I Will Never Forgive You For The Nights I Stayed Up Crying And Wondering Why I Wasnt Good Enough, I Will

i will never forgive you for the nights i stayed up crying and wondering why i wasn’t good enough, i will never forgive you for the days where my biggest accomplishment was getting out of bed, you broke my heart and for that there is no space for any forgiveness. But i will sit here and thank you, thank you for showing me i was worth more than you, thank you for giving me the ultimate push to loving myself, thank you for showing me you weren’t the person i dreamt of you being. Here’s to loving yourself after a heartbreak. They leave because you need room to grow

Top Ten Husbandos!

I was tagged by @dhades-diaferia @mfm50! There’s no particular order, either. I usually have a “man-meat” for just about everything, so my list is pretty big. I’m just going to work on this little by little while I’m on vacation.

Sid Arnault from “Midnight Cinderella”(gif made for me by @acrispyapple)

Masamune Date from “Ikemen Sengoku”

Ken Kaneki from “Tokyo Ghoul”

Cu Chulainn from the Fate series (mainly “Fate/Stay Night: Unlimited Blade Works”)

Heisuke Todo from “Hakuoki”

Crow from “Deadman Wonderland”

Mugen from “Samurai Champloo”

Ian from “Siren’s Lament”

Diarmuid from “Fate/Zero”

Ban from “Seven Deadly Sins”

“I cry for the future we lost But I’ll forever be grateful for the past and memories we have and share. I mourn for what could have been. But I’ll smile for what was. To have been embraced the way I was, held, loved and sheltered… I’ll forever treasure every single moment. We might never see each other ever again but your face, smile, laugh, scent and warmth will forever be an imprint left on my heart.”

— To Love is to be happy and free.(Via @spilledinkandtears)

Favourite Sailor Moon Quote

“When I wake up in the morning, I see how the wind blows through the white curtains of my window. My alarm rings and tells me that it is seven o'clock and I already hear how mum calls for me: ‘Wake up, or you’ll be late for school!’ Still half asleep, I respond to her: 'Please let me sleep for three more minutes.’

Everyday, I arrive at school, being late and the teacher punishes me by throwing me out of the class room. I get very bad grades.

After school, we go to the café. I look at the newest party dresses in the windows of the boutiques.

And all those small things make me really happy.

I would love to live that normal life again.

I would really love to. ”

“I used to run away from myself but I started to realize how hard it was so I just stopped and looked up at the moon and that was the first time I ever noticed, the moon only had its own time to shine when the sun was down and it made me feel lonely and sad, should I only depend on others or should I just love myself and shine even brighter on my own” 💓🌙💕💫🌸✨💓🌙💕💫🌸✨💓🌙💕💫

“Stop doubting yourself. Stop thinking he doesn’t care, because he cares. Stop thinking you don’t make him happy, because you make him happy. Yes, he sucks at replying. Yes, he’s shitty at being there for you. And yes, he’s never good at telling you how he feels, but he’s trying. He’s trying so hard. Give him a chance. Stop thinking you’re not enough for him, because you are. Stop thinking you’re not important to him, because you are. And don’t worry about what the future has in store for you. You might get hurt- heartbroken even, but you also might get your happy ending. It’ll be a long tough journey, but that’s just the risk you’ll have to take because he’s worth it no matter the outcome. In the meantime, be there for him- while he cries, while he drinks, while he copes and keep him safe from making bad choices. Healing takes time, patience. Be happy that he chose you to be his healer because all you ever wanted was to feel important. So, stop letting your head play tricks on you, because you’re more than just enough in his eyes. In this moment, you’re the reason he gets out of bed every morning.”

— sept. 7, 2016: note to self | Instagram