I Feel Like During Summer I Just Turn Into A Lazy Pig. Always Spending My Time Lounging By The Pool Sipping

I feel like during summer I just turn into a lazy pig. Always spending my time lounging by the pool sipping on some soda, going to six flags or carnivals for the yummy snacks (especially the pretzels... oml they are sooo good), and just eating everything in my pantry. this is the life🥹🥹

I wanna start being more active on this acc so I'll prob post some pics tmr or saturday :)

I feel like ppl always talk abt tummy gains, tit gains, ass gains, etc, etc... yk what one of my fav places to see gains is?? the face!! like I js love seeing a cutie's face blow up due to the result of their gluttony. and the double chin(s) omgggggggg so cute!! :3

⚠️this is not a horny post - i spoke to so many people during my feeding “career” and see that many of us are struggling, this is my take on it…

This kink can be really painful for all of us. I see people coming and going on a daily/weekly/monthly basis. It’s hot when I talk about it in my posts because it’s true, but it’s also painful for both parties.

All we want is to be accepted, to be loved for who we are. You might think that meeting someone with this kink will help that, and for a fraction of time, it will. But it won’t fix all of your problems, it won't fix the way you view yourself nor the way you feel about yourself having the kink.

Guys often say to me that if they had someone like me around, they would feel comfortable with fully giving into it. But meeting someone is not enough if you haven’t accepted this part of yourself first. Many of us will never accept this, because why would we? It’s bad in the end, that’s what we’ve been told since we were kids.

This can very easily compared to gay couples in the past. The hatred towards gays was so strong even when the two people found each other, the internalized homophobia ruined the relationship for them (I love how this behaviour is shown in Brokeback Mountain and I do emphatize with the character of Jack Twist haha as that’s how I feel when interacting with feedees).

The main issue with this kink is the insecurity it brings. I’ve never met anyone who would be fully okay with this part of themselves. We all struggle with internalized fatphobia. Not necessarily when it comes to being a feeder (even though there are feeders who don’t want to be seen in public with someone big), but as a feedee many of us end up feeling bad about gaining.

My best friend has been suffering with an eating disorder since she hit puberty and when she opened up to me she described it the following way - “I don't think I was ever properly cured, I did gain weight and stopped being ill, but this thing is always going to be on the back of my mind, it’ll always be something that I feel like I should aspire to. I feel like being as thin as possible is the only way to be truly fulfilled.” I’m stunned by how much this resembles what feedees have told me. Even the wording was the same.

Feederism is basically a depressive eating disorder if not done well. Or an unhealthy coping mechanism. But there are ways to make it work if you want to - you just need to understand yourself and your needs first. Many people I met are either all or nothing with the kink. But in general, you can rarely have it all.

I think that we’re all just really scared of abandonment. We’re all just insecure and want to be loved the way we are. We might not feel worthy of love because of having the kink (and not only that, everyone has loads of different insecurities!). This kink can give you the strongest feelings you’ve ever experienced, as meeting someone who shares the same mind as you is arguably one of the best things that can happen to you. We want to be special for a person and this kink gives us the means to that because we know how rare it is to find someone like that.

But unless we love ourselves first, we can never fully enjoy it. It would probably be better for all of us to never been born with this kink, but here we are. We can choose to surpress it, but I think that would be a pity considering how amazing it can be when done well. So I guess, all I can tell you is to learn to accept this within yourself and think of ways you want to engage in this kink. You’re not alone. And even though feederism is a depressive eating disorder, if you learn to love it and manage your emotions, it can allow you to have the best time.

The last thing you need to remember is that your feelings don’t come from external sources, even though it might feel like that. In the world, nothing comes with emotions, it’s us who assign the emotions to things and people.

Feederism won’t automatically make you feel better if you don’t allow it to do so.

I still think that it’s worth chasing butterflies, but you first need to make sure that you have the right net to catch them, because if there are holes, the butterflies will escape 🦋

this jean shorts fit at the beginning of june!! maybe I have put on some pounds~

first vid that I'm posting!! (sorry for no audio, not really comfortable with doing audio yet and I was breathing really heavily from the stuffing lol)

already beginning the stuffings with leftovers