Only A Fool Would Fall In Love With A Laugh

Only a fool would fall in love with a laugh

who is urokodaki in your kny!bsd au?

i’ll give you a hint! he’s an old man

Taneda or natusme??

i think this is related to the fave guessing? no on both

When he joined the Hunting Dogs, Tachihara was wary of them at first.  Naturally; it wasn't exactly like he'd had much of a choice regarding joining them, and from his brief previous interactions with the others, combined with the surgeries and everything else that went into becoming a Hunting Dog, he really wasn't looking forward to whatever was going to happen to him.

He soon comes to realize that he wasn't quite right, though.

This job offers him so many new opportunities, and he quickly comes to enjoy it. He finally has a purpose for himself, a place to belong, and maybe even a new family of sorts. He hasn't had the chance to get to know most of his teammates that well, but it can't be that hard, right?

He soon has to realize that things don't quite work the way he imagined them, though. He has trouble connecting with his teammates in a deeper sense, and a similar thing seems to apply to them; they're working together, but that seems to be it. But okay, if they're not going to, he will make an effort to fit in.

He tries to, really. He goes out of his way to spend time with them. He tries to join them wherever they're going after work; it works, sometimes Jouno even lets him stay at his place for a few hours if he's in a good mood. He even tried to organise some team activities three or four times, but it never ended well; Fukuchi and Teruko wouldn't even show up and Jouno and Tecchou would start fighting after 10 minutes at maximum without their commanders supervising them. But that's okay; they tried, and Fukuchi and Teruko are busy people. It was still better than what Tachihara was used to.

When Jouno tells him to take the job in the Mafia, he doesn't think twice at first. This way, he can get revenge, and in that sense, it's more important than anything he's trying to do with his team. Later though, at night, days after applying and being accepted, the doubts catch up on him; what will that mission do to the connection he tried to build? Of course, he'll still be a Hunting Dog, and he'll still see his teammates, but he'll ultimately be gone most of the time. Despite everything, he's scared he'll lose another place he wants to call home so bad.

But then he joins the Mafia, and Black Lizard is all he ever wanted.

Suddenly, he's surrounded by people who seem to feel the same as him. The work comes so naturally to him, and somehow, it's so easy to build a connection to the people. He makes friends with his commanders easily, and soon gets raised to that position himself. He knows he's here as a spy, but as time passes, he finds himself forgetting about it more and more often. The Black Lizards are the family Tachihara had tried to see in the Hunting Dogs, and they accept him as part of it no questions asked. It's different from anything he has ever known, from the Hunting Dogs, his gang, and his family even before his brother died. For the first time, he feels like he has found a genuine place to belong.

He doesn't know when he started keeping his bandaid on at home. He does know when he first became aware of it, though. When he first realised that something was weird about his reflection, and it took him a few moments to pin down what it was. His Mafia self had grown on him so much, and he's come to realise that maybe this is what he wants long ago.

He took the bandaid off when he came he that day, but forgot about it again soon.

It feels so right, and he doesn't want to fight it, even though he knows he really should. He's with the Mafia because he wants revenge, and as a spy, nothing more. He didn't expect to find a home, a family, and a version of himself he's happy with, but well, dealing with the unexpected is part of his job description. There's nothing wrong about enjoying his time with the Mafia.

It's not like it matters, after all. He is a Hunting Dog. The military police offered him a place to belong, and he took it. It doesn't matter what could have been; he's a spy, and this is everything that connects him to the Mafia. He took his first opportunity, and he has to- he will stick to it.

But oh, he wishes things would have gone different.

Doppo

where would someone dm you to ask if they could use your art?

i'm really slow when it comes to answering dms on here, so you can send an ask instead! ^_^