I Spend Every Moment Of Every Day Trying To Prove That I Deserve To Exist...and Every Moment Of Every

I spend every moment of every day trying to prove that I deserve to exist...and every moment of every day I fail to...so I know I don’t deserve to exist. But that also, sometimes, leaves me with an existential question of if I even deserve to die. Like yes I obviously don’t deserve to live and I absolutely do deserve to die. But me living is suffering. And dying would be a fucking mercy for me. So do I not deserve to live and deserve to die (which is true). Or do I deserve to suffer and not deserve any mercy or release from suffering (also true). I’m torn sometimes. But I can say with 1,000% certainty that I do not deserve to exist and I have no justification for my existence...

— Ezra Koenig, Vampire Weekend

I assumed it was your first playthrough, being stuck at an early boss and saying you “suck at the game” (everyone sucks before Cathedral Ward you can’t even level for half of Central Yharnam there’s a learning curve). My first and second playthrough he took 2 tries. Every one after that I manage to first time him with molotovs like stated. If you need anything else I dispense bloodborne knowledge and wisdom freely.

Turned on Bloodborne, remembered my save was at Father Gascoigne, died 5 times in 10 minutes, turned off Bloodborne.

Hey, hello! I Purity Amira and I am really sorry for sending this, I just hope I’m not overstepping any boundaries as I’m about to ask help which is very important right now. Our cat Sleepy requires an urgent medical attention from the veterinarian. She is experiencing pain and I don’t have the money to take her to the vet to help her. so, I am asking for help from any well-wisher. Even if you can’t spare some money to help, reposting the link would be of great help. She helps me in taking care of my daughter since they are best friend and she is my only close relation with mom since my mom died last year 2021. If you would be interested to help, I have Pinned the post on my blog, please you can try reply to the ask privately as well because some people like getting creepy over this matter. We are alright, pray for us, please. ♥️🙏

I usually ignore these asks but for a kitty...well I can’t just ignore that. Unfortunately I have no money for you and I don’t exactly have a following here. But I have a few people that always see my posts (you know who you are). If you few regulars and anyone else that happens upon my page could reblog this, spread it around. Maybe help get the baby some help. I’m sorry but it’s the best that I can do is try to spread your plea. I’m sorry that I can’t do more for you...

Everyone who has ever left me has always been better off for it, and still are and always will be...abandoning me is always the best thing for everyone and always only terrible for me...I am absolutely certain that no one loses sleep or cries over me. They’re all too busy celebrating being rid of me with whoever they replaced with me or just liked more than me from the start. I don’t matter enough for anyone to be hurt by it absence....

— rhythmicrhinoceros

More and more glad every night lately that we moved to somewhere on a third floor. I think if I jump right the fall from my bedroom window would do it for me. I’m hoping...