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Shattered

I dream of him every night, my stomach turned translucent, neoformed hands and face pressed against flesh made of latex

I change his diaper for the first time, an IV lodged in his scalp, the nurses have run out of veins

I stick my finger in his mouth and he bites showing me his first cut tooth

I cradle him in my arms, his breathing labored, matching him lungful for lungful, trying with all my heart to breath for him and

There are first words and first steps and first comprehensions and anger and pride and joy and fear and we are a team, a package deal, until we are not

And I give the ultimatum, and he takes it, ruthlessly, emotionlessly, because any outcome is better than living under my roof, where did I go so very wrong?

I drop him in front of the church. He does not look back as he walks away.

Who wore it better?

I'm literally full on crying now because someone threw away the box of my new perfume.

I hate myself.

TW, blood and self harm...

Do you think if I hurt myself, I'll feel something...?

Bruh, how did I jump from the MCU rabbit hole to the shadow and bone rabbit hole and then straight into the Howl's moving castle rabbit hole? In two days?? Wtf is wrong with me, I just wanted to watch a ghibli movie to get some inspo to start sketching??? And now I'm writing one shots and reading a 100k slowburn AU of hmc????

not me making myself sad about the imaginary death of an imaginary gf in an imaginary apocalypse

thicc

my dad was yelling at my sis for not doing something right and was calling her "thick-headed" but he said "so thick" 

and i was like "oo yeah she thiccer than moto moto amirite" and then i immediately wanted to kill myself for making such a horrifying and outdated joke that i thought was legitimated funny

i want to go back to sleeping the whole entire day because i lost so much weight when i did

Y'all... my kinktober list is mostly rushed and i hate it :( i'm sorry if it jumbled/confusing for you i'm new to writing :((

Sooo , I've been saving money to buy myself a good meal since months

It's been delivered to my neighbours

I don't know them

I'm just sitting here crying

And I'm so scared they're gonna judge me for my taste

I'm so hungry

@danielhowell x bloom by troye sivan

(oof man this is hecka ugly, i really hate the way it turned out)

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Have you ever gagged at the thought of yourself.

fact i thought there was a whole comic abt them

WOO YEAH

We've lost

MOTIVATION TO PLAY!!

just found out i somehow missed an old dnf fanfiction that I NEED FOR STUDIES, and i’m not resting until i find it and read the entire thing in one sitting.

water tastes infinitely better pored out of a glass bottle than any other kind of bottle and that is the truth

You bought this to yourself you know. You just had to keep reading the wrong things and imagining wrong things and being ashamed to ask God for help because you don't deserve it. Yes exactly. You don't deserve it. So quit complaining. The consequences for your actions are very little compared to what you do. When will you change?!! Yeah just stay as the loser you are. Stay in the same place while everyone moves on and lives and learns. You just stay there and be a useless existence.

Yugi: Now that Atem is gone I feel empty and as if I am now burdened to fill this hole he left in my heart

Seto: that’s so sad Alexa play despacito

I STILL HAVEN'T UPLOADED A STORY FOR OVER MONTH SKHSHSJJSJSJS sori for whoever actually reads my writings and rants, also who is waiting for an upload 😭😭😭