He Dont Find His Mate Qwq

He dont find his mate qwq

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I.. Changed...

Chapters: 6/11 Fandom: Rammstein Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Richard Kruspe/Paul Landers, Till Lindemann/Christian Lorenz | Flake Characters: Till Lindemann, Richard Kruspe, Paul Landers, Christoph Schneider | Doom, Christian Lorenz | Flake, Oliver Riedel Additional Tags: lot of angst, Member death, Heavy Angst, Angst and Tragedy, Psychological Drama, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder, And that's why half the internet hates me, paulchard, In some scenes, Rammstein AU, Borderline Personality Disorder, Emotional Hurt/Comfort Summary:

When they had just returned from long tour. After a short break, they're back with a new album. But that never happened. The members of Rammstein are victims of a horror accident and because of this the band is disbanded. Richard Kruspe remembers nothing of that day and is forced to take the band back together again. Up until the point when Till revealed his dark side. Which almost cost Richard his life. (This is not a prophecy) !AU

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Title: We're always up to snow good Pairing: Paul Landers / Richard Z. Kruspe Presentee:@aunt-cheese Prompt: Ice Skating Warnings/Tags: first dates | just fluff | adorable Richard Word Count: 2.388 Summary: Richard isn’t sure if Paul had just asked him out but he really hopes so. Paul is just nervous that his idea of a first date is a good one. Read on AO3: here

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“Hmm I don’t know. I think it doesn’t really rhyme,” Richard says, when he looks down at the paper Till is writing on. Till nods, seeming lost in his thoughts. It’s not often that they’re writing stuff together, but Richard likes when it happens. 

“Maybe you’re right,” Till says and he crosses the word out. Richard tries to think of something else, because he does like the idea Till had, it just sounded a bit weird if he’d sing it.

“What’s up you two old men?”

Paul walks inside, he’s wearing a cute beanie, Richard realizes when he looks at him. Till is still concentrating on his paper, but Richard’s eyes would always wander over to Paul if they are in the same room.

He just can’t help that.

Love sucks sometimes.

“You are older than me,” Richard points out but Paul just ignores him altogether and walks over to Till, so he can watch over his shoulder as well. Paul then winks at him though and Richard hopes he’s not actually blushing.

His cheeks do feel warm suddenly though. Shit.

Richard is not sure when this damn crush on his band member had even started. One second he had been just friends with Paul and the next thing he knows is that he’s thinking about him all the time.

Especially when he can’t sleep.

Till thinks Richard has been in love for a few years now. 

Maybe he’s right.

“Just writing,” Till mutters and he scribbles something else down. Richard doesn’t look what exactly he’s writing down, because he is still watching Paul who starts to pout now. Seems like he’s bored.

“That’s lame. Can’t we do something else?” Paul asks and Richard chuckles, because Paul will always just be adorable. Paul looks back to him and Richard hastily looks away, he hates when Paul catches him staring.

“No, I do want to finish this today, but you could take Richard with you. Now that you are here he’s no help anymore,” Till says and he’s laughing at his own dumb joke. Richard smacks him on the head.

Only then realizing that this makes it kinda worse and more obvious.

Paul is smiling though.

Richard swallows and looks back at the paper, ignoring how Till winces and rubs over the spot Richard had just smacked. He deserves that and besides they both know it has not been that hard. 

For someone who enjoys pain, Till could be a baby sometimes.

For show obviously. 

“Rich?”

“Hm?”

“Do you want to do something with me?” Paul asks and he walks closer to him. Richard almost leans a bit back, but that would probably seem a bit weird. Just seconds ago he had been really close to Till. 

“Uhm… like what?” Richard asks and Paul seems to think about that for a moment. Richard knows exactly what he’d like to do to Paul but he surely would not speak that out loud. Ever.

“Something nice. Just you and me. I have a fantastic idea and I would like to take you out, if you want?” Paul says and his voice drops a bit. Richard swallows and he sees how even Till turns around to them now.

“Me?” Richard asks just to make sure and for a second he can see how Paul’s smile falters. It’s quiet for a moment, Paul just watches him.

“Yeah, you want to? I’d still need to get ready and you should change too. Wear something warm, I’ll meet you at the fountain down in the town,” Paul says and when Richard nods, he even takes another step closer and presses a soft kiss to Richard’s cheek.

Paul leaves when Richard doesn’t say anything else. 

“Holy shit,” Till speaks up, when Richard stands there like an idiot, holding his hand to the cheek Paul had just kissed.

His stomach is on fire.

“D-did he really just ask me out on a date?” Richard asks, his voice so soft and excited at the same time. He’s not even sure what he’s feeling, because he doesn’t want to fuck this up, but he’s also happy.

“It really sounded like that. Fucking finally,” Till says and he finally gets up from his chair. Richard is being hugged a second later and Till even picks him up for a second. Richard can’t help but laugh.

“Shit I need to get ready. I have no idea what to wear,” Richard says then and Till laughs so loudly at that.

“I’ll help you,” Till offers and Richard nods a bit relieved. While he loves to dress up for their shows, in his private life he’s dressed way more… relaxing. He has no idea how he could pull off a nice and warm look.

They walk to Richard’s room and hear that Paul is showering in their small shared bathroom. Richard doesn’t allow himself to think about that and waves to Schneider, when they pass him in the hallway. 

“Do you even have a thick jacket with you?” Till asks when they enter his room. Richard nods and holds up his black jacket. It’s nothing special but if Paul wants to walk around in the snow for a walk or something it should keep him warm.

“Good. That’s a bit boring though. You need to look cute so he will want to kiss you the second he sees you,” Till says and he opens Richard’s wardrobe. Richard sighs.

“I’m not cute,” Richard grumbles and Till snickers.

“But you do wanna look cute for him right?” Till asks and Richard crosses his arms, looking away, so that he doesn’t have to admit that he’s right.

“I could wear my beanie, but then it kinda ruins my hair and that took me so long this morning,” Richard says and he sighs. But a beanie could look adorable though? 

“I know I heard you bitching in the bathroom, even Paul was impressed by that variety of swear words, but then again he’s always impressed by you,” Till says and then he holds something else up.

“Hell yes! You need to wear this, won’t even destroy your hair badly,” Till says and Richard’s eyes widen. He hadn’t even known that he owned something like that. 

“W-what if it’s not even a date?” Richard asks while he changes into another dark jeans and a thick sweater so he wouldn't freeze to death. He sees that Till frowns at his choice of sweater but thankfully he doesn’t comment.

It’s Paul’s sweater and Richard had stolen it ages ago. 

“Should I wear make-up?” Richard asks and Till shrugs.

“First of all I think you should be yourself. He likes you the way you are, but since you always wear make-up he’d be confused if you didn’t. It’s okay to doll yourself up a bit,” Till says Richard nods.

It doesn’t take him long to get ready, his heart beating so fast.

His first date with Paul.

*

Paul is nervous but he tries not to let it show. He’s not even sure why he had asked Richard out in the first place. It’s not like he doesn’t want to spend time with him - quite the opposite, since he’s been in love with him for years - but he’s not sure where the sudden courage had come from.

Normally Paul isn’t shy about flirting at all, but it’s different with Richard.

Everything is different with Richard.

Maybe that’s love.

Paul smiles to himself and he gasps when he finally arrives at the christmas market. Luckily nobody really knows them here in France and so nobody really pays him any mind. It’s exactly why they had chosen this small town.

It’s not even the Christmas market that makes him gasp, but Richard.

He’s already waiting at the fountain, biting on his lips. Probably nervous. Paul hopes that he had even understood that he had been asking him out. Paul had hated how he had done that, he could have done it a bit more obvious, but he’d been scared that the word date would shoo Richard away. 

“Hey,” Paul says when he’s close enough. Richard always looks stunning in his eyes, but this is just ridiculous. 

“Hey Paul,” Richard says, his voice so soft. His nose is already so red from the cold and Paul wishes he could lean even closer and press a kiss on it.

“You look so good, but I think part of that is because you are wearing my sweater. I looked for that earlier,” Paul says and he enjoys how Richard actually blushes at that. 

“It’s warm and it smells like you, sorry but I had no choice but still it,” Richard admits and he’s still so shy and nervous. Paul’s own heartbeat picks up again. He really doesn’t want to fuck this up. 

“I’ll let you keep it. Wouldn’t want you to freeze to death,” Paul chuckles, and he sees how Richard shyly looks away. Gosh he has really no idea how to pull this off. Normally they are both not like this.

Maybe… maybe Richard really liked him too?

“But my favorite part has to be your ear muffs,” Paul says and he means it. They’d probably look stupid on most people, but they suit him so good. Paul loves his hair and now it’s beautifully covered in snowflakes. 

“Thank you,” Richard says, his face now bright red. Paul can’t help but press a short kiss to his left cheek again. Richard smiles widely, when he leans back, so Paul tries to relax.

“So what did you have in mind?” Richard asks and Paul can see that he’s looking at all the stalls around them.

“It’s a surprise, come,” Paul says and he holds his hand out. Richard takes it without batting an eyelash and now it’s Paul who’s blushing like an idiot. It feels good to hold Richard’s hand, Paul would love to do that all the time.

Maybe soon he’d be allowed to?

They stop in front of the huge ice rink and Paul smiles, when Richard’s eyes widen at that.

“Can you ice skate?” Paul asks and Richard thinks about it for a moment, before he slowly shakes his head. Paul laughs and then pulls Richard even closer.

“That’s good. Means you have to hold onto my hand the whole time,” Paul says and Richard smiles so sweetly again. Paul almost kisses him right there and then, but instead he tells Richard to wait there, so he could get them their skates. 

It doesn’t take long for them to both get changed and Paul is the first one to step on the ice. It had been a while for him too, but at least he didn't fall flat on his ass. He wobbles a lot though, Richard smiles widely. 

“Stop laughing, I wanna see you do it better,” Paul says and Richard stops smiling. He’s even more unstable on his feet than Paul and almost falls, but he holds him up. Richard grins a bit embarrassed.

“This will end in a disaster,” Richard says but he is still grinning. Paul holds his hand out again and Richard takes it. He doesn’t feel his skin through the mittens they are wearing, but Paul likes it anyway.

Richard almost falls again and Paul grabs both his arms for a second. They’re both looking at each other and when Richard takes another deep breath, Paul looks away and breaks the moment. He hates himself for it but he’s still scared. 

They do continue to skate very carefully and by now a few people are staring at them but Paul doesn’t care and neither does Richard. Just as they almost finish the first round around the rink, Richard suddenly loses his balance.

Paul falls first though while he had tried to help Richard stay upright and Richard falls right on top of him, which does hurt a bit. Not that Paul minds if he has this good-looking man on top of him. 

“Oh,” Richard breathes, looking so surprised, his beautiful gray eyes wide. Paul can’t help himself this time and pulls Richard closer so he can kiss him. Richard gasps against his own cold lips and Paul doesn’t even care about the coldness of the ice against his back, he kisses him even deeper and Richard makes such a sweet sound at that.

“Wow,” Paul mumbles himself when he breaks the kiss and they both open their eyes. There is a woman swearing somewhere next to them, but he doesn’t pay her any attention.

Richard kissed him back.

“Let me help you up,” Richard says and he gets back up on his skates. He holds his hands out and Paul takes them happily. Suddenly Richard doesn’t even seem unsteady on his skates anymore. 

Paul frowns.

“You do know how to ice skate,” Paul says and Richard grins, before he does a short pirouette. Paul gasps. 

“Yeah sorry. I just really wanted you to finally kiss me. Took you long enough to get all my hints,” Richard says and he winks at him. Paul can’t even be offended instead he laughs.

“Of course. You are perfect at everything,” Paul says, pressing another short kiss to Richard’s mouth now that he’s allowed to. 

“Well you know me, I’m always up to snow good,” Richard says and the joke was really bad, but Paul can’t help but laugh anyway.

“You are such an asshole,” Paul says when he sees how Richard easily does another pirouette, while Paul just tries to stay upright. Why had he thought that this was a good idea for their first date?

“But you like me anyway,” Richard says when he skates closer again, taking both of Paul’s hands.

Paul smiles.

“It’s part of the reason why I fell in love with you, yes,” Paul says and the blush on Richard’s face is real though. Richard smiles so softly. It looks like he’s close to tears too and Paul pulls him closer.

“I love you too,” Richard whispers back, when they hug. Luckily the damn skate rink is pretty much empty and they’re standing against the railing of it now. Paul really doesn’t want to fall on his ass again. 

“Good. Now I think you should really teach me to skate though,” Paul says and Richard laughs so cutely again.

It’s Paul’s favorite sound in the world. 

Happy birthday The Golden Man <3.