Im A Huge, Utterly Hopeless Romantic. A Bleeding Heart, For Sure. And Even Though I Absolutely Adore

I’m a huge, utterly hopeless romantic. A bleeding heart, for sure. And even though I absolutely adore the thought of a romantic relationship, at this point I’d be fully willing to have a platonic relationship w/ someone

And I can’t tell if it’s out of the sheer desperation to be loved and truly know I’m loved or the exhaustion of loving and receiving little in return.

I love way too easily, and realistically, a platonic relationship would surely spark romantic feelings in at least some respect.

But perhaps that wouldn’t be so bad? When you blur the lines between platonic and romantic, go without a label, purely guided by emotion, it sounds freeing, in a way. I’m not sure.

All I know is that my heart aches for someone I’ve not yet found. I have a lot of faults, but I have just as many virtues. Fingers crossed someone will see that some day ❤️🤞🏼

I forgot my chapstick at home and now my lips feel icky 😔

i really want to learn someone inside out again, someone new. i don’t think I could ever get what I want by going backwards and entertaining people who I have a history with. I am simply too exhausted for that.

i want a wholeee new experience. I don’t mind the “what’s your favorite color” stage because i truly want to know. like some people hate having to go through that part with another person, but i want to soo badly. I wanna know how her mind works, what she values, her relationship with her friends and family, how she spends her free time, what her ideal first date would be, what her dream career is, where she wants to settle down in the future, how many kids she wants and what she would name them, what languages she speaks, what her favorite song is and why, etc..

I want to be so fucking excited to learn everything about one person, and fall in love with it all. and i have not felt that way for a few months, and doubt i will for a couple more. anyway, thank you for reading, if you made it to the end. hopefully I can reblog this a year from now and let yall know I met the one. until then, I’ll continue to heal myself for my future girl 🖤

Y’know sometimes I just wanna say fuck it and wear those cute little faux fur cat ears I see people making on Instagram because they just look so soft and delicate and ugh

for an ig dtiys! they are sillay

On my way to take one of these rn 🫡

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