Hi! Just Found About You Now, Amazing! I've Read Several Darkling Imagines Tonight To Cheer Me Up A Bit

Hi! Just found about you now, amazing! I've read several Darkling imagines tonight to cheer me up a bit - day has been horrible - and yours are the only one I really liked and felt natural and very original in terms of his interpretation - lord, so many out there are SO not him, you cannot really picture him reacting X, while yours, you really got him! Thank you a lot for sharing, you're very talented! I vote for BEAUTY AND THE BEAST ofc- if the votes still open! Please take care and stay safe.

hi!!! let me say i have been feeling so shitty lately and this made me SOOO HAPPY!! ik ive been kinda bad at updating and on an unofficialy kinda break bc of my original book & mental health stuff but this made me feel so warm!! im just getting back into the grove on working on stuff and this made me feel really good about it!

yall!! very random and maybe even a little basic but the tension between me & writing a kaz x reader fic (maybe 2+ parts??) that has like a “you betrayeddd meee” moment where the reader is like hired to get close to kaz to get his secrets or something and by the time he finds out they’re like close and the reader has already called off the deal and kaz’s instinct is to like kill her but he can’t bring himself to so he’s like leave ketterdam and never come back…

wow!! i want it 😭

but like! a happy ending hopefully!!

today has been the worst ive felt in a long time!! i was so sad i couldnt even write and i just had a panic attack,, on top of everything going wrong and my anxiety just being really aggrivated today for like no reason i found out that all my good friends were at the same birthday party that i wasnt invited to

and instead of telling me that she was going to that my best friend just told me she was busy at a certain time!! on top of that she wanted to hang out with me in the morning and she would have done that knowing that i was feeling very shitty and that she was just going to a party that confirmed all of my insecurities

Do you think Kirigan would go for soft girls or the ones that has the same personality as him?

a/n ahh okay ik ive been bad at updating and making content on here and been on a kinda unofficial break but im doing a little better mentally so more content soon!! anyways i had to answer this the SECOND i saw it bc i have SO many opinions.

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okay,, this is going to sound like such a cop out answer, but i think there's no wrong answer bc it depends on how you interpret his character (which i'll explain really soon) but basically, in short, my personal opinion is that he'd go for a balance but be more drawn to someone that presents as one extreme and has the opposite hidden in them,,

personally, i think he'd be drawn to someone that presents as a 'soft' girl with a hidden 'darkness' in them, i don't mean like secretly evil but someone who wants to be good so badly but something in them is just a little too hurt or impulsive to always be the bigger person, even though they want to be.

Here's why I think that personality would draw him in most (i'll also explain the opposite personality bc like i said at the beginning, i think it really depends on how you interpret his character)

- okay, so it's clear that manipulation is kinda his love language (all he did was manipulate my girl Alina and i personally do think that that was the only way he was capable of loving her, so his issues weren't an absence of love but an inability to love in a healthy way--but that's just my opinion)

- so someone in that mental state that wants to be good and for the most part is but sometimes does foolish things bc they're human and have to deal with complex emotions (emotions that remind him of his personal struggles), would be really easy to manipulate bc he's clearly not an upstanding moral guy

- so when he tells someone with those internal conflicts that he sees seeds of darkness or something beyond the exterior they show the world, that person is inclined to believe him. (like when he tells alina that he saw her power and didn't run away, but can Mal say the same?)

- and after planting those seeds, he would be quick to reap them,, what do i mean by that??

- well, a major, personal headcanon of mine is that the Darkling definitely craves the acceptance and assurance of a partner to keep away the solitude that haunts him but he's afraid/hates the idea of losing control and giving someone so much one sided power over him

- so that's why he would be drawn to someone with a softer exterior for deeper connection purposes, bc he could feel like a protector/comforter and maintain some control (i also could very easily see him having an innocence/corruption kink but we're not here for that)

- also,, i think he'd see someone like that (or just his SO in general) as super good, and there would be some level of comfort in him to be able to look at his SO and be like 'they care for me/need me so i cant be that far gone, that lost' or maybe even be like 'if someone as good as them is allowed their impulses, i should be allowed mine'

- i also feel like he'd instinctually convince himself he HATES any 'soft presenting' person he's even somewhat attracted/intrigued by bc anything he sees as pure good he'd be at least a little jealous of in a way he doesn't understand (bc keep in mind, his darkness didnt come from a place of true malice originally)

- but i think he'd bore of someone that's completely soft just bc he's attracted to power bc even when he's not working on his plans, he is,, and if the potential SO doesn't have that power physically (as in political influence/grisha ability) he'd ideally need some strength of will/personality,, which is why he likes to press on that person's fear of being 'bad'

- he'd also like to prey on someone with this personality's fear of being a bad person so that he could feel better about himself bc like i said earlier,, a small part of him would be jealous of their goodness and i think at times he'd even be insecure

- especially if his SO started spending time with someone that's a better person than him bc he wants/needs to be the person that his SO cares about most bc it's not like he cares about a lot of ppl and if he cares more about them than they do about him,, that's not a type of control he'd be willing to relinquish

now why i think ppl could believe that he'd 'go for' someone with a similar exterior to him but has a secret soft inside:

- well,, that's basically him

- i believe opposites attract way more in complex characters (which is part of the reason i lean towards the first dynamic), but he could def be with someone with such a similar personality bc two people that crave power could create such a great couple

- first off, there would be a natural challenge there, bc the two could keep each other on edge and motivated (and victory/adrenaline of competition sex would hit hard,, let me tell you)

- he'd feel comfortable being himself a little more with someone that expresses the same level of ambitions as him and that would be easier than a relationship with someone that presents as soft

- tbh i think someone with a similar personality to him as his ideal hook up but for more serious connection,, he'd connect to someone softer bc they could give him approval/assurance he needs easier

- i think that a similar personality to him would keep him on his toes and entertained which is important and someone that's as driven as him would be beneficial for multiple reasons

- they could connect to him through his struggle and validate his actions

- and if that person had a soft spot,, he'd see even more of himself in them and he'd be able to feel like a protector a little more

- he'd def like to push at that softness in order to feel like his SO is important to him, even his SO is good at hiding that part of themselves

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honestly the reason that how you view his character is so important in answering this question is bc it depends on whether you think that motivation/being pushed while still being needed is more important to him or being validated while still feeling like he's in control is more important to him.

but yeah,, in general i think he'd be drawn to softer girls but would end up going for girls more like him bc of more assured sexual chemistry and bc it puts him less at risk at opening up to anything beyond the face he wants the world to see

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Half Light Ch. 4 (Darkling x Reader)

Summary: Reader becomes a spy for West Ravka, after certain events unfold she is sent to spy on the Darkling and derail his plans to attack.

Warnings: Very mild smut, suggestive language

Word Count: 3.2k

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P.s. I may or may not have forgotten to proofread 🤦🏻‍♀️

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“You know it’s quite rude to stare Ms. Kirovsky.” The Darkling spoke as if he was amused by your sudden shock. He stared back at you, and let his eyes roam over your features. You almost felt nervous that he’d been having the same dreams and would recognize you, but Maria’s face was all he saw. What would he think of your actual appearance, you thought?

‘Shame, he’ll never get to see me.’

You regained control over your emotions effortlessly again and shoved your thoughts to the back of your mind. “I apologize, sir. You merely caught me off guard.” You said, calm and collected to make up for your previous lack of decorum. His lip twitched slightly at that, the faintest smirk gracing his face.

“Nothing to worry about, let’s get to business.” He motioned for you to sit back down as he crossed the room and sat opposite to you. While you sat back down you noticed him analyzing your face again, as if he was searching for something in your eyes. Maybe he wanted to find a tinge of insolence there, something to find a fault in you.

You watched him watching you for some moments before he opened his mouth to speak. His lips looked heavenly as did every other part of him. He brought a hand to his face and rubbed lightly at his beard, his hands were carved by the gods and you could only imagine how they would feel wrapped around your thighs and throat.

“As I understand it Ms. Kirovsky, you activated an explosion on the crossing of the fold that put all passengers aboard in danger. Do you care to offer any explanation for your actions?” His words were measured and calm, not at all what you’d expected from a man of his reputation.

“With all due respect sir, I was doing what was needed to survive. If I hadn’t had that inferni set off the blasting powders towards the volcra, I might not be here and neither would the rest of the Grisha on board.” He narrowed his eyes and took his time to think of a response. “Very well then. Would you like to comment on your skill with the assault rifle. Materialnik aren’t schooled in combat training, much less with the use of mortal weapons. What do you have to say about that?” His tone was both accusatory and smug, as if he was looking for a slip up. I’d have to lie to make up for my mistake, but in a moment of life and death there had been no other way out.

“I decided to take shooting lessons while I was on leave and I quickly gained skill. When the other volcra came upon us and I saw the rifle I took it as our only chance. I knew that the noise might attract more monsters, but I did what I thought was best.” You kept calm as you spoke, but inside you were waiting anxiously for his reaction. The Darkling on the other hand was feeling his intrigue for you rise quickly.

A materialnik that he’d never taken notice of, is all of a sudden the talk of the camp and he didn’t know what to make of you. Your looks were fairly common, dark hair and hazel eyes, but there was something there that he couldn’t put his finger on. A fire in you that came off in sparks every time you looked his way and opened your mouth to speak. You impressed him with your mannerisms and the way in which you carried yourself. Your lack of arrogance also had you one step ahead of everyone else brave enough to seek his attention. His interest had peaked and you wouldn’t leave his mind very soon.

Two minutes passed and the Darkling had yet to respond, all he did was stare off into space. You watched him carefully as he rolled his lip into his mouth, deep in thought.

‘I wonder what his lips would feel like?’ You shook yourself out of your dirty thoughts of a man you’d just met, right on time to see the Darkling look your way again.

“You’re dismissed Ms. Kirovsky. I think that your actions were adequate and the results far outrun the risk you took. I’ll have you escorted to a tent nearby, you should sleep as much as possible. We have a long road ahead of us tomorrow morning.”

You both got up from your seats and the Darkling stepped to the entrance of the tent where you heard him speaking to an oprichniki about taking you to the nearest available tent to his. He wanted you near him, but you couldn’t for the life of you decipher why. You wondered if he was still suspicious, despite having let any accusations go you knew you’d have to keep a low profile for now. The Darkling walked back over to you and took your hand in his. Though you didn’t move away, his touch startled you. His hands were big and cold in contrast you your warm ones but despite that, the gesture felt familiar and comfortable.

“One of my guards is waiting to take you to your tent and he informs me your luggage has already been delivered there. Goodnight Ms. Kirovsky, it has certainly been a pleasure.” He slowly brought your hand to his mouth and placed a small kiss to your knuckles. Your chest erupted into butterflies and you let out a shaky sight before smiling slightly. The Darkling smirked playfully and carefully dropped your hand.

“Goodnight, General.” Your gaze lingered on his black abyss eyes as you said it and you swore he’d put you in a trance. Backing away from him you made your way to the exit and gave one last look over your shoulder to find him staring back. You left the tent and were quickly escorted to your own. Once there you released a breath you didn’t know you’d been holding and let you shoulders unwind for the first time in days. The first part of your mission was over, you’d gotten through the fold and past the Darkling’s strange interrogation. Now, however, you couldn’t get your mind off of him. As you undressed down to you shift, you felt as if the more clothes you removed, the hotter your skin grew. You were flooded with images of the Darkling kissing your neck, his hands roaming your body while your eyes rolled to the back of your head in pleasure. Your knuckles still tingled from his kiss and you only wish he’d kissed your lips instead as you dropped into the cot that had been placed for you to sleep on. The feeling of need was growing and growing, but so did the drowsiness that was now catching up to you after an eventful day. The heat was becoming unbearable and you rid yourself of your night shift, as soon as your head hit the pillow again you were out.

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You opened your eyes and found yourself not in your tent, but a bed. A beautiful four poster bed amid a room painted forest green. The sheets were black silk and the posters of the bed looked golden and made for the gods. Bringing a hand up to your face you felt Maria’s features had disappeared and replaced by your own. You propped yourself up on your elbows to look around at that dark room and find a mirror when he came into view. The Darkling was half naked in front of you, with only his undergarments covering him. You opened your mouth to speak, but not before he climbed onto the bed and rested on the back of his feet. Behind him his vanity mirror confirmed your suspicions, the Darkling was seeing you as you were and nothing else.

“How are we here?” You asked him and his dark eyes focused on your face before moving to hover over you. He placed his large hand on your cheek and you couldn’t help but lean into his touch and kiss his palm. All the while gazing into his eyes. A small smile opened on his beautiful face as he started to speak.

“I don’t know. All I know is I can’t take my mind or my eyes off of you.” He said breathily. I let out a light sigh and pushed my head up to meet his. We stayed like that a few moments, noses touching and staring deep into each other’s gaze. “I need you.” You said in a slight whine, closing your eyes shut as you felt the hand holding your face move to the back of your head and push until your lips met. His lips felt like softness personified, two pillowy wonders sweet as honey and beautifully sinful. You swiped your tongue across his lower lip and he opened his mouth to you. Your tongues battled for dominance and he easily won. The hand that wasn’t holding you made it’s way to your hip and squeezed before sliding further down to your thigh. The Darkling slowly kissed you for what seemed like hours, and you couldn’t stop the small moans escaping your mouth at the wonderful pressure of having his body atop yours and his hands pressed against your thighs and face.

His lips wandered down to your jaw and then to your throat where he sucked marks into your skin before licking and blowing cool air onto them. Heat rose in your chest and spread throughout your body, settling in your lower abdomen. Need was growing as his hands searched your skin for something to grab at, he landed on your breasts and palmed them through your clothes. You let out a pleased moan and lightly bit the spot by his jaw and sucked a matching mark onto him. The Darkling groaned at the gesture and came back up to meet your lips, he lifted his head and pressed your foreheads together before placing a chaste kiss to your nose, causing you to smile widely.“I don’t know what brought us here, but I thank it. You make me feel alive.” He whispered. You met his lips again and let yourself fall at his mercy. The hand on your thigh started pushing your shift up to the apex of your thigh. But right as the Darkling’s hands reached your undergarments he backed away from your kiss to look at you.“Are you sure you want this milaya?” He asked, intently watching for you response. “Touch me, please.” You answered out of breath as his hands traveled further to where you needed him. Your knickers were pulled aside and …

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Your eyes slowly blinked open as a ray of sunshine hit you from above. There, streaming from a small opening at the top of your tent it spread across your face and made you feel it’s warm glow as you lifted your head to survey your surroundings. Your mind flooded with the memories of your dream and its abrupt ending. His touch felt so real and you were fully aware of your surroundings and body. You could clearly recall every touch made and word spoken, the look of the room and the darkling’s gorgeous figure. You got up and started getting dressed when you pulled out a mirror to check your appearance. Just as you’d seen in your dream, the tailored appearance you’d worn all these days had faded back into your own. You took a look at your features and studied them as you wouldn’t see them much over then next few months. A sense remorse and disgust fell over you at the thought of what you were doing, but you were already on this side of the fold, what use was lament now. You were pulled out of your thoughts when you scoured your throat for the mark you had a few days ago, only to find it was gone. A new one had taken its place though. On the other side of your neck there were two fresh bruises at the base of your neck and upon further inspection, you found a third just between your jaw and the bottom of your ear.

‘Just like the one I gave him to match.’ What was it about these dreams that made it possible for you to come back with proof of the nights adventures. The memories filled you niece more and your core aches just thinking of his hands touching you where you need him most. His long, deft fingers grazing your nipples on his way down to your heat. Only stopping to circle your clit and illicit wild moans from the deposit parts of you before sinking into your cunt, weepy with need of him. You subconsciously brought one hand to cup your breasts and the other to press on your pelvis in reaction to your sinful thoughts while your head hung back. The hand at your breast reached up to your lips and you wished he would come to your tent and see you there with the marks he’d created and take you.

A sharp whistle sounded outside your tent signaling for the soldiers in camp to rise. You were snapped into motion and grabbed the mirror again to begin your tailoring. Your fingers stretched to try and cover your hickeys, but you stopped thinking there’d be no use in trying and styled your hair to cover what your kefta could not. The silence that filled your tent was both relaxing after such an eventful morning, but also left your thoughts open to that little voice at the back of your head berating you for feeling so strongly about a man you’d only met once and who could easily lead to your untimely undoing. Despite all of that, the Darkling had taken up residence in your head, and wouldn’t be leaving any time soon. After packing away your things you grabbed your suitcase and walked outside and were met two oprichniki waiting for you. One of them stepped forward when they saw you and the other came to take your bag, at your confused look the first spoke up.

“Ms. Kirovsky, we are to escort you to the general’s coach, we are departing soon for Os Alta.” You nodded at his explanation and the three of you were on your way. The Darkling wanted you to ride in his coach, you couldn’t fathom why he would extend such courtesy to someone he’d only just met. You thought maybe he wanted to keep an eye on you for safety precautions, but even so you doubted he often offered other Grisha a chance to ride with him. As you approached the road where the coaches were stationed you could see the Darkling and the raven haired girl from yesterday talking. While he looked bored and done with the conversation, Zoya looked furious and her mild shaking didn’t help disguise that. When you were close enough for them to see you Zoya simply shot you a look disdain and disgust and left. The Darkling turned his head to look for you and as soon as your eyes met, something inside you softened and melted away altogether. You stopped a few feet away from him, but his carried him to you instead to fill the gap. “Ms. Kirovsky you look lovely today. After your brave acts to protect your fellow grisha on the crossing yesterday, I thought it only fitting to let you have a comfortable journey. I hope you won’t think it too forward of me.”

Not too forward at all, considering what I dreamt of you doing to me last night.’ You shook your head and looked up at his face before answering, there was a glint of something in his eyes, but you couldn’t quite figure out what. “You are not too forward General, and I thank you for your kindness. It has indeed been a tiresome couple of days and I truly appreciate it. Will anyone else be riding with us?” you asked, trying to see if he would also have invited Zoya to come along. Before you could think about it further, he answered your question in a very nonchalant way. “No actually, it’ll only be the two of us if that’s alright with you Ms-“ You stopped him in his tracks, if you had to hear him call you Ms. Kirovsky for what felt like the hundredth time you’d surely scream. “Maria is fine general and there’s no problem at all.” You stated your piece and just as soon, the darkling propped his hand out for you to grab and once you did you walked together to the pitch black coach and he helped you in before getting in himself. The man was clearly a gentleman despite his reputation and it helped ease your mind about him being unpleasant. The two of you sat together in silence for a few minutes until the horses started up. You were off to Os Alta and the Journey wouldn’t be easy. Especially having to sit through it with him at such close proximity and not being able to let your guard down for a second. Of course wanting to jump his bones on sight didn’t exactly help either.

The ride went by fairly easy and you shared conversation back and forth, talking about what you or rather Maria had done while on leave and you told him everything you had read in her file about her time in Novo Kribirsk. The Darkling told you about some new developments of the war as well as mentioning the tragic loss of his Sun Summoner and most valued heartrender Ivan during the attack orchestrated by Zlatan. In that instance you recalled what your general had told you about the attack and how heartless and cold he came off as when he told you the details. You could only imagine and pity the poor girl who was murdered for greed, just like the one you were posing as now. By sunset you were exhausted of just sitting there, but luckily the Darkling informed you they would e stopping soon to hunt some dinner and stretch before trekking on to a nearby inn for the night. You quickly expressed your gratitude and he laughed a small laugh at your enthusiasm over getting out of the coach for a bit. In the midst of laughter between the two of you though, you noticed something. With the last rays of sunlight shining through the window and onto his perfect face you saw it. A small dark bruise, identical to yours and in the same exact spot you had placed it the night before in your so-called dream. The realization shook you to your core, but the expression of shock left your face as soon as it came and you smiled at the man in front of you as if nothing wrong was going through your head.

He had marks like you, but did that mean he was actually there. Did he see you too in those ultra realistic “dreams”? Or were you just going insane.

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Heyyy all, so I love how this chapter turned out and I hope you all love it as well. My posting schedule isn't really working out as I'd hoped, but I will try to get out chapters not too far apart. I'm starting a new semester of classes soon so my schedule will be a bit hectic, but I promise to update as soon as possible since I also work. Love you guys so much and thank you for your support. xoxo

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