My Worst Fear Is Being With A Man Who Only Uses Me For My Body. Having Sexual Trauma Makes Intimacy Of

My worst fear is being with a man who only uses me for my body. Having sexual trauma makes intimacy of even the smallest kind scary and hard.

Was out taking care of my animals and my body overheated and I ended up knocked out on my floor 🧍🏽‍♀️

Katsuki Bakugou x Reader "Still love you the same"

Tw: implied domestic abuse with comfort ofc

Pro hero AU

It was a rainy day and you and Katsuki both had the day off. Katsuki's presence alone normally soothes your mind, but today the universe has other plans. You hadn't meant for him to see it, you had just wanted to get a book from the shelf, and your shirt lifted up just enough to be able to see the scar. A shitty reminder of being hurt by someone you loved and trusted. You froze, feeling his gaze on your back. Katsuki stepped closer, his expression unreadable. You felt your body wanted to run, not out of fear or shame but because you didn't want any pity he had to give. "Are there anymore? You never told me about this " he asks softly but yet you could still feel the emotions in his words. You felt his hands hovering over the scars, the warmth of his hands radiating onto your skin. "Who did this?" He asks his voice firm and is still calm when he does. "It doesn't matter it was a long time ago Katsu" His gaze softens but doesn't leave you. You knew he wouldn't push but you knew the thought of someone hurting you was hurting him. "I don't want your pity" you say before you are cut off "Scars visible or not are nothing, they don't define you"

"it was my fault, I didn't leave when I should have.." you said feeling the tears swell into your eyes. He pulled your towards him "You didn't deserve that regardless of if you stayed. Don't be stupid and blame yourself "

You could feel the tears falling and your throat cloging up, "I wish I had been there"

"well you're here now right?" He wraps his arms around you giving you a sense of safety and comfort. "Nothing will hurt you, no one will lay a hand on you as long as I'm around. I promise." He says followed by a quiet "I believe you"

He cups his hands around your cheeks kissing you softly on the forehead then on the lips. You closed your eyes feeling safe and comfortable. Katsuki made you feel safe and vulnerable at the same time and that's why you love him so much.

Sorry for not posting I've been going through it, please leave any requests you have !

Izuku Midoriya x Reader "Breathe"

Slight Tw; panic attack and mentions of prescription drugs

REQUEST ARE OPEN!

Quirk: Light manipulation. You can move and summon light, light bending, summoning balls of light ranging from small particles to large masses.

Izuku was never one to force you to do anything you felt uncomfortable doing. He knew you had problems with crowded and loud spaces so the last thing he wanted to do was pressure you into going out after you’d already had a rough week. There was something about seeing his face light up when he got invited to some kind of get together, and you didn't want to hold him back from doing something he was happy about. At the same time the last thing you wanted was to be left home alone with no one to hold for most if not all the night.

It was about 30 minutes before the event started and you’d already gotten ready and Izuku was going crazy looking for his only “good jacket” and as much as you love him it was stressing you out more than you already were you reached for the bottle of your bottle of anxiety meds took one and put the bottle in your Izuku's pocket, it was a normal occurrence for you to make him hold you medicine in the event that you needed it, not that you couldn't do it yourself it was just easier to let him hold onto it for you. He looked over to you and grabbed your hand.

“Hey, you don't have to do this, you know.. I can stay home and cuddle with you if that's what you want baby.”

The party wasn't as bad as you imagined it to be, yeah it was loud but it wasn't really crowded as you thought it’d be. Then again you and Izuku were really early.

You looked up at him leaning into his chest debating on what you wanted to do before the memory of how excited he seemed about it.

“No, its okay i wanna do this with you” you said wrapping your arms around him 

As the night went on more and more people showed up and it became harder and harder for you to stay close to Izuku and you didn't want to seem too clingy while he was with his hero friends. 

That was before you could feel your chest pounding out your chest and your vision get shaky from the lights. 

After a few minutes of wandering you found yourself outside behind the building feeling the rush of anxiety hit and your body shake even more. You were a Pro- Hero you couldn't be seen losing your shit over a crowded party, it was just embarrassing. You could feel your body glowing and could see tiny light particles forming around you, it was something that tended to happen when you got anxious and wasn't something you could really control.

It wasn't long until your mild panic attack turned into a fairly bigger one and by that time Izuku had found you. Your mind was going at 100 miles per hour and your chest felt like it was about to explode. It seemed impossible to focus on one thing. Then a familiar voice you found comfort in appeared,

“Hey, baby look and me please” You tried your best to meet his eyes and you felt his hands cup your face “Breathe with me darling, In.. hold.. out.. “ He repeated those words slowly a few times before guiding you to a spot to sit down, handing you a bottle of cold water and one of your pills, “Come get me next time darling, I got really worried when I saw you glowing like that.” His voice was so soft and full of genuine concern as he placed his hand you your shaking legs helping you better ground yourself “i- I didn't want to seem too clingy in front of your friends Izu” He got on the ground in front of you placing his hands on you tearstained face kissing you “I would rather be near you all the time more than anything. I don't mind, I’d honestly rather you be with me and out here a glowing crying mess, I love being with you and being with you my love”

His words felt so real and genuine and gave you some sense of reassurance. After a few minutes you felt like you were about to pass out before you felt Izuku pick you up and carry you to his car. When you woke up you were at home and he helped you out the car into the house.

You very quickly got out the stuffy dress clothes you'd been in all night putting on some shorts and one of Izuku’s sweaters, you turned around to see Izuku already changed and just looking at you lovingly. “You're so pretty, y’know that?” he placed a kiss on your lips before leading you to the bed and cuddling with you until you fell asleep

sOOOO sorry this was so short but ive been stressed with DCI and a bunch of Uni prep things. Remember eat, drink and take meds if you need too

Grief is a funny thing isn't it? We are so use to having dinner done by 5, so we are used to buying loto tickets

Everything feels so blurry

Illness

To exist to me have a heartbeat, to live is to interact with others, to make something of yourself. To be truly alive we all must suffer. Not everyone will suffer the same. Many people may go through hardships that are mental or physical. I feel like I can't even feel anything a normal amount. To live is to make something of yourself, so why when I try I am constantly healed back?

I love going out, I love doing things with the people I love, but in doing so I put a strain on my body that makes me unable to do more. I find myself at practice taking breaks more than everyone else. A wave of guilt eats away at me "why am I doing less than everyone else?" But then being reminded that my body is simply defective.

Having 1 chronic illness is hard, having 2 make living a good, happy, healthy life feel impossible.