Glamour Doll

♡ glamour doll ♡

blaze - aftermatch testament

a year later

all that i went through, i already grieved.

the corpse you left in my garden

it's mostly healed like a wound

that would leave a soft pink scar all over my chest.

all that you went through and continue to,

it's behind your door and i need you to realize

that the past may stay hiden

from eyes that don't want to look back

into the abyss,

afraid to fall and vanish again.

all that we had, i forgave.

and you did too.

the warmth of knowing that we both perished that time for good.

i always knew that only one of us would get out of this and still be okay.

i just never knew it would be me.

dyed my hair,

the color of the flames.

to remind myself that i've become what

i've always feared

and finally tamed it.

i hope you heal like i did.

maybe u should spend some time at the place i once called mine,

and watch the crows flying

and trees growing.

i can see it in your eyes,

the aftermatch of the horrors that once made me broken.

force on force, brings hurt on you either way.

all the fire upon this town, don't let it burn too far.

that way u won't see home again.

for LF.

yours truly, Vanessa.

August, 2024

blaze

all i had, i used.

my strenght to light the flame of a candel in this hole of my heart.

all i had, i spent.

time crashes me angrily with bare knuckles and no sight of softness in it's eyes.

all i had, i gave.

good luck chewing from my bones

that's my treat for you,

thank u for devouring my sorry soul.

all i had, he takes.

when the forest is burning please bring a rose in the meantime,

the land is mine but i feel nothing belongs to me, it's all yours to take.

all my aching down him and back.

for LF.

yours truly, Vanessa.

August, 2023

and I will await your highness, I'm so high I cannot walk