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I am now hearing voices inside my head

He isn't mean, he's actually really nice

But i dont think he can stay

When will the pain be over

The nightmares

I'm tired

I'm done

I can't go on, not like this.

How do I tell my therapist that I have a voice in my head?

I swear I can physically hear my brain telling me to unalive myself.

I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning

i want to vanish, so completely, that even i would not remember me

i consume copious amounts of caffeine on a daily basis and am still tired

i don’t deserve anything

good god i just want to be enough

It was like 40°F this morning..

Jesus my joints are killing meeeeeeeee~ I just wanna be at home cuddled in my blankets🥺😖😖😵‍💫😵‍💫🫠

I swear to god I’m going to disappear one day…

I had a panic attack at work today, but i also have one every morning when I wake up, so what's new.

Trying my best not to act like how I feel.

I was telling my therapist in our last about how no one would miss me or cared if I died, and they didn't assure that they would. Ouch... that hurt. Yep, definitely gonna kms soon.

i wish i was brave enough to finish the job

What if I just leave and tell no one where I am going

Will they even question where I am or just not care at all

Because it seems all the people in my life are just sick of me at this point

"Showing your emotions to people is like bleeding next to a shark."

And I felt that.

one deep talk and apology can fix a lot of shit but people ain't mature enough for that.

My days-in-a-row-I-self-harmed streak is (most probably) longer than the longest time I've been clean in the past 2 years, wow.

I don't get why everyone thinks sh is only and exclusively on the arms

Wtf dude

I don't want perfect, I want real.

why do i force myself to not express what im feeling to not hurt others

i don’t want to hurt them, but it hurts me too