I Cant Focus On Wips And Existing Projects At The Moment But At Long As Im Doing Something At All I Dont

I can’t focus on wips and existing projects at the moment but at long as I’m doing something at all I don’t feel useless.

I’ve been thinking about making a post like this for a while but it felt too personal and preachy until recent internet events made me realize I wouldn’t feel comfortable unless I put my own opinions out there.

Internet communities like Tumblr grow and thrive with very little explanations for buzzwords and memes - how many posts end in the now comedic “no one tell them.” There’s a lot of attitudes that go unexamined, as a result. We talk a lot about things like privilege without all of us realizing it’s not a space laser. It isn’t something that we as individuals rather than a whole needs to always be only a weapon - in fact the reason we seek to understand and own it personally is to ensure that we don’t use it to hurt others just because we have the power to do so.

We talk about things being problematic, as though the word always means “offensive and hurtful.” These are things that may have the capacity to hurt others. But hurt isn’t something that can be easily measured or concretely avoided. I see people say things like, “I can’t be an abuser, I’m X Y and Z!” “I can’t be an abuser, I’ve been abused in the past!” “A is the toxic hateful person, not me, go yell at that asshole!” But there’s no magic spell we can use to wash away our own ability to be a shitty person. We need to, as a community, consider our own capability to hurt others as something that can be independent of labels and traditional power spheres - and is rooted in our actions not a blanket who we are. If we assume that we are all able to be assholes, then we understand that it’s a choice we make - and have to remake, multiple times every single day of our lives.

When you don’t need anything more than a single hateful anon to make another person have a episode, it doesn’t matter if that person has 40000 followers that they can rally like flying monkeys - the anon’s actions are not excused by a lack of followers. In many ways, their capacity to hurt another is limited more by their desire to do so than it is by their own abilities. When we build up forts around ourselves to explain why and how we cannot be hurtful people, all we are doing is assuming that we are above reproach and not a single one of us are.

Just looking at all the No True Scottsman going around is pretty gross. We are not absolved of our behavior just because we are progressives. Terrible, hurtful behavior hidden behind progressive dialogue is still just shitty behavior. Terrible shitty hurtful behavior to bad people is still shitty behavior. Shitty behavior that doesn’t really hurt the person it was intended to hurt is still wrong. Excuses that mitigate the hurt that was intended only tries to reduce our agency in what we did.

To borrow from Jamie McKelvie and Kieron Gillen’s The Wicked + the Divine (art by Tula Lotay) 

I love how you drew Taichi and Kari, btw! I think the realistic style suits them, they look great. You should keep at it!

Ah, thank you so much! I really like playing with the style on art for fandoms I’ve been into for pretty much forever because I just have so many buried headcanons about how everyone would look in other styles. 

I’m working on some group pictures that are in a simpler style to make it easier to paint multiple people quickly but I’d like to do more of the realistic ones for headshots at least.

'#what has he done kai to be the worst?' look at your history of blond ocs.......................... i am picturing whatever it is being on par with sam lbr

Pretty much man I keep trying to play characters that aren’t total pieces of shit in RPs and they never work out so I just give up and roll another shitheel. Sam was so OTT but he probably literally had a business card declaring himself the bad guy. At least knew what he did wrong (everything)

This one drags the people in his life (and any rp party he’s in) into hell with him on the reg and does it because he’s “playing hero” and “it seemed like an okay idea based on what he knew at the time” and “he had no other options.” Not that he would actually give any of those excuses because the first thing he does is tries to hide his involvement in it and make sure no one finds out what he fucked up and it doesn’t even come out until it’s preeeetty much too late to fix it

work in progress

me: spends two months painstakingly detailing ancient tevene architecture for da big bang

me: oh thank god that’s done I’m never doing that kind of thing for a while lets do something really simple next

boring process since I just kind of worked each area till it was done mostly but at least I remembered to take screencaps this time