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(Supernatural: The Long Road Home)

Does anyone out there get scared when they start to see improvement in their mental illnesses?

Like, I’ve been dealing with mental illness for a long time and I finally got to a point where my medication and treatment and everything actual seems like it’s working. I feel better than I’ve felt in a long long time. I still have my bad days, but overall things are better.

I should be stoked. And I’m a way, I am. But at the same time it’s scary to not have my mental illnesses and all the symptoms that come along with them as a way of protecting me??? It’s hard to explain. But it’s almost become comfortable for me to be caught up in my symptoms. Now, it’s uncharted territory. It’s scary.

Just curious if anyone else has ever experienced this?

Might as well introduce myself

My name is Julia.  I am a twenty something college student.  I struggle with depression and anxiety while obsessing over my goldendoodle. I am a straight, sandy hair, blue eyed female who fully supports the LGBTQ community. I love most everything about the world especially daisies, sunsets, and the oceans. When I’m not working at the hospital, going to school, or contemplating my existence you can usually find me swimming laps, binging my favorite shows on Netflix, or hanging out and laughing with some of the coolest people on Earth (my friends). I love writing poems and short stories that eventually turn into fanfic, doing scavenger hunts like GISH and Questival, watching the weather channel, volunteering to do service for others, being a camp counselor, planning my wedding on Pinterest, camping by lakes in the mountains that surround me, bad jokes, mountain biking, dreaming about fancy parking spots that I’ll get when I’m done with medical school, exercising so I can eat food, and blasting classic rock from my Mini Cooper with the windows down.  My dream vacation would be anywhere with a beach but my bucket list locations are Nepal and Turkey...and Versailles.  I can speak french and english, but mostly movie quotes.  I’m passionate about history and I like to pretend I understand quantum physics. I’m an Aries and a hardcore believer in the Golden Rule.  I think you should focus on your why and not so much your what in order to be successful and that when you wish upon a star your dreams will come true (after a lot of hard work and dedication that is). Face masks are my life and I don’t even know if they work or not; I just like peeling them off my face.  Pepsi over Coke, Coffee over Tea, Redvines over Twizzlers, Dogs over Cats, Outside over Inside.  I think Superheroes are real and there are angels all around us. I try to be positive but can be quite the Debbie Downer at times. I have dreams of making the world a better place and I hope all will be ship shape in Bristol fashion by the end. I believe that we can learn from our mistakes and be strong through our trials and that is how we grow and perfect ourselves.  I love questions and to motivate others and I know I’m new to the whole blogging thing and literally have NO FOLLOWERS whatsoever and that’s ok.  I’m doing this as much for myself as for others.  Anyway, me in a nutshell.

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