In Which I Have Started College

In Which I Have Started College

so on the one hand, lots of really really fucking cool physics stuff and I do kind of love this school.

on the other hand, it's been almost a week and we still won't move into our actual dorms until later and our days are full of primarily running about doing cool things which means there's not a lot of structure so people are mainly on their own which means I have no friends which is okay but maybe I'll want to make friends sometime soon.

it's just hard because I don't want to make small talk and I don't want everyone to politely laugh at things that aren't funny and I don't feel motivated to introduce myself to people I'm probably not going to see again

also probably people think i'm antisocial because I never have the door to my room open but that's just because I don't want to clean my shit up

On Returning Home

pros: my cat. friends. we have actual trees here. i get to sleep. trivia. not suffocating in hot.

cons: less cool museums. work. allergens intent on destroying my face bit by miserable bit.

In Which I Consider Needing Medical Attention

i have chronic hiccups. my hiccups consistently come one at a time, a couple times a day or every couple hours. i didn't notice until some people i had just met pointed it out to me about a year ago.

for my birthday a bit ago my friend made me a chart of all of my hiccups that occurred in a three-hour window over three months. this is it. the blank spots are school breaks. the comic sans was out of spite, don't worry about it.

it's now been a year and it is starting to occur to me that perhaps i should ask someone about this at some point

cause i'm going to college