Madd Can Be So Scary Cause Sometimes You Just Teleport. I'll Get Into A Car, Ready For A 2 Hour Drive,

Madd can be so scary cause sometimes you just teleport. I'll get into a car, ready for a 2 hour drive, and- oh we're already there. I'm walking my cat, start thinking about something, next thing I know we're in a completely new location. Like how tf did i get here???

i enjoy going outside, ironically expressed by an agoraphobic. but it's the way it makes me feel grounded, connected to reality, rather than removed from everything. outside is where i should be, not in here... i enjoy seeing people and how human they are. it's the way people trip on the cracked sidewalk, with no one correcting them as their friends ask whether they're all right. as they tell their friends to look for a table while waiting in line. a mother holds her child's hand so that they do not get lost. students went home together. couples explore antique shops. people snap images to preserve memories. all of this can be me, experienced by me but all of me is trapped inside this toilet cubicle. waiting for the worst to happen and then it happens — i vomit, and vomit, and vomit. what am i? what if i am incapable of having human experiences?

Madd can actually be so embarrassing. One moment i'm popular and famous and talking about important topics on some talk show, the next I realize i've been staring at the candy isle in the grocery store for the last however-many minutes

While education is important it's less important than your own wellbeing.

I feel no shame in the fact that my mental health was put first, and that I didn't get my high school equivalency until later in life.

going outside would be so much easier if someone were holding my hand