I Don't Fully Understand Why So Many Trans People Are Uber Autism Over The Lancer TTRPG, But I Have No

I don't fully understand why so many trans people are Uber autism over the Lancer TTRPG, but I have no complaints about it

(Barely has A cups) damn I got big naturals

So during the night of the black knives Godwyn... hey yeah your tits are cool and all but put your shirt back on please

To me, cotton is a song to anyone who has or have had to give part of themself up.

TW for discussion of feelings of helplessness and reference to suicide

"This song is for the rats

Who hurled themselves in to the ocean

When they saw that the explosives in the cargo hold

Were just about to blow"

These lines give me that sense of sorrow when you hear someone took their own life. Someone who saw what was coming for them and got out some way or another.

"This song is for the soil

That's toxic clear down to the bedrock

Where no thing of consequence can grow

Drop your seeds there

Let them go"

To me is throwing all your effort into so much only for it to never work out. There were so many nights I felt like all my effort was being wasted and that I wasn't going to build anything from it, outside of the suffering I was putting myself through by trying so hard.

"This song is for the people

Who tell their families that they're sorry

For things they can't and won't feel sorry for"

The line I have to most to say about. The horrible feeling that you've been made to think you've wronged somebody who you thought protected you. The nights I spent trying to talk down my fathers anger when he found me living my life happily. The people i've known who had to beg to be let back into their own home after their family barrated them for being queer and forcing them into a church. Living a second life that you can't bring home for risk of losing it all. Always feeling like you're one wrong move from losing a screaming match about how everything you've done and believe in are wrong and demented, never feeling safe in your home.

The album was written about the time John spent as a heroin addict, and you can definitely feel that in his lyrics. But, as per usual, I find his style is akin to experiences me and many others have gone through

I've been thinking about people who used to be in my life a lot recently. Some of them I still have some irregular contact with, some I still see around campus, some I have no idea where they went. I want to get in contact with a lot of them again. Some of them I feel like I need to apologize to, for whatever reason. Some I don't ever want to see again. But all of them were immensely important to me and there's part of me that wants to tell them and be with them again, and another part of me wants to recognize that that part of my life has passed and we're two different people now. I know for a few of them it'd be like strangers meeting for the first time if we see each other again with how different our lives and each other are now. Whether I reach out to them or not, I'm still happy these people got to play a major role in my life in some way or another

Cicada shell :]