I Feel Like Im Trying To Hold My Life Together Like A Bundle Of Yarn Falling Apart. Each Loose End Is

I feel like I’m trying to hold my life together like a bundle of yarn falling apart. Each loose end is another lie that makes me feel so guilty but that must be maintained just to keep existing in my paradise. And every time something unravels and takes me out of this paradise I really wanna end it

And the bathroom stall I’m in smells like his favorite cologne. I cant escape it. I miss him so much sometimes it hurts.

Woman, Eat Me Whole, Ama Asantewa Diaka

Jericho Brown, from Another Elegy (”This is what our dying looks like”)", The New Testament

— Tina Chang, from “Color.”