Since The Pressure Started Moving In

Since the pressure started moving in

chitter-chatter becomes, pitter-patter,

run, run, run away to where, who, and why?

exhale, exhale, inhale, push the pressure out

maybe make mind maintenance reports.

“Fine” I say I’m okay. Nothing’s wrong,

overall, it’s good, not much right, not much wrong

record scratch, and play, play again. My mind

Hurts me with no reason of its own, screaming

explaining nothing is wrong, I need to run,

let the air chase away the boulder, the

pitter-patter turning into a

scream for help, since “fine” hurts.

Grandma almost cooler than me.

Muir Muirdemuir

They make up 100% of my followers

the sexy girlbots are returning. nature is healing

My dad and I once had a disagreement over him using the adage "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I said, "That's just not true. Sometimes what doesn't kill you leaves you brittle and injured or traumatized."

He stopped and thought about that for a while. He came back later, and said, "It's like wood glue."

He pointed to my bookshelf, which he helped me salvage a while ago. He said, "Do you remember how I explained that, once we used the wood glue on them, the shelves would actually be stronger than they were before they broke?"

I did.

"But before we used the wood glue, those shelves were broken. They couldn't hold up shit. If you had put books on them, they would have collapsed. And that wood glue had to set awhile. If we put anything on them too early, they would have collapsed just the same as if we'd never fixed them at all. You've got to give these things time to set."

It sounded like a pretty good metaphor to me, but one thing I did pick up on was that whatever broke those shelves, that's not the thing that made them stronger. That just broke them. It was being fixed that made them stronger. It was the glue.

So my dad and I agreed, what doesn't kill you doesn't actually make you stronger, but healing does. And if you feel like healing hasn't made you stronger than you were before, you're probably not done healing. You've got to give these things time to set.

Unicorns: Stabby, glorious, buetiful

I feel like everyone has one specific mythical creature that makes up at least 5% of their identity