New Pre-stream Archive, In Which I Compare And Contrast Some Games That Were Designed For Multiplayer

new pre-stream archive, in which i compare and contrast some games that were designed for multiplayer and how well each game accomplishes that goal!

some quick updates on streaming:

this week's Phantom Hourglass stream is being postponed by one week

to make up for it, i'll be streaming something that isn't Phantom Hourglass on Monday evening

next week's Phantom Hourglass stream will be the big finale stream... so it might start a little earlier to accommodate a longer stream

as usual, i'll keep y'all in the loop!

September, October, Cucumber, December

Hey its me again

I want you to remember to be nice to yourself because

uh

well I don't have a reason but I just think it's nice to be kind to yourself

hi friend! you have impeccable timing. last week i was struggling with a multi-day-long depressive spiral – and the moment you sent this ask, i was in the middle of spiraling and calling myself "incompetent." your ask helped me snap out of it.

"incompetent" is of course a value judgment, but this one has a little more punch... having to stop taking that adhd med really threw into sharp relief what an incredible struggle it is for me to just focus when i'm sitting at my desk. it makes all my struggles feel like my own fault, you know? like maybe i'm just too incompetent to understand what i'm trying to do, or how to fix my problems, or why i'm this deep in the hole.

none of this is true, of course, and that's easier to see now that i'm clawing back out of that depressive spiral. there are a TON of factors that are making it harder for me to get my work done right now, and i'm working on addressing each of those circumstances as i get the opportunity. but, god, it was SO hard not to see those circumstances as Personal Failures that i'm too incompetent to address.

so hey, seriously, thanks for sending this ask. it stopped my anxiety from kicking me while i was down.

the sun is shining in my heart once again... for the first time in several weeks

that adhd med REALLY didn't treat me very well, sadly! it helped me focus, for sure – but it actively tanked my sleep, worsened my stomach issues, and towards the end there it even pushed my depression to a new low!! i stopped taking it on friday and it's been slowly releasing its grip on my body over the weekend; as of today it has more or less worked its way out of my system (though my head is still a bit fuzzy).

being this sensitive to meds sucks. that was the lowest possible dose of that med! now i need to get some tests done so i can try other adhd meds, because my other options are all stimulants. if i'm this sensitive to a NON-stimulant, then i'm kinda scared to try the rest...!

finding the right med to treat these symptoms is a big guessing game of trying various options to see what works and what doesn't – everyone's brains are wired differently, and mine just happens to do Whatever That Was when i take a med that isn't for me. trying to find the right antidepressant was a very similar story...

at this point, though, i'm just glad i'm feeling better again. i'll miss my ability to focus and get out of my head more often... but i'll find it again someday!

new pre-stream archive! in which i talk about my stream schedule for the month, as well as the life-changing tacos my partner and i decided to go on a taco date for~