They Break Even More ME TOO BTCH IM BREAKING TOO THATS SO SAD WTF Also Finally Warm ? IS IT NEARLY THE

« They break even more » ME TOO BTCH IM BREAKING TOO THATS SO SAD WTF also Finally warm ? IS IT NEARLY THE END ? IS SHE GONNA DIE OMG CANT WAIIIIIIT

AAAHHH. I love these reactions. I'm dying.

Yes, we are reaching the end! I honestly can't believe it!!!

Finally warm is the second to last chapter. Keep a look out for updates on the ending....we're going to be doing things a little different.

Plus, I will be releasing Jimin POV chapter!

Don't Tell What You See || 12

Cry About It Later

Warnings: Angst, alcohol consumption and idk even know what to call it

Pairing: Jimin!BTS x reader

Author's notes: Well...somehow that scene turned out less then I planned and more in a completely different direction. BUT OH WELL, I'M KEEPING IT.

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You can feel the vibrations from the music through your feet. You shoot back another shot. You can’t tell if the cold and pain have subsided because of the alcohol you're swimming in or that it has stopped on its own. Whichever the case, it doesn't matter anymore. Because it’s working.

Leaning back against the bar, your eyes scan the crowd. Thankfully no one has come up to try to talk to you, leaving you in your own misery.

The sea of dancing people catch your eye. Watching body’s plastered together moving in time to the deafeningly loud music. The lights, the silhouettes, the heat coming from the dance floor, it's all mesmerizing.

Moving towards the mass as if someone else is moving for you, completely stuck in a trance you push your way into the crowd. Dodging and squeezing your way into the crowd, you stop and look up at the lights. There’s glittering falling from the ceiling, lights are reflecting off them, shimmering. You reach your hand up to catch some drifting slowly down. You stare at them in your palm and smile. The music is becoming clearer, the cotton removed from your ears.

You start to sway with the music, adrenaline thumping through you as you let the beat take over. The people around you are faceless, the dim lights making it easier to block them out.

All that matters is you, the music and the golden glitter in the air.

💜♾💜♾💜

Taehyung rushed into the bar, the older close behind him. Briefly halting at the bar, their eyes search for you. Becoming even more unstable as they can’t find you. Chests breathing heavy from the sprint out of the car to this club.

You’d given them enough hints, the light festival was the biggest hint and there was only one club close enough to the riverside that you could have stumbled your way to.

“There Tae, she’s there!” Yoongi grabs Taehyung's shoulder and points to the sea of people dancing. They have parted just enough for the two boys to see you dancing amongst the crowd.

Taehyung starts to stomp his way over to you, when Yoongi pulls him back.

“What are you doing?” The younger demands angrily.

“I don’t think being mad at her is gonna help anything.” The older contemplates, looking back over to you. For the first time since this whole ordeal, your body looks relaxed, like you’ve stopped plaguing yourself with thoughts of the soul bond.

“Then what?” Taehyung deflates, following Yoongi's gaze. You're smiling at the glitter floating around you, if he wasn’t sober he’d think you looked celestial.

“Whatever she’s feeling, she needs to feel it.” He explains calmly. “So we let her feel it, but we are just here to catch her.”

Taehyung nods. He can’t force you home, he knows that. But he can’t let you go through this alone. He looks at Yoongi and smiles.

“We need to let her know she’s not alone.”

💜♾💜♾💜

Still hypnotized by the music, you close your eyes so you can truly lose yourself.

Warm hands slowly make their way onto your hips, a smile creeps across your face. They’re not as blistering as Jimins, and not as hot as Taehyung, but they’re warm. You know this warmth. One hand remains on your right hip, the other snaking around to your lower stomach. The wall of warmth behind you presses into your back and begins to sway slowly with you, no longer keeping up with the music. A hand lifts up your chin, this one is hotter, your smile widens. You’d know this heat anywhere. Upon contact your eyes flutter open, your twinflames face blocking your view from everything else. He smiles back at you.

Leaning your head against the shoulder behind you, you smile up at Yoongi. As a smile sweeps across his face, your pace begins to speed up in time with the music. Both males match your movements. The two men sandwiching you in heat, the alcohol running in your system and the glitter dusting the air around you, for the first time since before your brother died, you didn’t feel alone.

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Sitting up abruptly, leaning over the side of the bed you throw up into the bowl that was placed there for you…again. Never again are you drinking that much alcohol. You have been throwing up for the last 2 hours.

After emptying the contents of your stomach once again, you sit there for a moment replaying last night's events. You remember Tae and Yoongi joining you to dance, but that’s the only solid memory you have. After that only bits and pieces have chosen to stick around. Like how the two boys brought you home, and you refused to let go of either of their hands. Fear of being cold again or being alone and in pain you had asked them to stay.

Looking around your bedroom, you don’t see a trace of either boy being there. Maybe they left after you passed out?

“Oh good, you're awake!” Taehyung said cheerfully, breaking you out of your thoughts. He walks over to you handing you a glass of water and pills before sitting next to you. “For your head and stomach. We ordered food as well, it should be here soon.”

You smile gratefully at him before chucking back the pills and most of the water.

“I’m really sorry.” You mumble down into the glass now in your lap.

“No.” Your twinflame refusing to have any pity party’s for you. “I’m glad we could help and be there for you.”

You look at him with complete adoration in your eyes, then look over to the older, who is leaning against your door frame. Shock hits you when you remember they had just finished the festival last night.

“Oh my god-“ cover your mouth with the hand that isn’t holding the glass. “The show! You guys must be exhausted! Do the others know you ran off? What if they realize you're not there? What happened to me last night? Is Jimin ok?”

You couldn’t stop the words from tumbling out of your mouth. All concerns are now out in the open.

“We got enough sleep after bringing you back.” Yoongi begins to answer all your questions. “Yes they know we’re not there. I told them we stayed the night here.”

Taehyung looks at his hyung quizzically, making the older smirk in response. An unsaid understanding crosses between them. You frown, how come you don’t get it?

“Uh firefly,” Tae pets your hair and brings your attention back to him. “We’re not sure what exactly happened last night but …… Jimin he uh…”

You feel the bed dip on the other side of you, yoongi mirroring Taehyung's position. Yoongi intertwined his fingers through yours and you looked at him.

“Jimin didn’t come home with the rest of us last night.” Yoongi said unsure whether he should rip the bandaid off or ease you in gently. “He went with a girl from the venue.”

You heard Yoongi. Jimin went back with someone. You stare at your bathroom door across the room.

You want to laugh. That was what that pain was? Memories of the pain that had driven you to drink resurface in your mind. That was because he went home with someone? You had to go through all that because he wanted to seek out pleasure.

If only the two boys next to you knew how hard you were trying not to laugh. You were in pain alone because Jimin wasn’t alone? This was cruel. But even though you should be pissed, tearing to shout at your soulmate for being careless and selfish and pathetic to seek out someone who wasn’t you. You can't find the anger.

The scarce reality of the voice plaguing your mind tells you only one thing.

Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone. Alone.

You.

Will.

Always.

Be.

Alone.

You are destined to be alone because your soulmate doesn’t want you. He’d rather be in the company of someone that isn’t you.

Fighting back with the last bit of sanity you had. You force your rising hysteria down.

“Oh” is all you can manage.

The boys share a look behind your back before continuing.

“You have to tell him-… or maybe it’s time for the bond to be officially rejected.” Yoongi gives the only two options that he and Tae could come up with.

“I know this is hard for you, but I think you have to make a decision.” Your twinflames rubs circles into your back.

“I know.” Your voice comes out raw and hoarse.

Ok || About Time

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YES! ENDINGS ARE SO KSJFHFJAKA like you know how your characters think & a character driven story makes it a little bit harder bc you know various ways that they could react & you have to make the executive decision at the end of the day…

But 👀 im not oppsed to an open ended story. (But i also know that not a lot agree with open ended stories) buuut would it be a possibility to just have the alternate endings as an au of some sort? Because possibilities are endless & it would be cool to also kind of see all the possibilities laid out & that you had come up woth.

😌 anon

I'm either, going to release one ending and then eventually release the others. Kind of like canon.

OR

I'm going to do a pick your own adventure type of ending.

I'll probably ask a little later on for everyones opinion and then go from there!

Cause as of right now. I have written up to About Time and the others chapters after that are mapped out, but I still can't decide what I want to do. All plausible, all make sense, all fit.

Love you 😘

Don't Tell Me What You See

Don't Tell Me What You See

Warnings: ANGST

Pairing: Jimin!BTS x reader

Author's notes: My heart breaks for Tae writing this. But it's time for everything to be out in the open.

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Passing out at work was not really in your plans for today... Especially not in front of your twinflame. Unfortunately for you, any secrets you had kept quiet from this man, had blown up in your face and you had to deal with his fury.

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You are chatting cheerfully to Taehyung as you make your way back from lunch. Jimin, Namjoon and Hoseok are working in Namjoons studio, and all agreed to meet back there after eating.

The studio door is open ajar, so you can hear the boys inside. Reaching for the handle you freeze, when you hear Namjoon ask.

“Are you seriously thinking of rejecting your soulmate?”

“Why is that so hard to believe?” Jimin’s voice echoes through you, you can’t look at your twinflame. You can feel him drilling holes into you with his stare. However, his gaze isn’t what terrifies you, or even Jimins words. It’s the oh so familiar frozen tar like hands reaching up to your abdomen.

“I don’t know, but are you sure?” Namjoon responds, clear exhaustion in his voice. “Like really sure? Like you’ve really thought about this?”

“Yes, Hyung. I’ve really thought about this.” Jimin explains clearly exasperated. “I’ve always said this, I don’t want a soulmate. How many times do I have to say it to you guys before you listen to me. I don’t want a soulmate, I don’t want a soul bond. I don’t trust these ‘threads’, you talk about. I have never wanted one and I don’t now.”

You finally look at Taehyung. You can’t tell him you’re ok, because you’re not. You can feel your mirror cracks widening, letting in more cold, more ice, more chill. Looking him in the eyes, you see the fire, he’s beyond angry, but all you want to do is ask him for help. You realize your body is locked, you cannot physically move. Your blood is all but solid, your pulse begins to slow as your heart freezes over. And you can feel the suffocating tar in your lungs. Your breath comes out shallow and in a fog as it collides with the warm air of the hallway. The last thing you see is your twinflames paniked face as your eyes roll back.

Taehyung grabs you before you collide with the floor. Your skin is almost transparent, your lips gone blue and your eyes are lifeless. He’ll be pissed later, right now he needs to get you help.

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Slowly you begin to open your eyes, vision blurry you are blinded by a familiar glaringly white room of the soul reader clinic. You groan as you force yourself up on your elbows, trying to recall what happened. Taking in your surroundings you see and feel an extremely rage filled Taehyung staring at you from across the room, with what you can only describe as killing intent.

💜♾💜♾💜

Sitting silently in the passenger seat of Taehyungs was undoubtly torture in itself. You can visibly see him shake with infatuation. He had called Yoongi to meet at your apartment. He had refused to look at you or even speak to you, slamming the car door shut behind you.

Now you follow him up to your apartment. You sit on the couch and wait, he’s passing back and forth across the room, trying to hold himself back until at least his hyung arrives. Knocks resonate from your front door before he stomps his way over and lets Yoongi in.

They both make their way over to you.

“Are you going to tell him or am I?” Taehyung breathes sharply, still trying to hold himself back.

“Tell me what?” Yoongi eyes you waraily. He’s never seen Taehyung this irate before.

You don’t speak. You can’t find the words, you’re unsure of how much your twinflame knows, but from the emotions radiating off of him…..it’s a lot, if not everything. You stare at the floor.

“Did you think we wouldn’t find out?” Taehyung yells at the wall of your living room. You don’t jump, as Yoongi does. You can’t anymore, you’re too exhausted.

“Why didn’t you tell us, we could have helped you! We could have talked to him with you! We could have stopped this.” His deep voice booms around the room. “Why did you do this to yourself?! Why did you let this happen?!”

“You don’t know what it’s like!” You scream back, launching yourself from your seat. “You think I would choose this? Neither of you have any idea what it’s like.”

“So don’t look at me like that……” You stare viciously back at your soulmate.

“Just don’t look at me..” You are barely audible now.

It feels like eternity before anyone speaks.

“Do you want to know what I see?” Taehyung forces out calmly. You shake your head aggressively.

“Stop it Tae” You beg, a chill sweeping over you, as you try to hold yourself together.

“I see a strong, talented, independent, confident woman who is dedicated to her job, her friends and family. Who shows incredible loyalty to her beliefs and choices.” Taehyung begins, walking closer to you.

“Tae please”

“But you know what else I see?” He continues, ignoring your pleas. Now he’s right in front of you. “I see someone who would rather suffer than let someone else know they’re the cause. Someone who chooses other people over herself again and again. Someone who-“

“STOP. STOP IT!” Your voice is hoarse, throat itching with every word. “don’t….. DONT”

“Guys!” Yoongi finally speaks. “What is going on?”

“Y/N told Jimin to reject their bond.” Taehyung grumbles, he’s not backing down. Neither are you.

“You what?” Yoongi is taken by complete surprise.

“I did.” You state matter of factly.

“You could die!” Taehyung is at his wits end. His emotions are now getting the better of him. “Don’t you care?”

“You told me to make a decision.” You spit back bitterly “So I made one.”

“Not this, please.” Taehyung crumbles, legs giving out. Planting himself on one of your arm chairs, sobs wracking through his body.

Your mind calms when you see your twinflame break down. You look at Yoongi who has gone rigid. He’s staring at the floor, letting everything sink in. Understanding flashes on his face when he looks up at you. You let in a deep inhale then exhale. Hands relax from fists, you didn’t realize you were grasping. You slowly walk over to Taehyung, crouching down and placing a hand on his shoulder. He hesitantly looks up, gaze cast over your shoulder, tears still streaming down his face. You peer at the older again and you see tears cascading down his round cheeks as he looks at you two.

“I’ve been running since my brother died. Running away from facing Jimin and this soulmate bond.” You smooth his hair away from his face, Yoongi now crouching next to you on the floor. “I’m not running anymore Tae. Please trust me. Trust that I’m strong enough to live through this”

Reaching over you wipe the tears of Yoongi’s face, as he croaks. “Please don’t do this..”

Taehyung envelopes you both on the floor. Both men are now clinging to you. For the first time they notice. Just how cold your skin is, and they break even more.

About Time || Finally Warm

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You are seriously so sweet 🥺🥺

Thank you so much for the mention 💜😭💜

do you have any fanfic recommendations? like your favs? or writers!! 👀

*inhales deeply*

I've been waiting for this.

*cracks knuckles*

OK so first thing first, I would recommend going to my side blog where I reblog fics, it's Seokjin's Bookclub and you can search it up or click on the link in my bio.

bUT I HAVE WRITER/FIC RECS!

first, my entire masterlist. tbh "Mine" is my most underrated fic I think and it's also one of my favs to go back and reread soooo yeah

here you go!

@dreamcatcherjiah - ok so Jiah is a gem and she's also SFW (I think most of these writers will be) but they've got awesome Idol aus/soulmate aus (I'm trash for Tight Hearts) they have a super fun, easy to binge masterlist!!

@moon-write - also SFW and if you like deep & angsty, go here. seriously. but also super comforting? super good characters/development and cool aus. (loving their on-going dad!BTS stuff: BTS as Fathers)

@holdinbacksecrets - if you want literal art to grace your screen, check out their works! tbh I'm binging their stuff rn and I'm in love. awesome ongoing thing that I'm trash for is Boyfriend Things which is a cool twist on the typical Tumblr writing layout that forces you to transport yourself into the little moments captured in each post

@junghelioseok - ok, gimme a minute. this blog isn't really SFW but they are so good at what they do and they're one of the first writers I followed here. Their fic Polaris left an impression on me that I've never forgotten, and honestly helped me decide that writing on Tumblr was worth the effort if I could touch people like Polaris touched me. they have a little follow-up to it that was literal perfection, Novae. be aware that Polaris has some smut, however it's fairly easy to skip over if you're uncomfortable with it and it's by no means pwp

@writemywaytoyourheart - I'm currently reading their current series, Aim for the Heart! This blog is SFW and lots of fun content to binge! Super sweet author (lol we've never really interacted but I've always respected them a lot) and you'll feel right at home on their blog!

@homeofbangtan - this is just beginning, but there's a whole lot of Hogwarts!BTS about to come your way! all of the writers involved (@delacyrose224 @sunshinejunghoseokie @mochi-molala @joheunsaram @joyfulhopelox & @ggukcangetit) are all super talented and have their very own master lists to binge! the first fic was dropped today: The Weasel and the Serpent, so be sure to check it out!! I mean, who doesn't love Slytherin!Yoongi?? I'll be dropping mine early next week for the collab, as well!

ok. that's all for now. I'll probably think of more later, lol. but, special shoutout to these writers because they're super talented as well and I've binged their entire masterlists and would gladly do so again:

@hyungieyoongi (literal angel and writes super relatable oneshots)

@dulce-pjm (super cool au's and sweetheart)

@shadowofahope (also really interesting ideas)

@jiminiesmagicshop (love their stuff!! super underrated)

@wtf-yoongi (chill writer, hits hard. esp. w/ Yoongi stuff)

AH @sierra-fics THANK YOU FOR LIKING THIS I KNEW I WAS MISSING SOMEONE AND IT WAS DRIVING ME CRAZY (they're awesome!!)

nd yeah. If I forgot to mention someone, I'm sorry, I still love your stuff but my brain is mush now lol

My soul-mateless Yoongi heart. He's too soft for me, everything I pictured for him. Literally right here

we live for main character yoongi