Ignore This If You Want But I Had To Say Something Somewhere And This Is At Least A Lil Anonymous So

Ignore this if you want but I had to say something somewhere and this is at least a lil anonymous so that’s why I chose here and this isn’t about anything important but I’m really emotional and writing things out helps me cope.

I just deleted my fathers contact after him deciding that he neither wants to be a part of me or my kid sisters lives anymore. That was almost three months ago and I just now deleted it. I was reading through old messages and just fucking lost it. I almost called him. He wasn’t a bad dad, he was actually a really fucking good dad and my best friend. He wasn’t even my bio dad but I loved him like he was and I thought he loved me the same. But one day I said something and then he said something and he kicked me out. He then messaged my mom, not me, about a month later and said that he wanted nothing to do with us anymore. That it was too stressful. And I haven’t spoken to him since. Him and my mom had divorced about a year ago but they were still friend and he was still me and my sisters dad cause he had been apart of our lives for over seven years.

He works in pest control and sometimes comes to our town for it. There have been times in the past were I’m just walking around town and have bumped into him. I don’t know what to do if that happens now. He also services our house cause we have ant problems and idk what I’ll do if he comes here. Idk what to do. It hadn’t really hit me before but it is now.

I fucked everything up. I couldn’t keep my fucking mouth shut for three minutes and it costed me so much. My sister, who is only in middle school, doesn’t have a dad anymore and it’s my fault. She didn’t do anything wrong. My mom didn’t do anything wrong. My grandparents, who loved and treated him like a son, didn’t do anything wrong. I did. I broke one of the few stable relationships in my life. And I miss him so fucking much.

Everyone is telling me that it isn’t my fault and that I shouldn’t blame myself, but it was literally my fault. And that’s all i can think about. It’s my fault it’s my fault it’s my fault. Everything is my fault. I did this to myself. And now I don’t know what to do.

But anyways, I finally deleted his contact. I don’t wanna make another mistake by heat of the moment calling him or some shit and fuck things up even more. And I don’t wanna have to keep seeing his face everytime I open my contacts. I didn’t do it before cause I think a part of me was hoping that he was gonna call and apologize and things will go back to the way that they were. But I know he won’t. I really fucking want him to but he won’t. And I need to accept that. Seven years down the god damn drain.

I’m sorry for ranting and waisting your time. I hope you have a good night. Eat, drink water, get a goodnights sleep. I love you.

Again, I’m sorry, I just needed to rant. I’m sorry

Choi Yeonjun ( feat. Teefs )

hey denden 🥺🥺💖 i hope you’re feeling much better now even though i’m really late !! Just know that i love you sososo much 💕💘💖💝💗💓💞💨(sending all hearts over) and that everything will be okay in the end !! I hope my short words made you smile a little hehe ~~

Hello my love😊 Your words definitely made me smile! And I am feeling a lot better now, thank you. I just got back from a trip to Seattle for my birthday, and spending some time away definitely helped me cheer up. Staying up until three in the morning watching horror movies with my friends definitely helped too😅

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