What Do I Look Like In Your Memory?

What do I look like in your memory?

a man being protective over you in a healthy way is the hottest thing

I don’t want a new tc but damn I like when he looks at me like that. It feels so good to be seen again and talk about more than just the subject with a teacher again. I learned more about him today, and tried to talk to him like I would g. Still, it didn’t feel nearly as special. I couldn’t stop thinking about, how, if g had opened up that way I would be feeling a lot happier.

i want a relationship like « you can be the boss » by lana del rey

You have to understand that time is a gift,

Not a promise.

You only get a certain amount of time,

And once it’s gone, the story ends.

It has brought an end to our story

I really want him to be there for me as an adult and stuff. Like, I kind of need that in my life genuinely. If my dad moves out, and mom or her shitty boyfriend have to teach me how to drive I just won’t.

I miss him, but I feel like I secretly want him to be the stability I just don’t have. It’s probably some messed up inner, past issues biz :/