Me Again

Warnings: Mentions of sexual relationship and nudity

Pairing: FWB! Jungkook x (f)reader

Premise: You always knew what your relationship was. You always knew he was still in love with his ex. Now she's back, but you won't let him avoid his feelings.

Author’s notes: Hey Babes! I'm sorry I've been gone so long. After a death in the family I found out I was pregnant. So far this pregnancy has been really rough and all I'm really able to do is sleep. I'm hoping now that I'm in my second trimester I'll have more energy and the brain fog will clear. In the mean time here's a little drabble for you! 💜

Word count: 1.4K

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“Tell me again why you’re here right now and not running to her hotel begging her to stay?” You chide him, watching his naked form climb out from under your covers. Gathering them around you, you keep yourself comfy in the after glow. But still manage to eye him curiously as he moves around your space collecting his clothes, searching his face for what should be an obvious answer. 

“It’s not that easy y/n” He groans in annoyance, pulling his jeans over his perk butt. The sounds of the metal of his zipper echo his uneasiness. Even after so many conversations about this topic it never seemed to get easier for him.

“Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy our little one on ones.” You throw a pillow at him, shifting his focus back to you. Quick reflexes he catches it before it collides with his still naked back. “But this is the same woman you’ve told me about since we became friends. The one you’ve never been able to forget. Her having to leave the country was the only reason for you breaking up, blah blah blah.” 

“Yes, that one. But…” His fists tighten on the white linen of the pillow. His demeanour morphing into something anxiety ridden. “What about …. This?”

“Jeon, we both agreed what this was, and still is. Nothing has changed on my end, we are still friends.” You smile affectionately at his concern. “Unless you’re inlove with me then i completely get it.”

“HA. HA.” You both burst into laughter. One of the bonus’ of having Jeon as your FWB was that you had agreed right at the beginning to keep an open line of communication. No lines would be crossed behind closed doors, no accidental feelings, no possiblility of heart break or a one-sided loss. And as much fun as you two had together, other than physically you weren’t eachothers type. You fit well in the bedroom, but you regularly annoyed one another. Your personalities were a bit much, so being casual friends that met up only because your friend groups crossed was the best decision to keep you from killing one another. 

“Besides your friend Mingyu looks like he could be fun.”

The smuggness in your voice is not lost on him as you feel the cool thump of a pillow landing on your bare back. “Be nice.”

“Just saying.” You grumble at him, sitting up allowing the sheet to slide off your skin leaving you bare in the chilled air. Neither of you react to it as you gather your hair to put it in a butterfly clip.

“I’ll give him your number then?” His smirk is still there as he rolls his eyes at you.

“You better.” Climbing out of bed you throw on your bra and sweater, sweat pants then glasses.  “Honestly though, if your source is as creditable as you say then not only does she have an 80% chance of staying, but she’s also single. And by what your friend has said, it sounds like she’s still in love with you too.”

He hesitates, “What if I ask her to stay… What if I tell her I still love her and she leaves again?”

“You would have done all you can, it’ll still hurt. But this time you’ll know there was no saving it.” You sigh, you don’t have all the answers he wants to hear. You can’t tell him she’ll stay and they’ll live happily ever after. 

They were both pursuing their careers, and unfortunately that took them away from eachother. But if it has brought her back and she can still grow here, with him…it would be worth the risk, in your opinion. 

You watch him pull his shirt over his head, covering his abs. Standing to the side as he grabs his shoes from where he discarded them on his hasty entrance, he sits on your bed to put them on.

He catches at you staring intently at him. 

“What? You want another round?” His stupid smirk and bunny teeth on full display as he cocks his head towards you. 

“Like you could manage.” You taunt.

“Maybe not after the last two, but I’m sure I could get you there atleast once more before I go.” His cockiness really knows no bounds sometimes. His face may scream innocence, but his sex drive and dirty mouth completely shatter that image. He saunters towards you in an overly sexualized way, making it more comical than if he was actually trying.

“Get out Jeon. We’ve spent too much time together this week, you’re starting to irk me.” You shove him towards your front door, genuine laugh coming from him as he lets you lead him out. 

“Yea yea. Like anyone could stand being with you any longer.” Sarcasm rolling off his lewd tongue, as you reach the door.

“Hey! I am a ball of sunshine. I’ll have you know people love my company!” You play up the hurt in your tone. You both knew you preferred being by yourself then with most company. It was a personality flaw you came to appreciate about yourself.

“Who exactly?” He mocks openly. “Drama characters don’t count.” 

“....…. Go!” You bark. No serious anger in your voice. 

“Bye bye” he scoots out your door, closing it behind him. You lock it, mind already going 100 miles an hour. You’d help him not loose this chance. Not again. 

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Heels clacking against the cement slabs beneath you, the fragrant bouquet increasing your determination every step. Dressed presentably in a nice dress, long coat to give an air of ease, you didn’t want to over dress but then again you didn’t want to show up in sweats. Today would be an important day.

The light breeze feels like it’s pushing you forward. You know exactly where to go, you’ve done your sleuthing from his friends. If he thought you would let this go he was sorely mistaken. You’d never let him pass up this opportunity, after all this time. Never forgetting, never willing to let go. 

Regardless, you weren't’ the type of person who sat by idly while your friend didn’t let himself an attempt at true happiness. 

Marching into the hotel lobby, you don’t slow your pace. Heading straight to the elevator and pushing the button for floor 12. You smile to yourself in the reflection of the mirrored walls. You had a good feeling about this. 

The chime brings you back and you step out onto the carpet, down the long hallway and stopping in front of room 1212.

Rolling your shoulders back you reach out and knock on the door. 

“Delivery!” You call pleasantly.

You hear a sweet voice through the door answer back, “coming!”

Shuffling comes through the wood before the door opens, “Yes?” 

“Special delivery from one Euphoria florists.” You hold out the bouquet of specially chosen flowers. You can see the look fash behind her eyes, the recognition of the name. A past she hadn’t forgotten, regret she still felt.

“There all-” Her voice trails off absently as she take them from you, examining each bulb and leaf.

“Your favourites Miss. This is a custom order for you, along with this card.” The astonishment in her eyes is not lost on you. Nonetheless you hold out the envelope patiently waiting for her to be ready to take it. When she comes back to herself she gently but hastily takes it from you.

“Oh, I’m sorry! Thank you Miss-?” An open ended question. One that you deemed unimportant for right now.

“Don’t worry about it.” You smile even brighter at her, taking a step back you take a step to leave, but you can’t help yourself. 

“Yuri?” You say her first name, you can see the surprise ripple through her. “He named it after you, Euphoria.”

“Who are you?” Her gentle voice taken over by a slight tremor. Panic or excitement, you weren’t too sure. 

“A friend.” 

She takes a moment to stare at the bouquet in her hands, slowly a small careful smile appears. That’s the one you were hoping for.

“Thank you.” She offers you a hopeful smile, her eyes now looking watery from the pooling tears.

You wave to her as you retreat down the hallway back towards the elevators. 

He was either going to grovel at your feet in thanks or you were going to get your ass kicked for the rest of eternity. Meh, you could take Jeon if necessary. 

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hi ! i was wondering because i noticed in your reactions they’re never there, do you not write for seungmin or i.n? sorry if you’ve ever explained this and i just didn’t see it or if it was mentioned on a post about rules but i didn’t see 😅 thank you though..<3

Hello!

I have explained this before, but it's totally ok! Not everyone has seen those.

I have written about it at the bottom of my SKZ masterlist:

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OT8 Answers Premise: Being alone and ignored was one thing, you were used to that by now. But having each member of an idol group barrelling

I would not be able to sit quietly from something like this. The bet au's have me loosing my mind most of the time. I just can't seem to let go of my need to confront..

Oh you caught that did you? He has to say yes to one of us eventually, at this point I don't even care who. Just that he says yes 🤣

Gambler's Ruin

Warnings: Swearing, toxic friendships

Pairing: college students!BTS x reader

Premise: It was a bet gone wrong. A bet they didn't think they'd loose.

Author’s notes: Hello! This one was inspired by the tropes of a 'BET'. I realized I'd get super frustrated with the OC's, if it was me I'd be mad. Beyond mad, so I wanted to do one were OC would get mad as well. Sorry this is me projecting this time!

Word count: 2.6K

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“The tweedles wanted to know if we were gonna hit up Taemins party this weekend.” Plopping down at one of your university's library table, one that your close friend has currently sprawled out a cluster of study material. Every fibre of his being looks like it’s completely absorbed into the text.

“Dunno. What'd you tell them?” Hoseok replies, not looking up from his books and laptop.

“That I’d check with you first, you have the last mid term next Tuesday.” You shrug, knowing full well that he wasn’t looking. You pull out your phone to scroll through your Insta feed. You often stay with Hoseok while he studied and you had a free block. A silent company you both enjoyed.

Everyone knew that when the 5 of your showed up at a party, it was officially a banger. The other 3 of your friend group tending to opt out. They weren’t really parting goers and you could understand why. They had other interests that took up their spare time. As the 8 of your struggles through studies you’d either be together or on most Friday nights the 5 of you would be out. 

It had been like it since you transferred mid semester a few months ago. The youngest 3, plus Hoseok calling you over one day out of the blue to ask if you were new. Upon saying you were, they instantly decided you’d be there friend. You weren’t sure at first, you didn’t want to make friends. But meeting the rest of the guys, you had quickly fallen into place. You were all similar in some ways, so it wasn’t hard to lose your reservations.

“Um… babed, I need to talk to you about something.” His normally steady chipper voice coming out somber, a slight tremble. You peer up at him over your phone. He’s abandoned his studying completely to face you. 

“Uh, yea. What wrong?” Placing your phone on the table you equally give him your attention.

“Fuck, I don't even know where to start.” If you though his voice sounded strained and trembling before, you were really worried now.

“Spit it out man, you’re freaking me out.” You push. 

“Shit ok, me and a couple of the guys made a bet the first time we met you, that we could make you fall for one of us. It’s stupid and immature and I’m sorry I even took part in it. But this friendship is more important then that and I didn’t want you to find out from someone else.” His words spew out of him like they burn his mouth. The faster he gets it out the less pain you’d both endure.

Each word takes you by surprise, you don’t react right away. Allowing yourself to contemplate his words carefully. 

“Who else?” 

“That’s not really for me to say, they should be telli-“ He tries.

“The tweedles then” You knew already. Somehow you always knew there was something off.

“Wh-” 

“It was kinda obvious. They have a reputation for playing with girls. I’ve had multiple old conquests of theirs come up to warn me about them.” You give him a reassuring look. Besides you in the party group he was the only one with a decent reception with women. His ex only had ever said sweet things about him, so it was shocking to hear that he was in on it. 

However, people do crazy things during heartbreak and you did transfer in shortly after they separated. You’d give him the benefit of the doubt. He was telling you about it and he seemed sincere.

“Hell Jimin was bragging to Namjoon about the girl he took home weeks ago. And dumb and dumber were arguing over which one of them the waitress winked at the other weekend. You’d think they’d outgrown that shit by now, but I guess that’s Tae and jk for you” You continue. “And thank you for telling me.”

“I’m just I’m glad you hadn’t fallen for any of them yet” His breathing evening out now in relief. “I would have hated myself if you had but didn’t know.” 

That makes you stop.

“Yet? I wouldn’t have.” Your amused scoff takes him by surprise. You watch his face contort into suspicion.

“Really? You’re telling me none of them have a chance.”

“Yes that’s exactly what I’m telling you. They’re not my type.” You were baffled. Did he seriously not notice your outward pining for a particular friend of theirs. “Besides I already like someone… and I here thought I was making that disgustingly obvious”

You give him a moment to mull over your words, you can almost see the words turning, the gears smoking. Before his realization crashes down on him. 

“That’s what all those marriage jokes are?! You like Yoongi?” Forgetting where you are he voice reaching too loud. Many hushes and shushes are directed towards your table. You don’t even flinch, watching him in amusement as we apologizes to the others around him before turning back to you.

You let out a dramatically long sigh, “He hasn’t said no yet, he may ignore it but one day I’ll wear him down” 

You shoot him a wink.

“You’ve got to be kidding me.” 

“That I am not my friend, so will you be my best man or are you gonna be his at our wedding? Because honestly I don’t think I’m willing to give you up now, your speech would be one for the books”

“You are crazy” Finally a smile cracks on his dumbstruck face.

“Crazy in love~” you sing sweetly leaning into him.

“You’re gross.” He chuckles, pushing you away from him.

“And you my sunshine are going to buy me dinner as your apology and we are going to discuss wedding decor.” 

Slinging your arm around his shoulder you wiggle your eyebrows at him. He attempts to muffle his laugh in his hands, muttering a ‘deal’ to your demands.

For now you’d think over what you knew. You had to find out what was more important now: your friendship or their stupid bet.

Because either way they were about to lose.

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Sitting in the canteen of the university, you can hear the chattering around you, but your too lost in thought to notice anything. You’re staring idly at your phone, boots up on the table unable to reign in your annoyance. The tweedles had messaged about meeting up for lunch, you had agreed, unknowingly to them, under terms of interrogating them about their little bet. However, something in the air had changed when you saw them walk in. They waved at you before grabbing food and then heading over. You fell into your regular banter and small talk, body still reclined against the plastic chair, now not held up by tension, but an underlying need to know. What was more important to them.

So you hatched your plan right there and then. 

“Everything ok?” Jungkook chimes at you from across the table. “Not eating today?”

“Yea just not hungry. Heard something today and it makes me feel sick.” You reply solemnly, purposefully being vague. Your eyes soft as you meet his, not giving anything away. 

“What?” Taehyung pipes up next to you.

You fight against yourself, wanting to smirk, but you maintain a somber appearance. You knew they would take the bait

“I heard from the other campus that there’s a group of guys tricking girls into liking them. Apparently they have some sick wager on it, these poor girls.” You sigh deeply, shaking your head in disapproval. “And for these guys to just drop the girl after. How can some people be so heartless?”

You ignore the startled and pointed looks the give each other. Pretending not to see the panic as you focus your gaze back on your phone. Giving them a few moments of silence to answer, to respond in some way. When they don’t you try again.

“Why can’t people just be honest? To use others emotions for a twisted game. If it were me, I’d let it go if they told me the truth. Like it’s a shitty way to start a friendship but if it means something, it makes it so much worse.”

It felt like eternity before you hear one of them speak again.

“Some people are just shitty….” Jimin’s voice croaks out, your eyes snapping up to his. You keep your risin emotions to yourself.

“Good thing I met you guys then huh?” One eyebrow lifting in a double meaning, a true test.

“Yea” Jungkook laughs awkwardly. “You sure are lucky.” 

You give them your best fake laugh, noticing out of the corner of your eye their once again not so subtle looks of terror aimed at eachother as they laughed with you.

“Just ignore all that kind of talk y/n” Taehyung nudged you. “Let’s focus on your birthday coming up!”

Deflection…great. 

“Exactly! Did you manage to secure the vip room for your favourite club?”

Superficial conversation overtakes the group. Your birthday only a few weekends away, once a time you were vibrating with sheer excitement of the party’s shenanigans and now a sense of dread circles around you. Dread and annoyance. 

Continuing to act like your friendship with these men weren’t in shambles began to weigh on you. You finding it harder and harder to keep the fake smiles from cracking, the fake laughs from bubbling into something vile. 

By the time they left for their classes you were ready to set fire to the building. You wanted to watch it all burn. They lied to you. Not well either. That was the twisted part, if you had blatantly paid attention to their reactions they would have known that you knew that it was them. But because you acted oblivious to it being them, they played it off. You gave them the perfect chance to explain themselves. 

Maybe they needed a few days to let your words sink in before telling you? You just hoped that was the case. 

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Everytime you brought it up or someone mentioned something they 3 of them would get progressively more uncomfortable. Opting to running away or coming up with some lame excuse. So you stopped looking for them, you stopped replying to the gc, stopped going out with them on friday nights. 

You and Hoseok however were getting closer. You two would go out partying together, lunches would now be spent with him and Yoongi, which you could not be more thankful for, and meeting up between classes. Slowly, thanks to Hoseok, Yoongi would ask you to hang out more one on one, inviting you out to his favourite record stores and other places he enjoyed. His blank face now breaking into a soft smile around you more and more.

It had been 3 weeks since that day in the canteen and still nothing from the tweedles. You had a free morning this morning, so instead of steeping in your own annoyance at the situation you decided to grab a coffee at the cafe down the street then head to your favourite park, a book Namjoon had recommended in hand. Choosing a spot near the shore, to watch the morning sun sparkle against the blue water, tide swishes back and forth. 

You had settled down on the grass, a comfortable silence….well it was.

“What the hell is going on with you lately?” Taehyungs voice boomed from behind you, anger radiating into your back like a dagger. 

“Well good morning to you too Taehyung. Oh and a lovely morning to you Jungkook and Jimin.” You don’t bother looking up from your book. You know if Taehyung was there so would the other two. He would be too chicken shit to come up to you on his own. 

“What the fuck are you doing?” Jungkook now interrogates. It was almost laughable at how offended they sound, especially considering you were the one who should be.

“Well I was reading outside enjoying me free time until 3 lumbering lugnuts showed up aggressively not bidding me a good morning.” You sigh deeply before bookmarking your page and turning to face them. “but please do elaborate on your question.” 

“You’ve been avoiding us for weeks, what the fuck gives?” Now apparently Jimins turn.

“I have not been avoiding. I just haven’t been going out of my way for you. I literally spoke to you and Jungkook yesterday.” You’re already exhausted, collecting yourself you stand up.

“That was about an assignment and then you dipped on us.” 

“We want our best friend back” 

“Best friend?” You scoff so hard you almost choke. This was ridiculous. “You sure about that? Or is your memory a little fuzzy from the lack of your shared brain cell.”

“Wha-?” 

“We must have different definitions of bestfriends because mine doesn’t include sleeping with them to win money.” Your irritation clearly shows on your face now.

“Hoseok told you” Taehyung whispers, voice faltering.

“Hoseok outted himself. He never mentioned you guys. No you guys did that yourselves. You’re not subtle about the way you treat girls. Hell I know most of the girls, I do live in the dorms remember.” You can’t stop your eyes from rolling. “You treat girls like shit. The only people you don’t look down on are your friends because you have weird superiority complexes. If anything being your friend before hand made it impossible for me to have any attraction to you.” 

“We swear that we wanted to be your friend because of a bet, but it’s not like that now. Not after we got to know you.” Jimin tries to explain, you shake your head at his words.

“Any confessions of friendship mean nothing coming out of your mouths. I can’t trust anything you say. Up until this moment, of me dragging it out in the open, you were still working on winning your little bet.” Your anger simmers barely under the surface. “I gave you the perfect opportunity to come clean. But you chose to lie to me instead.”

“We were scared” 

Anger bursts out of your chest. The simmering now an over bubbling pot, no one able to turn the heat down. 

“Scared? Hoseok was scared when he risked our friendship by telling me the truth. You are cowards trying to save yourself. Puppies with their tails between their legs because they know they’ve done something wrong.” You bite. Fear slapped across their faces as you yell at them. 

For the first time since meeting them you had never raised your voice or been annoyed with their idiotic antics, but this was passed that. You pissed at them, and they had brought it upon themselves. 

“Don’t bother coming to my birthday, your names are off the guest list.” Finaliing your decision you storm off, book and coffee in hand. 

With or without them you were still going to have a good party. You weren’t going to let this affect your night. Hoseok, Yoongi, Namjoon and Seokjin all said they were coming as well as all your other friends. They were all you needed. 

You were shocked when Yoongi said he’d be there, but he said he had something special to give you for your birthday. You had joke about it being a wedding ring, telling him to call you Mrs. Min Yoongi. He just rolled his eyes and told you not to get ahead of yourself. It engulfed your spark of hope into a forest fire. So you wouldn't let this ruin your excitement. 

This was a bad wager. They didn’t take into account who you are. This was a Gambler’s ruin.

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‘Gambler’s Ruin: A gambler playing a game with negative expected value will eventually go broke, regardless of their betting system’

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Upcoming Works:

Answers pt.2 SKZ x Ghost Reader

Possibilities Nonidol!Changbin/Nonidol!Minho x Reader

To Breathe Again - chapter 001 Unistudent!Namjoon x Unistudent!Reader, implied!Unistudent!Jimin x Reader

Till Death pt.1 SeokJin! Mafia Boss x Reader

Tell Me Again Jungkook!FWB x Reader

The Restricted Collection BTS!Hogwarts/SKZ!Hogwarts x Reader

Eucalyptus pt.2.5 Hybrid Reader

These Nights Can't Last Forever Idol!BangChan x Fan!reader

Love Revocation ImperialGuard!Hoseok x Princess!Reader

Must Be 4thyearUnistudent!Jimin x Clubowner!reader

To make up for my lack of posting lately, send in a prompt and either a member of BTS or SKZ!

🎄🎄🎄Christmas/Holiday Prompts! 🎄🎄🎄

What better way to get into the holiday spirit than to do a few holiday themed pieces through December?

"Are you eating cookies right now? It's 3 AM!" "If Santa can do it so can I."

Spending Christmas at a childhood home

Snowball fight

Fake dating to appease the parents but it turns real

I saw mommy kissing Santa Clause

Cookie decorating competition

"Oh look, mistletoe." "Oh look, a distraction!"

There are many office Christmas parties to attend and we're finding increasingly weird locations to make out in

Meeting Santa at the village at the mall and it goes terribly

Putting up lights around the house and someone falls from the roof

"Is - Is Santa real?" "What? No, of course not." "Oh." "(name), you're 30."

Neighborhood lighting competition gets a bit too intense

Snowed in

Making snowmen

"If you turn down the Christmas music, I'll murder you."

Ugly Christmas sweaters

After the kids have gone to sleep

Hallmark Movie AU

Putting up the Christmas Tree

"Suck my candy cane."

Relaxing by the fireplace

Holiday movie marathon

"I cannot wrap gifts for the life of me."

Letters to Santa

Working on Christmas

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