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Thinking about killing myself right now, but I'm not even particularly suicidal, just forcing myself to be numb so I don't have the umpteenth panic attack over my future(both future as in five hours from now, and future as in the rest of my life).

i actually feel okay! 😊 *random wave of depression* oh wait nvm im a shit person and i should mutilate myself beyond recognition ok

I used to sleep a lot because it was the closest I could get to peace of mind, but now I've lost that too..

I wish suicide was easier

in all ways except physical i am dead

i hope to complete the process soon

8 days clean is actually a lot for me

I'll never be a real boy and it goddamn hurts not being able to do anything about it

even on good days i lowkey wanna kms

well! I'm actually going to sleep in a good mood because I'm really excited to continue a drawing ahhh this feels nice for a change

so that's it, I'm just gonna feel back pain for the rest of my days??

it's ok i just need to put on a really big hoodie about this

They should invent a falling asleep that is easy

no I'm genuinely okay, there's objectively no reason for me to be upset (I'm uncontrollably sobbing)

sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal

hey google tell me how to stop feeling a crippling and deep seated fear of abandonment

I have a crush on self isolation don’t tell her tho

clearly the mental illness is mental illnessing

i'm not asking too much, i just want someone to be obsessed with me for life

Someone to call me "my darling", that's what i want.

can someone come lay on the ground and be sad with me

i am utterly unloved