Brb, Just Crying My Eyes Out For The Next 5 Minutes

Brb, just crying my eyes out for the next 5 minutes 🥺🥺🥺

I’ve been thinking about what an effect must Paul’s love have on Richard.

Imagine having a bad falling out with a friend you considered your other half. Maybe you’re both at fault but you take every criticism to heart, and you can’t help it. You feel like you’re nothing, like you’re worthless.

And that friend who understood you so well - he can’t stop criticizing. And you can’t stop arguing. Imagine how shitty you feel because of that. And since it’s partly your fault- well, even shittier. You didn’t even manage to keep your other half.

But then comes 2019, covid, 2022. And something happens, and that friend loves you. You kiss, and you hold hands, and he looks at you like you’re the sun.

And you’re used to young pretty girls paying you attention and showering you with love - you’re used to it because they see you as that cool rockstar. You’re not used to the person who criticizes you the most - who’s been criticizing you for decades - to love you the way he now does.

Imagine how absolutely elating that must feel. He oh-so perfectly knows all your faults, and your vices, and he’s been arguing with you for years - and yet, he loves you, and he chooses to love you. For who you are.

I understand why Richard’s now so attached to the Auslander outro. Why he can’t let it go and plays all the variations even alone. He seems to get attached to things that bring him comfort, like that clothing straight from 2005. His red cap, and that pink hoodie, and maybe even his cigarettes.

And just like that, he’s now attached to the outro. Because it brought him Paul.

some of you guys are so fucking 19 years old. i wish you well but god have mercy on your souls

I really don't understand why some "fans" are so disrespectful and keep jumping into the boats or keep rocking them! I'm really pissed off with these people and it's not even funny anymore. I don't understand how people can be so rude and disrespectful?! You are not friends with the guys!!

I also don't understand why some people are always judging the boys on their looks.They are not here to please you with their looks. All that matters is that they are happy, whether they dye their hair pink, gain 20 kilos, lose weight or get a tattoo on their face. If you don’t like Richard or his looks of his attitude you don’t have to. But please don’t be disrespectful. It’s possible to respect people even if you don’t *love* them.

Special mention to some „fans“ I saw wearing an „I survived Abelard“ shirt. Really?!? Again you don’t have to like them but how about ignoring them if you don’t like them instead of wearing such a stupid shirt ?!?

People.😒

And another one! Not the best quality as I wasn’t prepared but look at them! My heart!! ❤️❤️

Discostorch looking sharp & beautiful af 🦩

Flake, 2019 by Enrico Meyer

So I decided to watch Völkerball live in Nimes yesterday for the first time in a long time.

The Völkerball era was the era in which I fell madly in love with the band and especially with Richard. His body, his face, his make-up, his style was everything I dreamed of when I was 14.

When I was watching the dvd yesterday, my boyfriend walked into the room. He looked straight at the telly and suddenly said „god damn!" out loud.

I look at him asked him what was going on.

My boyfriend then said: Dear god, did you notice Richard? He was so incredibly hot back then! What a beautiful beautiful human being!

YES, I noticed him and YES! he indeed was (and still is!!!) such a beautiful human being, not just for his looks.

He’s just one of my heroes. I admire him so much 😭❤️