A Breakup Can't Break Me

a breakup can't break me

➵ sometimes love just isn't enough.

pairing: heeseung x gn! reader

summary: follow heeseung as he learns to move on from someone he really used to love (and maybe still does).

note: I thought sunghoon was going to be my angst debut but I was washing the dishes and "it's alright :)" by kevin walkman came on and I was like hey I could write something about that! you can try listening to it and guess which lyrics are direct inspirations.

warning(s): angst, bittersweet (?) ending

word count: 1.4 k

“wha- hey!” heeseung exclaims as his phone is yanked out of his hands.

having a suspicion as to what the 01 was doing on his phone, jake turns the screen towards himself, and upon confirmation, he levels heeseung with an unimpressed stare.

“really? it’s been, like, 2 years.”

now, truth be told, the man in question only feels the teensiest amount of shame right now. so what if he was using his private instagram account to stalk his ex years after their breakup? it was perfectly sane, normal and healthy.

or so heeseung liked to tell his group members whenever they caught him lingering over your relationship and reminiscing. you two had been highschool sweethearts, and the perfect couple to outsider eyes.

so much so, that he was surprised (although more relieved) that no leaks of the previous relationship had sprung up since he debuted. although, you two had taken care to maintain a proper image even then, aware of a possible future as an idol considering he was a trainee.

truth be told, the breakup was amicable. more or less. there was no big bang or fight full of tears and angry words. just a young boy telling you he was off to chase his dreams and you, unfortunately, had no place amongst those dreams.

heeseung had broken up with you before i-land; for a little bit you had hoped that he would fail and flop out so he could get back together with you. but you knew, even then, there was no stopping the boy from chasing his dream.

and, once you pondered it a bit more, nor would you want to. in your opinion, not only did heeseung live and breathe for singing and dancing, he was born to be an idol.

and you, well you were just born to be y/n. the closest you would come to a star was the ghost of its heat as it shot past in the sky.

heeseung was a global idol, known to millions of fans, and you were just you. you doubted people would even believe you if you attempted to tell them. what would you say, like “hey, that man on your phone home screen? yeah, he used to be mine.”

no way. you actually had told your best friend that you and heeseung used to be an item, for lack of better words, and while they had believed you, they missed no opportunity to tease you about it.

“i heard heeseung has a couple writing credits on their new album,” your best friend would goad, “how much do you wanna bet that they’re about you?”

you roll your eyes, crossing your arms as well, “i highly doubt enhypen would let their title track be about someone heeseung dated several years ago.”

they had smirked, “wanna bet?”

“yeah, yeah, putting aside that we’d have no way of knowing, if we ever find out one of enhypen’s song is about me, you’ll never have to pay for coffee for the rest of your life.” 

they shouted in excitement, rambling something about keeping you to your word, and “no take-backsies” (whatever that meant).

in reality, you had better hope your best friend never encounters enhypen, because then you’d be down a whole lot of money.

truth be told, heeseung considered you his muse. it might be embarrassing, it might be downright pathetic, but he spent a whole lot of time thinking about you and your relationship. about what could have been.

the portion of writing he had contributed to enhypen’s discography was all birthed through thoughts of you, ranging from aching, longing songs, to songs about moving on and acceptance. sure, they were altered to fit enhypen’s style and lore, but, the fact remained that they were written about you.

unfortunately not for you, but about you.

even as the stylists dress him up in ripped clothing for one of their comebacks, he thinks back to when you mentioned about that type of rugged style being kinda sexy. if he had any doubts about his outfit before, they were all cleared when that memory came up.

he smiled with melancholy, what a time his highschool years were. even though heeseung was still young, he considered you to be his youth. you were on his mind a lot, a fact that made the rest of enhypen’s lives harder because they had to reel him in from contacting you.

it’s not that they thought you were a bad person, no, and it wasn’t even specifically for their careers. it’s just, a lot of time had passed. heeseung was a much different person than he was when you were together, and you were bound to be as well.

it wouldn’t be fair for the boy to attempt to light a spark, when he had no idea if he could provide the love and care to nurture that flame. so it was up to them to scold him gently and encourage him to move on.

even if he had that goofy smile on every time your mutual favourite artist came up in the car or in the dorm. the first time, his members were more than a little confused to find the reason behind his smile, because wasn’t your ex supposed to ruin things for you? but no, heeseung found himself enjoying the music just as much, if not more.

as long as he ignored the pang in his heart. as long as he hid the fact from his friends that he still followed your spotify and would routinely steal your playlists and add your liked songs to his account.

because in so many ways, the two of you were still so compatible. sometimes heeseung wondered if he would have done anything differently, if he had the opportunity to go back and change it all.

and ultimately, despite the whatever jake thought he had held heeseung back from, this was the reason he never reached out to you and messaged you. even as you still had the other’s number saved. even as neither of you had blocked the other on social media.

it was because no matter how much heeseung pondered it, he would never change his decision. he loved being an idol, singing, dancing, all too much. losing you was one of the hardest things heeseung had been through, but he could still bear it.

the same was hard to say the other way around. ultimately, it was his fault though, so he would deal with the throbs of loneliness, the ache that settled in at night when all he wanted were a certain pair of arms to settle around him and warm him inside out.

this morning, heeseung has not thought about you yet. of course, considering patterns, it is only a matter of time. (perhaps when jungwon mentions trying out a dessert that had been your favourite, or when jay shows him a cologne he just bought and heeseung remembers you saying this was the perfect scent for him. perhaps later.)

heeseung goes through his morning routine, unbeknownst to the fact that his phone is flashing with a contact name that has not graced his phone screen in years, even as he did not have the heart to change it. he remains unsuspecting of a second attempt, this time the phone’s screen catching the attention of a nearby jay.

his eyes widen, knowing who it is, and as much as he wants to swipe the “ missed call ” notification and leave heeseung none the wiser at your attempts to call him, he refrains. this decision is heeeung’s and his alone.

jay didn’t have to worry, however.

when heeseung comes out of the shower and checks his phone, his eyes widen, and the device almost slips from his grasp. his fingers tremble slightly. heeseung stares at the phone for a long, long time.

he gets up, walks around, and then comes back to it and sits down. he waits, and waits, and waits.

another call doesn’t arrive. the message is clear– the ball is in his court, and whatever this is, is up to him. 

heeseung inhales,

and he swipes the notification away. he leaves the ball on the floor and walks away from the court.

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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎☆ RAIN CURTAINS , LEE HEESEUNG

synopsis an unexpected shower rolls through town and guess what, you don't have an umbrella. luckily, a stranger decides to help you.

genre fluff, strangers to ?? pairing heeseung x fem!reader word count 1458

note i had so much fun writing this! it's extremely self indulgent but i couldn't help it !! i love writing for hee sm :(

it wasn't supposed to rain. the clouds weren't supposed to move in until later tomorrow. you cursed the weatherman as small droplets of water splashed on your shoulder. great, this was all you needed.

first, your best friend canceled your hang out because her boyfriend was sick. reasonable, but still, you haven't seen her in a couple of weeks.

second, you didn't have any clean jeans to wear today. your fault for not doing laundry. but, how could you when a new episode of your favorite show came out?!

third, the bakery you went to ran out of strawberry croissants and you had to buy a vanilla one. not that you're complaining but strawberry would've been better.

it seemed like your day was cursed. you felt like you were getting punished for something you never even did. and just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, rain.

it moved in fairly quickly and soon enough, your nicely done hair was ruined. you looked at the sky with fury, you could've sworn the sky turned red. why did this have to happen to you?

with a pout on your lips, you walked along the sidewalk in the park. it was a long walk from your apartment and you had just given up. if you had to call in sick to work tomorrow, so be it.

you weren't gonna lie though, the rain felt nice against your skin. even in all your fury it somehow calmed you down and let you enjoy the quietness of the rain. the pout soon became a soft smile, nothing to big but a smile was there.

suddenly, out of nowhere, an umbrella was placed over your head. you stopped walking for a moment. where was your savior before you were soaked?

you turned to the stranger with a tight lipped smile. but that smile fell off your face quicker than lightning.

the stranger holding the umbrella was a literal angel. you wondered if you had died and you were just a walking soul. there was no way someone like him would ever come and hold an umbrella over your head.

there was absolutely no way on earth that you'd even come in contact with someone that handsome.

you hadn't realized you were staring until the boy waved his hand over your eyes. well, that was embarrassing.

you cleared your throat and gave the boy a polite smile. "very sorry." you said, blinking a little too quickly. did he think you were weird? ugh this was the worst.

"sorry for what?" he asked. AND OH MY GOSH HIS VOICE! you could go on a rant all day about his voice. it was so smooth and so perfect. it was the type of voice you'd want to hear at the start and end of your day. you'd want to hear him read books to you, even the most boring of books.

again, you spaced out. you really needed to stop doing that. clearing your throat again you gave him yet another polite smile.

"didn't you say anything? that's why you were trying to get my attention." the boy chuckled and shook his head. "no, you were just spaced out and i was wondering if you were okay."

embarrassing. you could feel your cheeks heat up. you wanted to whine and cry in your bed. why did this too good to be true stranger have to witness your most embarrassing moments?

"oh, right. i tend to space out a lot. sorry if i weirded you out." half lie half truth. you do space out but only if there's an angelic looking man in front of you.

"so what are you doing out here? without an umbrella, i might add." the boy started walking slowly. it almost felt like you were on a date. wait, no no no, you were most definitely not on a date.

"well, the weatherman said it wasn't going to rain today so i decided to go out and walk around town but then it started to pour and my apartment is so far away." you took a deep breath at the end.

"so i was just gonna wait it out but then you showed up." you gave him one of your pretty smile. one of the ones reserved for the people you liked. ahem, him.

"a bit too late." he added. you can't help but giggle at bit. "well yes, but i do appreciate it." the boy smiled and continued walking. you don't even know where you're going but walking with him felt calming. if you could listen to his voice while walking in the rain, you'd think you hit the jackpot.

list of reasons he's perfect:

number one : HES A GENTLEMAN

and that's all you need. as long as he was a gentleman you'd be ready to do anything for him. well, not anything but definitely keep him company on a gloomy rainy day.

"where are you headed?" he asked softly. you shrugged. you didn't know what you were even doing at the park, your feet had just taken you there on their own.

"wherever." you said in a dreamy voice. almost like those movies. you couldn't help but cringe at yourself. you were letting yourself show too much and you barely just met this guy. hold on, you didn't even know his name!

"let's go to the cafe down the street then! it's dry and you could warm up there." he said with a smile. you might as well just fall for him now. you just nodded and followed him to the cafe.

in the cafe it was much more dry. no rain was pouring on you and the fresh smell of coffee smelled like home. the boy stood behind a customer and hurried you over.

"i'd like to buy you a coffee if you'd like." you could've sworn your eyes turned into hearts. why was he so sweet?

"you don't have to." you declined. but really it was just because you were flustered.

"but i want to." he said with a tiny pout. you could've sworn he just whined to you about wanting to buy you a coffee. if your heart wasn't already doing flips it would probably stop beating.

"fine, i'd like a caramel frappe." the boy nodded and then began to look at the menu. when it was your turn to order the boy stepped up and began placing an order. at the end the cashier asked for his name.

heeseung

you thought you were dreaming. he has a perfect face, perfect voice, and now perfect name?! the gods were definitely blessing you today.

you walked to an empty table and sat down, waiting for heeseung to come back with your coffee. he brought a tray with him, displaying yours and his coffee along with a slice of cake.

he sat in front of you and handed you your coffee.

"i just realized i never got your name." he said as he got everything off the tray. you smiled and told him your name. when he repeated it you felt like you were on cloud nine. his voice saying your name sounded like heaven.

"my name is heeseung." he said with a smile. he held his hand out for you to shake. when you connected your hand with his he gave it a soft shake. "nice to meet you."

suddenly, you didn't want to leave his presence. he was so kind, willing to buy you a coffee even though he didn't know you. he saved you from getting soaked even though you already were. he's been nothing but nice to you and your heart couldn't handle it.

once you were finished and decided to leave, heeseung held the door open for you. you walked out and opened the umbrella, holding it on top of you two.

"i had fun today." you said with another pretty smile. the rain had started falling softer and it just made everything seem more romantic. i'm insane, you thought to yourself.

heeseung agreed with you. he had a fun day with you as well. he could tell you were sweet. you were also really pretty. your eyes seemed to shine when they met his and your smile, goodness, your smile. he would stare at you all day if you could.

"we should meet again." he proposed suddenly. you looked at him with wide eyes. "if you want to. if not-" you cut him off with a giggle.

"i'd love to grab a coffee with you. maybe on a clear day though." heeseung couldn't help but laugh. his smile matched yours as he walked you back to your apartment, but not without getting your number.

⋆ ｡⋆୨୧˚— GET HER BACK !

𝜗𝜚 ༘⋆ nishimura riki x f!reader genre. fluff, synopsis. in which riki takes his daily prank on you way too far, realizing he’s at risk of losing you. 𝑤ord count 𐙚ㅤㅤ 1402. 𝑤arnings ‎⸝⸝ not edited, kisses, skinship, cursing ୭ৎ 𝑙una notes ⋆.˚ riki is acc ml. i luv him so so much it’s not even funny anymore IT HURTS. — 𝓵𝗂𝖻𝗋𝖺𝗋𝔂 ໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱

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YOUR MORNING STARTED LIKE ANY OTHER AT DECELIS HIGHSCHOOL.

with a slight mix of the days events, dread and anticipation.

dread because of riki, the boy who seemed to have made it his life's mission to make your days a series of unfortunate events. anticipation because deep down, you couldn't deny the thrill that his attention gave you.

his pranks, as annoying as they were, always had a strange way of making you feel special as he did them to nobody but you.

walking down the hallway, you kept an eye out for any potential traps riki may have set.

you knew his pranks well enough by now: fake spiders in your locker, swapping your water bottle with vinegar, and the classic "kick me" sticky note put on your back.

despite everything, you found his mischievous grin and the sparkle in his eyes when he teased you oddly endearing, which is why you never minded it all too much.

as you reached your locker, you cautiously opened it, half-expecting something to jump out at you.

but nothing happened. relieved, letting out a content sigh, you began to gather your books when a loud bang startled you.

“what the fu-“

you turned around to see riki, leaning against the locker beside yours, a smug grin on his face.

"morning, y/n," he said, his voice dripping with amusement and giddiness.

"morning, riki..?" you replied confused, you weren’t friends, your relationship with riki was basically made up of him harassing you with childish pranks.

"ready for another exciting day?" he asked, winking at you as you let out a groan and rolled your eyes, slamming your locker shut making riki flinch as you walked off with a content smirk.

"as ready as i'll ever be."

the day went on oddly without an incident, until lunch had reached.

you were sitting with your friends, enjoying your meal, when riki approached your table with his all-too-familiar mischievous look.

your heart sank, knowing he was up to something, definitely not good for you.

"hey, y/n," riki called out, drawing everyone's attention.

"i have something for you."

your eyes lit up as he handed you your favourite drink, a strawberry flavoured soda.

skeptically, you took it and raised your eyebrow in question, but something about it seemed off.

you looked up at riki, who was barely containing his laughter.

"go on, i got it for you because i felt bad for the spider thing yesterday.. don’t tell me i wasted all my coins." he urged with a pout you couldn’t quite say no to.

against your better judgment, you unbottled the cap. instantly, the soda had exploded all over your face and clothes. a bright pink staining your entire attire.

your eyes watered as you felt the stinging of the soda contaminating your eyes.

you stood up with a screech, and suddenly became aware of your surroundings.

the cafeteria erupted in laughter, all pointing fingers at your figure and snapping pictures, and you saw riki laughing harder than anyone else.

the embarrassment and hurt overwhelmed you, your biggest fear was exactly something like this! you were not good with crowds at all, sure maybe you could handle riki’s pranks in the comfort of your classroom, but not the entire school in the cafeteria.

as you felt the tears about to run down your sticky face, you bolted from the cafeteria, finally letting the tears stream down your face.

you ran out of the school, not caring where you were going. you just needed to get away. as you turned a corner, you bumped into someone, almost losing your balance.

looking up, you saw jungwon, riki's best friend.

"hey, y/n, what's wrong?" he asked, concern evident in his eyes.

"leave me alone, jungwon," you mumbled, pushing past him.

“wait- y/n!”

you shrugged his hand off your shoulder as you felt a sob reaching your throat.

“why don’t you ask riki, jungwon?”

jungwon watched as you ran off, confusion plastered on his face at your shattered behaviour.

after school, he found riki and pulled him aside out of concern for you.

"riki, what happened with y/n?" jungwon asked.

riki chuckled. "oh, i pulled a prank on her at lunch. gave her the soda she loves filled with mentos, it was hilarious! you should’ve seen it-"

jungwon frowned as he quickly cut the boys words off.

"riki, she ran out of the school crying. I think you went way too far this time."

riki's laughter died in his throat as he felt a sick feeling in his stomach.

"what? she was crying? my y/n?"

"yeah," jungwon said rubbing the nape of his neck awkwardly at riki’s wording which he himself hadn’t even noticed.

"you need to fix this dumbass, get her back before she hates you forever!”

riki's heart sank. he had never meant to hurt you or make you feel humiliated, just tease you and play around like he always did with you, his heart ached at the thought of you hating him.

the realization of what he'd done weighed heavily on him, and he spent the rest of the evening thinking about how to make things right, how to get your forgiveness and cheer you up.

the next day, riki approached you several times, after practising lines on what to say the entire night- trying to apologize, but you avoided him, not ready to face him after yesterday’s events.

finally, at lunch, you escaped to the rooftop, seeking alone time, after your friends had constantly been teasing you with a can of soda.

as you leaned against the railing, staring out at the city, you heard the metal door creak open behind you.

"y/n?" riki's voice was soft, almost hesitant.

you didn't turn around, hoping he would take the hint and leave you alone. but he didn't. instead, he walked up to you, his steps slow and uncertain.

"y/n, i know you don’t wanna talk to me- and i get it but i'm really sorry," he said, his voice trembling in utter nervousness.

"i didn't mean to make you cry. i never wanted to hurt you."

you remained silent, the hurt and humiliation still fresh in your mind.

"i know i've been a jerk," riki continued, his voice cracking.

"i just... i don't know how to talk to you. pranking you was the only way i knew to get your attention on me after years.."

you finally turned to face him, shocked to see tears in his eyes.

"why, riki? why do you always have to tease me and not treat me like everyone else?"

riki took a deep breath, wiping his eyes.

"because... because i like you, y/n. a lot. and pranking you was my stupid, idiot way of showing it."

you stared at him, your heart pounding.

"you... nishimura riki, the man who tormented me the whole entire year, like me?"

riki nodded, looking down at his feet.

"yeah. and i'm really sorry if i made you uncomfortable or hurt your feelings. i never wanted that.."

before he could say anything else, you stepped forward and pecked his cheek.

riki's eyes widened in surprise, and a blush spread across his cheeks.

"y/n..." he whispered, his voice filled with sudden shyness, a contrast to the super arrogant and loud riki.

you smiled softly, adoration blooming in your chest, suddenly forgetting about yesterday’s events at his heart felt confession.

"i like you too, riki. but maybe we can find a better way for you to show it?"

riki giggled, rubbing the back of his neck, flustered as relief and joy became evident in his eyes.

"yeah, i think we can do that."

he leaned in hesitantly, and suddenly kissed you softly, you let out a squeal before you melted into his arms, his lips gentle against yours.

the rooftop seemed to fade away, leaving just the two of you in a moment of pure bliss.

when you finally pulled away, you both laughed, the tension and awkwardness gone.

“does this mean you’ll stop making my school days a living hell?”

you whispered as he caressed your face in his soft hands.

“maybe, only if i can be your boyfriend..”

from that day on, riki's pranks became less about embarrassing you and more about seeing that smile he oh so adored.

he still teased you, but it was different now- more playful and loving.

and every time he did, you couldn't help but feel grateful for the boy who had turned your world upside down with his mischievous grin and his big, gentle heart.

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