Sometimes It's Hard For Me To Remember That Behind All The Avatars, Posts, Videos, Music, Everything

sometimes it's hard for me to remember that behind all the avatars, posts, videos, music, everything online, behind all of that stand people, regular people i could meet in the subway or in the park... and with character ai, v-tubers, voice changers, abstract fucking word choice all being a thing, the line in my mind between real and fictional is even more blurry... i even start to feel, like i don't mean it, when i wish someone good luck, or when i say that they're valid and loved... my intent is to make people feel that way, to feel happier, but with all this anonymity and hiding behind characters... caricatures of ourselves... i start to question myself... am i really a good person, or just someone who says good things for just another dose of dopamine? even now... did i write this because i had to get it off my chest, or do i just want people to say nice things to me?... who am i to myself? to others?... what am i?...