Brb, Just Crying My Eyes Out For The Next 5 Minutes

Brb, just crying my eyes out for the next 5 minutes 🥺🥺🥺

I’ve been thinking about what an effect must Paul’s love have on Richard.

Imagine having a bad falling out with a friend you considered your other half. Maybe you’re both at fault but you take every criticism to heart, and you can’t help it. You feel like you’re nothing, like you’re worthless.

And that friend who understood you so well - he can’t stop criticizing. And you can’t stop arguing. Imagine how shitty you feel because of that. And since it’s partly your fault- well, even shittier. You didn’t even manage to keep your other half.

But then comes 2019, covid, 2022. And something happens, and that friend loves you. You kiss, and you hold hands, and he looks at you like you’re the sun.

And you’re used to young pretty girls paying you attention and showering you with love - you’re used to it because they see you as that cool rockstar. You’re not used to the person who criticizes you the most - who’s been criticizing you for decades - to love you the way he now does.

Imagine how absolutely elating that must feel. He oh-so perfectly knows all your faults, and your vices, and he’s been arguing with you for years - and yet, he loves you, and he chooses to love you. For who you are.

I understand why Richard’s now so attached to the Auslander outro. Why he can’t let it go and plays all the variations even alone. He seems to get attached to things that bring him comfort, like that clothing straight from 2005. His red cap, and that pink hoodie, and maybe even his cigarettes.

And just like that, he’s now attached to the outro. Because it brought him Paul.

Richard Z. Kruspe is that you?👋

I'm usually more of a Paulchard / Schneider person, but right now I need a moment to realise how great Till looks in the photos from tonight's rehearsal. He looks so happy, healthy and amazing. Really great to see him like that.

Liebe ist für alle da!

I just died and went to heaven 😭

(x)