ABOUT ME

🦋🔷🌀 ABOUT ME 🌀🔷🦋

J ! Any Pronouns. Bi. 18. Sagittarius. Dec 12, 2005. INTP. Afro-Latin. Born in DR, Raised there until 8; And been growing up in America since. M.List.

Anon List!! (none yet😭)

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Biases:

- SKZ : OT8 !! Changbin is my ult bias!!

- ATEEZ : OT8 !!

- ENHA : Ni-Ki and Sunghoon biased !!

- XG : Cocona all the way🫡

- PsyFe : Jimmy, Ryushin and Kokoro biased !!

- P1H : Jeongseob and Soul biased !!

- XIKERS : Yechan and Sumin biased !!

- TxT : Beomgyu biased !!

- Been writing since middle school, stopped writing for fun in high school and picked it back up after my first year in college.

- Constructive criticism is completely accepted as I'm trying to get back into writing !!

Top groups : Stray Kids, ATEEZ, Enhypen, XG (X-Pop), Psychic Fever (J-Pop), P1Harmony, Xikers, and Tomorrow by Together.

Top Non-Kpop (and of the sort) Artists : Arctic Monkeys, System of a Down, Måneskin, Skindred, AC/DC (and more, but I'm lazy.)

- My story on how I got into K-pop is long, but let me cut it short for you! ↓↓

: 2019 - Randomly found an ATEEZHello82 interview during their ‘Wonderland’ promotions, became obsessed with the song, and added it to my playlist. Couple days later, I found a Kard Interview from their ‘Bomb Bomb’ promotions from a couple months earlier, became obsessed with the song, and also added it to my playlist. Couple days later, found ‘Boy With Luv’ by BTS, and while I didn’t like the song much, I enjoyed the video and was interested, leading me to look into them. BTS was the first group I stanned.

: 2020 - Introduced my older cousin to BTS and she became obsessed, obsessed to the point where she claimed biases and told me i couldn’t favorite the same songs as her or even bias the same members, this put me off and I slowly drifted from them.

: 2021 - Forgot that the BTS songs, ‘Wonderland’ and ‘Bomb Bomb’ were Kpop and I listened to them as if it was the like the rest of the music in my playlist, (except it wasn’t, i used to not separate my playlists so it was a jumbled mess of 80’s, Childish Gambino, Nu-Metal, Skindred, SOAD, Rock, Arctic Monkeys (literally their whole discography) and Måneskin. (so many more artists but im too lazy, basically, i listen to everything)

: 2022 : Early 2022 - Removed the Kpop songs from my playlist, leading me to forget about them. Late 2022 (Around October) - Asked my best friend who was very much into Kpop to recommend me some music, and I looked into it.

: 2023 (April) - Had a bunch of Kpop songs in a separate playlist, and came across a Kpop in public video, the song in it was ‘Maniac’ by SKZ which I then became obsessed with, that song led me to ‘Case 143’ which i listened to for months, and it intriguedme to the point where I thought “I HAVE to stan this group” and I looked into a guide. Then, 2023 (May) I fully considered myself both a Stay and a Kpop stan.

Later in the month: Started stanning other groups.

There's my story of how I got into K-pop, it's the shortest I could make it 😔.

I think I’ve been focusing too much on Stray Love, I have the next three chapters written, and I’ll use the time I have then to start writing “Distant Connection”

Stick around!

Stray Love

~ Unknowingly Known ~

Chapter #3

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Warnings ~ Fem Reader, Mentions of food, extra character (Bang Chan), Lots of emotions🙀

This is short, all chapters will be short, and the story will overall be short. I'm trying to get used to writing again.

Proofread by @hereforthedrinkss

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The next day, Sam didn't text you in the morning, so you just assumed he was busy with his job, you didn't have any classes today so you decided to take a shift for the whole day in the cafe, given that you had nothing to do.

You arrived at your shift, eagerly anticipating his arrival, hoping he would come to the cafe today. As you waited, you scrolled through Instagram, noticing Hyunjin had dyed his hair blonde and shared the news. You set your phone down to attend to a customer that walked in, but as you looked up, your heart skipped a beat.

There he was, the "mysterious" man, Sam, walking into the cafe with a friend. He was now sporting a newly dyed blonde head and... wait a second…

Your brain went into overdrive as you suddenly realized why his friend looked so familiar. It was Bang Chan himself! Standing right there in front of you and Sam..was Hyunjin.

Your hands trembled as you took their order, trying your hardest to maintain your composure.

When you were done preparing their orders, you brought them to their table, heart beating anxiously. You managed to slide a small note to “Sam”, praying Bang Chan didn’t notice.

As you set down the orders, you pointed to the note, silently signaling you needed to talk.

You waited for a moment as they both picked up their orders and took sips, pretending to be occupied by wiping down the counter as you secretly observed them.

Finally, he picked up the note and read it quietly, his expression betraying his shock. He turned to Bang Chan and whispered something we couldn’t hear.

Bang Chan looked at you curiously, but he seemed to understand what was going on.

The mysterious man got up from the table and walked over to you, his friend watching both of you intently.

Your heartbeat was ringing in your ears as you waited for him to speak, unsure of what he was going to say.

"Can we talk? In private?" He asked you, his voice low and serious.

You nodded, signaling to your manager that you were taking a break. He gave you a nod, understanding the situation.

You led him to the small back office, closing the door gently behind you

The room was cramped and quiet, the only sound was the faint noise of the cafe coming from outside.

He took a deep breath before speaking, his eyes locked on yours.

"I have to explain something to you."

“I know, Hyunjin. I had an idea but i didn’t want to assume or pressure you into telling me anything, I'll let you speak now..” You spoke, letting him know that the secret was out.

He let out a shaky breath, the tension in the room palpable.

"You knew?" he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

"I mean, I had my suspicions," you replied, "But I didn't want to jump to conclusions."

He nodded, a mix of relief and nervousness visible on his face.

"I wanted to tell you, I really did. But it's complicated..." he trailed off, the weight of his secret weighing on him.

You looked at him, your expression gentle and understanding. "You can tell me anything," you reassured him, "I promise I won't judge."

He took another deep breath, steadying himself before beginning his story.

"Remember when I said I had a job that kept me busy?.." he started, his voice wavering.

“Yes..and now I know, that that job, was you doing your K-pop idol duties,” you giggled at your wording.

He chuckled softly at your wording, a hint of a smile playing on his lips.

"Yeah, pretty much. But it's not just that."

He ran a hand through his hair, sighing heavily.

"It's this life I lead... the constant schedules, the performances, the pressure... it's all consuming."

He paused, searching for the right words. "And then there's..." he trailed off, hesitating for a moment.

You stayed silent, sensing that he was struggling with something. You reached out and gently touched his arm, offering a reassuring gesture.

"And then there's the secrecy, the constant hiding, the lies we have to tell."

He met your gaze, his eyes filled with a mix of vulnerability and resolve.

"We have to keep this lifestyle under wraps, especially when interacting with non-idols."

He paused, looking down at his hands. "It's like leading two lives..."

"One here, one in the spotlight. It's exhausting."

He looked up at you, searching your face for any signs of judgment or disgust.

"And then there's you," he continued, his voice softer now. "I met you that day, and it was like a breath of fresh air. You didn't know me as an idol, you just saw me as a regular person."

"It was different... exciting, even. Being able to act like a normal person again."

He chuckled slightly, a hint of bitterness in his tone. "And I wanted to keep that, I really did..."

"But I also knew I couldn't keep hiding it from you forever..."

He looked at you, his expression a mix of guilt and hope.

"I was scared of how you would react... if you would see me differently."

“I don’t see you differently, not at all. It makes sense that you kept this a secret. I don't want what we have to end, I haven't had anyone talk to me like you have for the past few weeks, not even my parents, it feels like they just forgot about me after I moved here. But this isn't about me. I would never see you differently” You confessed.

He let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding, his shoulders visibly relaxing.

"You have no idea how relieved I am to hear that..."

He took a step closer to you, his gaze locked on yours.

"I was so scared of losing you... of losing this."

He reached out and gently took your hand in his, his touch sending a jolt of electricity through you.

"You've become really important to me, more important than you could ever know..."

He looked down at your intertwined hands, his thumb gently rubbing circles on your skin.

"I didn't realize how lonely I was, how much I missed just... being around someone who saw me for me, not for who I am on stage."

He looked back up, his eyes searching yours.

"You have no idea how much you've changed my life, just by being here for me."

You were taken aback by his words, the vulnerability in his eyes making your heart ache with empathy.

"I'm here for you," you replied, squeezing his hand gently. "That hasn't changed, and it won't."

Hyunjin squeezed your hand a little bit before his face broke out in a smile, “You don't realize how many times the guys have argued with me over me leaving them to come here. The sense of normalcy you gave me was just so…addictive. I don't know, I really like being around you..”

You chuckled softly, imagining the playful banter between him and the other members.

"So you're saying I'm your escape from the K-pop life?" you teased jokingly.

He chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly.

"Something like that, yeah."

He paused, his expression softening as he looked at you.

"You're like a breath of fresh air amidst all the chaos."

You blushed slightly at his words, not used to such direct compliments.

"I'm glad I can provide some normalcy for you," you said with a small smile.

"More than some, trust me," he replied, a hint of playful banter sneaking back into his tone.

He took another step closer, his hand still holding yours.

"You're a distraction I didn't know I needed."

“And I'm glad to be that. But now, I won't be paying for your little iced americanos, and you know why.”

You giggled, teasing him.

He feigned a pout, a smirk on his face.

"Oh come on, not fair. I thought I was special," he playfully whined.

You stuck your tongue out at him, unable to resist joining in on the playful banter.

"Special privileges only go so far, mister K-pop star," you teased.

He chuckled, his smirk widening.

"Mister K-pop star, huh? I like that."

He inched closer, his proximity making your heart race.

"And what would it take to keep those special privileges?"

You feigned contemplation, pretending to think.

"Hmm, let's see...go out with me?"

You gave him a smile, knowing full well you had the upper hand now.

He raised an eyebrow, a mixture of surprise and amusement on his face.

"Oh really? You're getting demanding now."

He closed the remaining gap between you, standing mere inches away.

"And if I say no?"

“I’ll keep you locked in here until you say yes.” You say playfully.

He chuckled, his eyes sparkling with amusement.

"Is that a threat or a promise?"

He tilted his head slightly, a smirk playing on his lips.

“Take it as you want to take it. I, however, want an answer.” You say.

He chuckled again, enjoying your playful banter.

"Alright, alright. You drive a hard bargain."

He pretended to mull over the decision, his hand still holding onto yours.

"How about... yes. I'll go out with you."

You feigned surprise, pretending like you didn't expect him to agree so quickly.

"Oh, really? Just like that?"

You smiled, unable to hide your satisfaction.

He laughed, seeing through your act.

"Hey, you left me no room to say no, remember?"

He squeezed your hand, his gaze shifting to your intertwined fingers.

You chuckled, enjoying the way his touch made your heart skip a beat.

"That was the plan."

You looked up at him, a playful glint in your eye.

"You should know better than to challenge me."

“Also, I think we left your friend alone, that's not very nice..” You say.

Hyunjin's expression shifted to realization as you reminded him of Chan waiting for him outside.

"Oh shoot, I totally forgot about him," he said with a sheepish grin.

He looked at you apologetically. "I got a little distracted..."

He began to back away, still holding your hand in his.

"I should probably go back out there, before he starts asking questions."

You gave his hand a playful tug, pulling him back towards you.

"And just abandon me here, alone in this cramped office? How cruel."

You pouted dramatically, feigning sadness.

He chuckled, unable to resist your playful act.

"Cruel, huh? I'm pretty sure I'm the one who's just been ambushed."

He took a step closer again, the proximity between you causing your heart to race once more.

“Im joking, I'm joking! Go!”

He sighed dramatically, playing along.

"Fine, fine. You win this time."

He took a step back, reluctantly releasing your hand.

"I'll go back out there, but only because I don't want Chan getting suspicious."

He paused for a moment, looking back at you with a smirk.

"But this isn't over."

He turned and walked back out of the office, leaving you alone with your racing heart and a smile on your face.

You stayed in the office for a moment, leaning against a nearby wall as you tried to calm your racing heart. You couldn't help but feel giddy at the way the conversation had turned out.

After a few deep breaths, you composed yourself and walked back out into the main area of the cafe.

Your gaze immediately landed on Hyunjin, who was playfully arguing with Chan about something you couldn't quite catch. You chuckled to yourself as you watched them banter back and forth.

As if sensing your gaze, Hyunjin glanced over at you, his expression changing to a sheepish smile.

Chan, noticing Hyunjin's glance, followed his gaze and spotted you.

He looked at you for a moment, his expression unreadable, before turning back to Hyunjin and smirking.

You could see Hyunjin's face flush with embarrassment as Chan said something to him, and you couldn't help but feel a pang of curiousity. What was he saying?

Hyunjin muttered something back, his expression defensive, and Chan chuckled.

You continued with your tasks, trying to subtly listen in on their banter while pretending to work.

Their conversation was hushed, so you couldn't catch every word, but you could tell they were talking about you from the way they would occasionally look over in your direction.

Hyunjin seemed to be getting progressively more flustered as Chan continued to tease him, and you wondered what exactly he was saying to make him so red in the face.

Eventually, Chan patted Hyunjin on the shoulder to signal an end to the conversation, and Hyunjin let out a sigh of relief. He looked over at you, his expression a mix of embarrassment and amusement.

You shot him a playful smirk, your eyebrow raised in a silent question.

He chuckled and rolled his eyes, his expression conveying the message of "Don't ask" very clearly.

Hyunjin approached you, looking a bit flushed from the conversation with Bang Chan. As Chan headed towards the door, Hyunjin paused in front of you, a playful twinkle in his eye. He looked at you for a moment before gently lifting his mask, revealing his face. Leaning in, he planted a soft kiss on your flushed cheek, his lips lingering for a moment before he pulled back with a flustered grin.

He walked outside where Chan was standing and Chan chuckled at the sight giving Hyunjin a playful nudge, which caused Hyunjin to fluster even more as they walked away from the cafe.

You stood there, your heart racing and a stunned expression on your face. Your hand slowly came up to touch your cheek where Hyunjin had kissed you, the lingering warmth of his lips sending shivers down your spine.

I HAVENT HAD A SINGLE MOMENT WHERE I FELT UNMOTIVATED THESE PAST FEW DAYS 💪💪💪

Stray Love

(what Hyunjin was aggressively typing away at on his phone)

Chapter #1 (Extra)

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Warnings~ This is just a little extra, this whole thing is over text!

This is what Hyunjin was so aggressively typing.

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Have this because writing chapter 4 has been actual hell.

I was looking for those too the other day! Literally only re-downloaded Wattpad for that, but can’t find any 😭😭

guys wtf happened to all the good creepypasta content😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨

I JUST WANT MY SILLY SLENDERMANSION FANFICS BACK.

I WANT MY CHILDHOOD BACK

I WANT THIS FANDOM BACK TO WHAT IT WAS.

BUT I ALSO WANT GOOD CREEPYPASTA FICS

I ALSO WANT PEOPLE WHO WRITE REALISTIC HEADCANNONS TO STEP FORWARD AND KEEP DOING IT.

ITS TAKES ME HOURS OF SCROLLING THROUGH TUMBLR AND AO3 TO FIND SOMETHING THAT IS NOT HEADCANNONS (too many headcannons EVERYWHERE.) AND ARE ACTUAL FICS THAT HAVENT BEEN DISCONTINUED.

I respect the people on tumblr who still write for the fandom so much 🫡🫡

Where did everyone who was in this fandom go??😟

I’m gonna write a fake text story, it’s gonna be Idol!Seungmin x Gn!Reader. And it’s gonna be my longest one so far, just you watch.