"Always?" (one Shot)

"Always?" (one shot)

I already posted this on A03, but I want to post it to Tumblr as well!

Content warnings: death/talk of death, character death

Summary: Dazai's stuck in a time loop, and chuuya promises him something probably impossible.

(link to A03 here)

Work below :D

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365 days in a year.

365 days that dazai has been stuck in this time loop of the world constantly dying on repeat. Everything happens the same, each day, each time.

And it's not fun. As much as dazai craves death—the feeling of killing himself impounded in his brain so much so that he might believe that one day this loop will stop—he actually fears it now.

Not just the feeling of death, impending doom, but of losing that one close friend he's seen in each loop, each day on repeat.

Dazai dosent think chuuya knows he's in a loop. Hell, maybe this is all some sort of fucked up simulation for dazais own personal torture.

"have you ever felt like we're stuck like this? In these bodies, someday to rot—or apparently boil, according to the meteor nearing earth." chuuya asks one loop in particular, giving dazai hope that maybe chuuyas in this with loop him.

"I've felt that countless of times in my life." Dazai would respond that one loop, looking up as the meteor catches fire, entering the earth's atmosphere.

"really? chuuya hums, sitting with dazai on the ledge of a building, watching the sky rain ash and become red from the heat.

"Yeah. Too many times." Dazai says, voice cracking as the meteor gets closer. He's He's sick of this loop. This loop of pain and never being able to see the real chuuya again. . .

"Chuuya?' Dazai asks, watching as chuuya leans closer to him; he didn't want to be alone.*

"Can you promise me that we'll meet in every world?" Dazai entangles his hand in chuuyas hair, knocking the redheads hat off, which flies into the gnarly winds.

"sure, mackerel. Promise."

The meteor finally greets the earth's surface, the boiling, scorching feeling dazai has felt too many times now—become familiar with it, almost—caressing he and chuuyas bodies as the world goes to flames.

A tear runs down chuuyas cheek silently and he turns to dazai more, nuzzling against him.

"see you in another life, 'samu." chuuya mumbles.

"See you, chuuya."

And everything goes dark, a searing dark that tears and bites at dazai and chuuyas skin. One dazai has felt too many times now.

Goodbye, world. See you in the next loop.

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Idk why, but i've always liked the idea of time loops / having to repeat your life- idk, it just entertains me that you'd have to see the same thing happening over and over until "the end"--if there is one, anyway.

Chapter 14 is finally FINALLY being worked on!!!

just a sneak peak at a little something in chapter 14 :D

I wonder what he's making a decision about?

hmmm......who knows!

Any headcanons/ideas that BEAST!Dazai and Chuuya would do?

(P.S BEAST!Dazai fan and writer :3 I like your writing btw!!!)

OMG FELLOW WRITER?!?!! TYSM!!!!! JUST FOR YOU POOKIE!!! MEAH MWAH💗

I didnt know what EXACTLY to write

but valentines day is tomorrow........

so......

how about....

HOW BEAST! DAZAI WOULD ASK YOU TO BE HIS VALENTINE

ill do chuuya another time bestie—-

⚠︎︎: maybe ooc? Mention of suicide,

♺:reboot,review and request!

Ps~ here is the playlist bbg!!! (trying somthing out)

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꧁Osamu Dazai꧂

❤︎︎synopsis:` Your boss makes you work late on Valentine’s Day….you didn’t realize that this was why….. `

❥You were his secretary,often taking calls and such but were never exactly put on the front lines for anything. Dazai was a huge crybaby (thats why we are in this mf mess) even though everyone called him stoic and calm. He was emotional,he just didnt want people to see it. He didnt want them to think their boss was some kind of crybaby or anything......until he found you. You saw it all and you saw him for who he was and not for who he pretended to be. The last person to do that was chuuya.

❥You got a call late one night while he put you on overtime....he never really did this,overtime?! And on vallentines day?! Ugh.....but the weird thing about the call was that it was his personal number. “(Y/N).....please meet me on the roof? I.....i want to talk to you....it was much too important to say anywhere else,and my office is such a boring place-make it quickly so you dont miss the sunset....“ He said to you before promptly hanging up before you had even a chance to argue!

❥You walk up to the roof,your jacket fluttering in The breeze that night as you gasped….flowers,car keys,jewelry….everything he could think of!, but most of all…..poetry. He wrote from nothing from his heart,it was extremely difficult and perplexing. He’s always considered himself to be a thinker,but this made him so…..soft. He was head over heels for you.

❥dazai had never been anything of a romantic person,he never used to partake in those affairs due to how he hoped to die. He didn’t know how to do it…he didnt know how to coax or court you into a romance with him. He didn’t know-and it petrified him,what if you said no? The what ifs flooded his head and overwhelmed his senses.

❥ “(y/n)…..my love. My heart,please be my valentine. With every inch of my being I love you and a little more after-I am a horrible man. A awful one but I will never hurt you and I will never do anything less than the best for you…(y/n),darling…..let me love you. For you I am your dog,I’m nobody’s poet nor am I anyone’s….but yours if you will take me.”

❥ do you say yes?

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Tags! : @rusmii @atlasnessie @heartsfourdazai @atsquie @lotomber @lovedazai @chuunai @lotus-reblogs

CHAPTER 14 IS HERE BABBBYYYY!!!

I'm so tired xd

But: chapter 14 is out!!

p.s, if you havent read the rest of the fic, it's: "Written in my pages, between each universe" by SingToMeSweetTemptation (also linked)

Scrapped chapter!

I have a chapter that was supposed to be chapter 14, but I didn't like it and want to share it for everyone else to enjoy as just a little side-thing! Content warnings: panic attacks, cussing. if theres one i missed please lmk Characters mentioned: Dazai, Chuuya, Arahabaki, Mori

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Of all the places Chuuya has woken up in, he never expected one to be in water. He immediately panics and tries to swim to the surface, only to find out--he can breathe? No, this isn't right. Why can he breathe?

Theres no sight of Arahabaki near--even then, his gravity manipulation dosen't work underwater.

"What the fuck?!" He exclaims out loud, before he swims forward and thunks into a glass chamber. Oh, no.

No. no, no,

no, is he back in the lab?

No.

He can't be. It blew up, theres no way--

"Goodness gracious," A voice cuts into Chuuya's thoughts and a smiling Dazai Osamu walks into his feild of view. "Who knew you fish-folk were so. . .rude?" Dazai smiles softly, and Chuuya chokes on the water despite how he's able to breathe perfectly fine. fish-folk?!?

Chuuya looks around the large water tank, eyes widening as he notices a scarlet red fish-like tail with spikes flowing in the water behind him, yet he has legs. He's certainly not a mermaid, so maybe 'fish-folk' would be better terms. His tail holds various white markings, which look like spirals and eyes in certain areas, and as he looks at his arms and thighs, he has scattered scales across those, too. They aren't fully coated in scales, but in the areas that there are scales theres markings on those, too.

"rude?!" Chuuya snaps, looking at Dazai as what he said fully processes. "Oh, says you, i'm trapped in a tank!" Chuuya yells angrily, and Dazai simply frowns.

"You have to stay in there, i apologize deeply." Dazai mumbles, watching Chuuya. "However," He starts, and Chuuya visibly perks up, tail swaying slower amidst the water in the tank.

"I can talk to the man in charge and see if we could allow you out." Dazai pauses. "That is, if you dont end up suffocating from lack of oxygen."

Chuuya seethes, eager to just get out. He feels too trapped, and it reminds him of certain white walls and floors, reminds him of a certain blonde-haired french man, reminds him of a machine wiith tubes connected on it which host a god. Everything he can see in this place besides the tank he's in, reminds him of times he'd much rather forget. A time filled with a numbness Chuuya could never begin to describe in words.

"I dont care if i suffocate. Just let me out." free me, a eight year old voice begs in the back of Chuuya's head let me go home.

"Hmh." Dazai huffs before he walks off, leaving Chuuya with his thoughts, his memories. Everything Chuuya hates about his past surfaces. And he hates it.

Dazai never cared much for all life that was living--especially not humans. He himself wasn't human, so he looked down upon mankind. It was simple, yet oh so complicated. No matter what Universe he lives in, no matter what paralel version of him existed, no matter who he ends up sticking by, he looked down upon. His subordinates in any Universe, his higher-ups, anybody who even so as smiled at him will get a hostile glare in their direction.

Why he was like this, nobody except he and few other people knew.

But, currently, where he stands in front of a ravenette man with fierce blood-colored eyes whom holds the name of death like its a crown, he wishes he could pound his head into the concrete.

Mori Ougai isn't a good person. Dazai knows he never will be, no matter where he goes, what life he leads.

"You are telling me," Mori sighs, leaning backwards in his chair, eyeing Dazai calmly in a way that makes his skin crawl. "You wish to let a possible threat to our facility out?"

"Yes." He says, tone harsh and snappy. He dosen't want to be here, in a room with a man that has done horrible things--such as mutating a large sea beast which lay unmoving in a massive tank, down in the basement of the facility.

"Tch." Mori scoffs, yet Dazai can tell he's thinking about saying no. Truly, if he says no to this, Dazai will just let the sea creature out himself. He saw the look of pain on the creatures face, the way his body stilled at the word of freedom.

"Fine. But it has a limited amount of time out, and you are to use anesthetics if it tries to leave--or kill it." Mori says finally, and Dazai huffs, not at all amused at such words.

With a destination in mind, Dazai leaves the room with no need to listen to Mori's permission of his dismissal. He could care less, really.

He yawns, regretting not having slept for long last night. He couldn't escape the nightmares that plauged his mind. "Why so tired?" a booming voice rattles around Dazai, and he stops in his tracks to stare at the huge tank where a massive sea beast lay unmoving. perhaps Dazai was still in a dream--so he pinches his hand, only to be met with pain. He's very much awake.

"How are you not dead?" Dazai blurts, stepping closer to the tank and staring into the murky green water, dirty from years of not being cleaned. Mori still wanted to keep the tank and the creature held within. perhaps it held value to Mori, or it could sell for a fortune on some black web.

"I'm far from death, mortal." The voice echoes, letting out a laugh that rattles Dazai's entire body as he places a hand to the dusty glass of the tank. "I'm an ancient being. truly, i am considered young." It says, and Dazai can hear the deep intake of breath it takes before speaking once more.

"Mortal," it starts, and Dazai wipes the dust off his hand on his pants before stepping back and crossing his arms. "Bring me my. . .child. I wish to see him."

Dazai pauses, brows furrowed. "Child? I dont know where he'd be, i-"

"You do. You did just ask for his freedom, no?"

Oh.

His neck is suddenly freezing cold, and his skin turns to ice as chills run up his spine. "How do i-- how?" He mumbles, more to himself than the sea beast.

"He can breathe with no water, yet only for an hour. Bring me him. Put him in this tank with me." It demands, and Dazai forces himself to step further away from the tank. He feels like he cant breathe, god why cant he breathe? His limbs are heavy, and he's planted firmly in place as the world spins.

"Oh, goodness. You should go get him before my powers effect you more." A distant voice says, and Dazai can only let out a choked whimper as he nods and forces himself to move. He walks out of the room, into a different area of the basement where far more active tanks reside.

A emptiness seems to burrow itself inside Dazai's mind--something not rare, yet uncommon at most times--and he finds himself silently climbing the ladder to reach the top of the smaller tank which in resides a sea creature that Dazai had admired since he laid eyes on him.

"hey." The sea creature mumbles, his blue eyes the softest color of the sea and the sky. Dazai's breath catches in his throat and he scoops his arms into the water. "Climb in my arms, please?" He mumbles, watching the sea creature's eyes light in a fiery joy before he moves into Dazai's arms.

"Hmmh." The sea creature hums, content to reside in Dazai's arms for the time being it seems. . . . .

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And that's the end! hope you all enjoyed <3

P.s the ACTUAL chapter 14 is being worked on!! just stay patient and keep your eyes open, everyone!

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