Just Rewatched Demon Slayeryou Know What That Means

just rewatched demon slayer…you know what that means 😈

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Something that really fucks me up is this scene where Robin says she wants to die and how Luffy makes this face

And upon reading this for the first time, I felt a huge wave of emotion over his expression because it just felt to me like when he heard that, he was seeing something else. Almost like a memory that we weren't being shown.

And then later when Ace and Luffy's backstory plays out, this is revealed;

That Ace was suicidal. Feeling like it was wrong for him to have even been born and to live. Feeling hurt, angry, alone and unwanted.

And that the only reason he felt like he had the strength to keep living was because Luffy told him that he didn't want him to die.

Ace never directly told Luffy that he wanted to kill himself. But with the way he carried himself and the obvious disregard he had for his life, it was easy to see for someone as empathetic and intuitive as Luffy. And so Luffy stayed close to Ace desperately until he felt strong enough to stand on his own.

Luffy has had so many suicidal people in his life since such a young age and he always saves them in such a seemingly effortless way just by saying

"I'll be there with you. I'll stay."

But what alot of people don't understand is that in spite of Luffy's endless empathy, compassion and love that's deeper than the ocean, when somebody he loves wants to die it always hurts him so bad and it shows so much on his face at even a hint of it.

He bounces back with a smile so often and kicks so much ass that it's so easy to forget sometimes that he's just this 17-19 year old kid...

Who, at his core, is still always crying and begging the people he loves not to leave him because he doesn't want to be alone anymore, either.

*One day, in the great hall, Sirius receives a howler from Walburga over a recent 'rebellious' act of his.

Towards the end she belittles him with, "....I shall not hear of this disgusting behavior again, Sirius Orion Black. I will not stand for it anymore."

Having had enough and feeling spiteful, Sirius is quick to stand up in his seat and summon some parchment and his wand.

If a howler about his behavior was the only way his egg donor was willing to contact him, using his full name nonetheless, he should just bestow her with equal treatment.

"Mother dearest,

Having just received your, oh so kind, message I feel the need to respond promptly, and in turn. I would hate to keep you waiting, afterall. It has come to my attention that you find my behavior.... disgraceful? Maybe a bit, mhm, overwhelming for your feeble sense of character." Sirius spoke into the parchment, voice strengthening with each line. Pausing to add thought to his tone.

"Maybe a bit, mhm, overwhelming for your feeble sense of character." He added, pausing for effect. His voice sturdy, readying for what he was about to do.

"It's truly terrible, what a great shame you and the others like you bring to the name of the Most Noble and Ancient House of Black. I mean, so shallow minded and stuck in the error of you ways, you can hardly tell that your heads are farther up your own arses than most would think possible. I mean, the only thing rivaling it are the sticks. Those make you lot a gaggle of human kabobs."

Sirius' voice wavers into a chuckle. His tone leading more into an exasperated chiding throughout. Similar to one of that a decent parent uses when their child misbehaved in a hilarious, yet reproachful way.

"I mean, it only makes sense that I, Sirius Orion Black, as you so graciously chained me is the one with the 'disgusting and disgraceful' behavior here." His voice dripping with sarcasm as Sirius considers his next words, temper finally losing its patience.

"After all, I am Sirius. Orion. Black. My initials are quite literally 'S', 'O', 'B'. I'm a sob story waiting to happen apparently, but more that that. I, truly and evidently, am one Son Of a Bitch." Pausing to enunciate each and every word. Tone leaving his defiance and disgust plain and clear.

With little more to say to Walburga, Sirius seals up the parchment. And, with a few charms of his own, he ties his newly responding Howler back to the Black families owls' leg. Set to conclude his message with streamers of the Griffindor house colours shooting out.

He knew he would face consequences for his response later on, but still he reveled in the stinging joy of not buckling under the clear empty weight of his mother's love.

Smile, do not give her the reaction she craves. Be happy without them.

But still, behind his smile, Sirius hoped the consequences will stay his own. Thinking of his brother only a table or two away.

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2024-09-02 11:30 UTC