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Nobody Understands How Much This Photo Lives Rent Free In My Mind

Nobody understands how much this photo lives rent free in my mind đ
just one chance please đ§
He's just so pretty?? His arms?? The fucking crop top, I have never seen a man look so pretty in a crop top, I can't function??
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my mum has gone to bed and i instantly put on the bear, my babies are back đ„°
being at my family home means i have absolutely no alone time and because my family feel the need to comment on ANY and EVERYTHING i watch, i simply haven't watched a single episode of shameless or the bear and im losing it
i need lip in my life but my mum doesn't go to bed until like 10pm and she is just sat in the living room with me, watching stuff. (i sleep in the living room)
i honestly don't mind, i love my family obviously but i have lived alone for a whole ass year so the constant chatter is driving me up the wall with no escapeeee
ahhhhhh
what do i do, i need my jeremy allen white fixation but i can't :(

Iâm just gonna leave this here but just imagine being in a club with Lip Gallagher in the early 2000s
nothing but a pass time (lip gallagher x reader)

content warning(s); underage smoking, mentions of underage drinking, sad!lip, comfort, hints of angst (unrequited love)
summary; the summer had come around but you and lip were always the same. except it was harder to ignore your brewing feelings now.
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i have edited and read this part over so many times that i feel like i'm not actually making it better anymore, so here it is! more of my babies, the next few parts are gonna get a little angst-heavy from both lip and reader's side but then i think it's gonna settle a bit and hopefully get a little better, i have the next three parts all partly/fully written and they're sad but also sweet (comfort is real and lip NEEDS iT, this poor man), so anyway, here's the new part hehe

âMy dad would kill you if he found us,â You said as you rounded the corner with Lip. He had texted you, asking you to come and meet him. You didnât mind. Youâd been dying to see him after a too-long shift at the store. You had been there all day, sweating and dealing with shitty customers, and that one text was enough for you to be filled with a familiar sense of glee.Â
You didnât need a reason to see Lip, you never had but something about him asking to see you made you giddy. That text was enough to have you halfway out the door in minutes, changed, showered and beaming.
Though, that had always been the case.
The cigarette between your lips was new though. You had never been one for smoking but Lip had somehow gotten you into it. You only smoked with him though.
âThey still think weâre dating?â Lip asked as you stopped by one of the pillars that held the El tracks up. The train only came every twenty minutes or so this late at night. So it was peaceful, quiet and you could smoke without being disturbed.
You were the one to plop yourself down first, feet aching from being on them all day. Working nearly a 10 hour shift was not for the weak and you were wondering why youâd bothered to do it to yourself.
âI dunno,â You shrugged as you took a drag of the cigarette Lip had handed to you. He sat down beside you, head resting back against the concrete. You let the smoke fill your lungs before you breathed it out into the night air. It was cooler than it had been all day, you didnât feel like the air was suffocating you, just the cigarette, âHard to tell with them at the moment,â You shrugged, the hint of something more beneath those words but neither of you dug into it. Lip simply nodded and you offered the cigarette back. He took it from between your two fingers and took a long drag.
He looked sad. You assumed thatâs why he had even bothered you this late. He knew youâd been working all day and he had always used it as an excuse to keep to himself. But tonight, he seemed to want to see you. You were never going to deny him.
You hadnât ever denied him anything.
You watched as he blew the smoke out through his nose and you leaned closer, resting your head on his shoulder. He briefly tensed up before relaxing.Â
He had gotten so jumpy recently.Â
You tried to ignore it.
âWhatâs up?â You asked after a moment of silence. He offered the cigarette to you but you waved him off. You could feel the nicotine buzzing through your system, not used to the high after nearly a week of not seeing Lip.
âKarenâs got this guy,â Lip said after a moment of silent contemplation, âJody. Some fuckinâ asshole twice her age,â He explained, waving his free hand out. He then put the cigarette between his lips, breathing in the smoke and speaking as he exhaled, âHasnât even fucked her. She says itâs some Sex Addicts Anonymous shit. I donât get it,â Lip said as he choked slightly on the smoke. You should have known this is where the conversation would go so you simply reached your hand out for the cig.
Lip passed it over without question.
Part of him hated himself for corrupting you. You had never touched a drop of alcohol until he convinced you otherwise. And you had resisted smoking cigarettes until one night a few months back at a party with him.Â
You had been pretty drunk at that party and he had casually offered his cigarette to you. He hadnât thought much of it, expecting you to shake your head and tell him to âfuck offâ as you always did. Instead, you had taken it from his fingers, taken a drag and coughed on the smoke.Â
But that didnât stop you from taking another drag.
Now every time he watched the smoke curl out from between your lips, he felt bad. Like he had doomed you to some horrible fate.
âAnd she said that theyâre together and just sit under the stars and talk and shit. I mean, who does that?â He asked. You tried to bite back the reply that thatâs exactly what the two of you did but you kept your mouth shut, âWeâre teenagers. Weâre meant to be fucking each other and doing stupid shit. Not- not watching cartoons and fucking cooking together. Itâs- itâs just bullshit,â Lip was frustrated. You could tell and you couldnât blame him. Not really.
Part of you just felt sorry for him. You knew that he had fallen for Karen but she never really shared those feelings. At least, not that you could tell. She liked him and she liked to fuck him but you were never sure if it was more.
Another part of you was happy she was fucking with Lipâs head. Maybe it made you spiteful but you wanted him to understand how it felt to have someone always keep you at armâs length.
You tried not to think about that though.Â
You were his friend.Â
You were there to help him, not celebrate his pain.
âAre you still fucking her?â You asked after a moment. You werenât entirely sure how to make Lip feel better. You werenât well-versed in this shit.
He nodded.
âYeah but itâs this guy. Heâs a fucking asshole,â Lip bit back, cigarette hanging from his lips. You rolled your eyes and took the cigarette from between his lips to take a puff yourself. You stayed quiet for a minute, not sure what to say.
âAt least you still get to fuck her,â You responded, trying to see the bright side. You wanted to make him feel better, âClearly if they arenât even fucking, it doesnât mean that much. So, give it a few months and sheâll be past him.â The words felt heavy on your tongue, trying to ignore the truth in what you were saying.
Lip had never fucked you and you had always been nothing but a pass-time for him. A friend to cry to and seek comfort from but nothing more. You knew that you didnât mean that much to Lip. Not as much as Karen anyway.
âYeah, maybe,â Lip said as he glanced down to watch you blow the smoke from between your lips. You tapped the edge of the cigarette on your thigh, ashes flying through the air just as an El train passed overhead.
It was deafening but the noise gave you some solace. You hadnât noticed Lip looking at you and so you let yourself feel the heaviness. It was just for a moment and then you put your guard back up.
But for a moment, you let yourself frown. Let yourself feel sad. Feel lonely. Feel fucking stupid.
Then you were back to normal.
Once the train had passed, you spoke again.
âThe way I see it, heâs either gonna break up with her or theyâre gonna fuck. Either way, sheâll come back to you,â You decided after a moment. You werenât sure if it was true. You had no experience with relationships. Youâd only ever kissed people drunk at parties so you were talking out your ass.
But Lip just hummed along and took the cigarette from between your fingers. He took another drag and then smushed the butt of it against the grass, putting it out.
âEverything okay with you?â Lip asked after a beat of silence. Your head lifted from his shoulder, eyebrows furrowed. You couldnât remember the last time heâd asked if you were okay. Usually, you told him anyway but he never asked.
âYeah, why?â You responded, eyebrows knitted together in confusion. He shrugged, meeting your gaze. Your eyes were boring into him and he felt guilty seeing the confusion. The way your eyebrows furrowed at his question as if you werenât his best friend. As if he didnât care about you.
âYâjust seem tired, thatâs all,â He responded, shrugging. He was trying not to be defensive but it was hard not to be.
âHad a long day, itâs fine,â You retorted as you reached into the top pocket of his shirt. You didnât ask before you grabbed the pack of cigarettes. Instead, you just plucked a stick out and grabbed his lighter.Â
âWhat do you think youâre doing?â He asked. You looked up at him, a teasing smile on your lips.
âBumming a smoke,â You stated before you placed the cigarette between your lips. You used your hand to shelter the end of the cig before flicking the lighter on. The bright flame illuminated your face, eyes shining in the light. It was there for a split second before you had successfully lit the cigarette.
âYou been smokinâ with someone else?â He asked. You scoffed, dropping the cigarette pack and lighter back into his pocket before you took a drag.
âFuck off, as if,â You dead-panned as you exhaled. You then took another drag, leaving the cigarette hanging off your lips as you blew the smoke out of your nose. It was Lipâs turn to take the cigarette from your lips now. He made eye contact with you as he took it, placing it between his own.
Fuck. You hated when he did shit like that.
The way he looked at you like he really gave a shit.
You tried not to think about it.
âGood,â He said before he took his own drag. You two sat in silence like that for a while, sharing the cigarette. You knew it was bad for you. You had told yourself youâd never be a smoker but the summer was long and being around Lip was painful. The nicotine made it easier to deal with.
So you just smoked until Lip - once again - put it out in the dirt. He then just stared, another El train passing overhead. You were both quiet for a moment before you sighed. You needed to go home.
âGot work tomorrow,â You muttered after a beat. It was you saying you needed to leave without really saying it at all. But you did, you needed to get out of here.
âStay at mine tonight?â He asked. You shook your head.
âGotta leave early, starting at 6. Would just wake you up. Youâre grumpy that early,â You stated as you looked up at him. He frowned. You didnât know what else to say to him and so you just looked at each other for a moment.
âWant you to stay over,â He mumbled, looking away. You ran your hands across your face, wondering if you were really gonna let this happen. But you already knew the answer the second he had asked the question.
âLet me grab my shit,â You gave in. Lip couldnât help the smirk that spread across his face. It felt like a victory, a small victory.Â

I'm thinking about writing a lip gallagher one shot based on The Bolter (by Taylor Swift) and it's all I can think about at work, I'm mentally mapping it out in my head and I just got on my break and i just want to write it, i want himmmmm
But I'm also so so tired at the moment and I'm having some issues with my period which are making me very sleepy so I know I won't be writing it when I finish work in a few hours and it's truly a hard life. I just :((( not fun
sorry it took me too long to follow back. i'm bad at following people but happy to be here now đ«Ą -đ
i'm happy you're here too mouse!
and you don't gotta apologise!! i am the WORST for replying to messages or even just being active sometimes so i totally get you!
(also had a v busy few days hence the lack of response, whoops)