Fandom Is Focus. Fandom Is Obsession. Fandom Is Insatiable Consumption. Fandom Is Sitting For Hours In

Fandom is focus. Fandom is obsession. Fandom is insatiable consumption. Fandom is sitting for hours in front of a TV screen a movie screen a computer screen with a comic book a novel on your lap. Fandom is eyestrain and carpal tunnel syndrome and not enough exercise and staying up way, way past your bedtime. Fandom is people you don’t tell your mother you’re meeting. Fandom is people in the closet, people out and proud, people in costumes, people in T-shirts with slogans only fifty others would understand. Fandom is a loud dinner conversation scaring the waiter and every table nearby. Fandom is you in Germany and me in the US and him in Australia and her in Japan. Fandom is a sofabed in New York, a roadtrip to Oxnard, a friend behind a face in London. Fandom talks past timezones and accents and backgrounds. Fandom is conversation. Communication. Contact. Fandom is drama. Fandom is melodrama. Fandom is high school. Fandom is Snacky’s law and Godwin’s law and Murphy’s law. Fandom is smarter than you. Fandom is stupider than you. Fandom is five arguments over and over and over again. Fandom is the first time you’ve ever had them. Fandom is female. Fandom is male. Fandom lets female play at being male. Fandom bends gender, straight, gay, prude, promiscuous. Fandom is fantasy. Fandom doesn’t care about norms or taboos or boundaries. Fandom cares too much about norms and taboos and boundaries. Fandom is not real life. Fandom is closer than real life. Fandom knows what you’re really like in the bedroom. Fandom is how you would never, could never be in the bedroom. Fandom is shipping, never shipping, het, slash, gen, none of the above, more than the above. Fandom is love for characters you didn’t create. Fandom is recreating the characters you didn’t create. Fandom is appropriation, subversion, dissention. Fandom is adoration, extrapolation, imitation. Fandom is dissection, criticism, interpretation. Fandom is changing, experimenting, attempting. Fandom is creating. Fandom is drawing, painting, vidding: nine seasons in four minutes of love. Fandom is words, language, authoring. Fandom is essays, stories, betas, parodies, filks, zines, usenet posts, blog posts, message board posts, emails, chats, petitions, wank, concrit, feedback, recs. Fandom is writing for the first time since you were twelve. Fandom is finally calling yourself a writer. Fandom is signal and response. Fandom is a stranger moving you to tears, anger, laughter. Fandom is you moving a stranger to speak. Fandom is distraction. Fandom is endangering your job, your grades, your relationships, your bank account. Fandom gets no work done. Fandom is too much work. Fandom was/is just a phase. Fandom could never be just a phase. Fandom is where you found a friend, a sister, a kindred spirit. Fandom is where you found a talent, a love, a reason. Fandom is where you found yourself.

http://hesychasm.livejournal.com/187818.html

This makes me tear up every time. I love all my fandoms.

(via gointorosedale)

Who says RID don’t need these hot guys?

when youre listening to music that inspires you to draw deep/emotional art but you dont have the skills/art style for serious art 

I always will be.

You are now cursed to forever be your Halloween costume! How fucked are you?

Some Ways to Avoid An Art Depression

Ok folks, Maybe this will help one or two of you, who are too much into a depression.

It sounds silly for some, but respect that I write this for people who have some trouble. When you find grammar mistakes, then sorry, as a german it is not easy writing so much english text. 1. Don’t compare your art with the best out there. - A problem every artist has is that he compares himself in his development phase with artists who have their style or are big in the buisness. You cannot critisize yourself not being Picasso in the first day, guys. Do a fair and reasonable comparison. Accept that you are on a special niveau in your development and compare yourself with people on your niveau. That means you have to search and work your way trough art and how your art is compared. And there are hundred differences in the art world, so try to focus on the style you work in. 2. Self-critic is ok, but don’t make it into a selfdestructive one.

- Keeping yourself on the ground with self-critic is a noble thing. You avoid becoming arrogant and to stagnate in your art. But watch out that it does not become an obsession to hate your stuff. Allow yourself to be proud of a work. It is not bad to be a bit proud of something, also when it is could be made better. Nothing is 100% perfect and you can always make it better. But you can make it better, when you use your ‘experience’ in the next pic. 3. A drawing is just a drawing. You will produce a lot more. Accept that not every piece is a winner.

- No artist on earth did the perfect piece with his first pic ever. All followed a long development phase till they got to a point where they were really satisfied. So stop doing just ONE piece in a month and stop critizising it till you are depressed. Do 100 drawings in a month and there will be at least ONE pic you will like. Be proud of this one. Maybe in the next months you will do more good ones. 4. Ignore fame/popularity/money. The goal of art is not that. - Sure you need to get money to survive and some ‘fame’ is the key to that. But not one of the three things will make your art better or will make yourself happy about your art. And here we come to the next point: 5. Stop looking at other artist’s succsess in the media world. - They had ‘luck’ getting it or worked hard to get there. Will you be happy if you know it happened randomly or will you be proud when you worked yourself to succsess? And succsess does not mean being rich. It means making your ‘hobby’ or ‘love’ to a job. 6. Don’t use the Internet as an indicator how good your work is. - Internet is pretty much a wrong place to get proud or depressed about your art. Deviantart is no place to see how well you can make it in the world. And it will never tell you when you will enjoy doing your art. When fame and money IS your goal in life, then go with the mainstream. You will get quick to your money. 7. Sticking with your own style means that it will be hard getting it out there. Accept that. - Mainstream is not bad at all. But it is too easy adapting mainstream styles and getting into a job. So when you stand behind your own style, you must also face the truth, that it will be a harder way. You chose it, so deal with it. The world is unfair, so dont cry. 8. Hating other artists will not solve any probs. - You found an artist who got what you always wanted? Is it his fault that you are still in your development phase? I guess no. The ones in the industry faced the same probs like you have/had. Some had it easier and some harder. But both are not guilty for your unlucky position. Hating them, making their art down or anything else, will not bring you out of your misery. You will just fall deeper into your depression pit. Work yourself out. It will may not get you to succsess, but working on it is better than dioing nothing and crying. You can still cry when you did a respectable amount of work in your portfolio. 9. Doing art for others is nice and also good, but remember that art is there to satisfy you in the first place. - I stick with the idea that when you love/like your work people will automatically love it too. When you do a work that makes you happy, then you have succsess. Working direct to a special target group will be the wrong way. You would lie to yourself. You are your own target group. 10. Accept that you cannot satisfy everyone with your style. - A photograph will never entertain a cartoonist at the same point like a cartoonist can entertain his group. But try to make your photo as good as possible and be liberal to other styles and try to find the quality of it. Making fun of other styles is  a sign of insecurity or arrogance most the time. 11. Dont be a sell-out. Don’t lose your self-respect. - Your insercurity or greed to fame/money took over when you switch to a style that gets quick attention or when you draw pornographic themes. When you really care for art then you will get into an art depression really quick, when you realized what you have done. 12. Wating for the perfect drawing has never created the perfect drawing. - I met too many guys sitting on their couch and wishing one drawing in 2 months will bring them out of their hole and bring them to fame and popularity. All I say is… hope longer. You will get depressed afterwards when you realize that this ‘work ethic’ will bring you nowhere. You don’t get any attention with few pics and you will never become slightly better, when you improve your skills every 2 months one time. You have to work more on getting out of your rust, then developing your stuff. 13. Accept that what’s important to you is not automatically important for the next. - As an artist with the focus on lineart is my main attention in the linework of every picture I do/see. I don’t ignore perspective, layout, composition and colors at all. But they don’t impress me at first sight. But at the end when I discuss the quality of a picture with someone else, is his main goal the colors and he ignores the flaws in the linework, which I take more serious… What I wanna say is, don’t take your taste too serious and as the only thing that matters. You cannot control the taste of everyone. There is no reason to get depressed because someone has a different focus or taste. 14. You will not change anything in the art world. Accept that. - A main prob, nearly every artist has is that he thinks his art will change the scene or the industry or anything. In reality you will not do anything. And if, then only for a short time. Sure there are some who have a bigger affect than others, but don’t take it as your main goal. It does not happen by plan. At the end you just confuse popularity with a ‘real change’. It is not the same, dudes. 15. Critic is just critic. - I am not talking of internet trolls or bullies. I mean normal professional critic. When you ask for one, expect honest ones and don’t cry, when it does not fit to your wishful thinking. But also don’t take it too unserious or arrogant. Accept or try to find the truth behind the critic, instead of working 100% against it. Sure some critic does not understand what you try to archieve and critic hurts, but the challenge behind it makes you stronger. Asking your best friends and family will result in unhonest and nearly only positive comments, which have no core you can use to develop in your art. 16. Having no job in the industry does not mean your art sucks. - Explains itself. 17. There is always someone better than you. - Times come and times go. Artists come and go. Some start earlier, some late. You are not your whole life on the same niveau and one day you will vanish with your art. Sounds too buddhistic? Well it is. There is always someone better than you, no matter what you try. Accept it as a challenge you can use to develop. Are you pussies who escape a ‘fight’? 18. At the end it is shit nobody should care about… - Art is not the most important thing on earth. Family, friends and your own health are way more important than being the best artists in the world. Wrote this journal for my deviantart followers over a year ago. Hope this journal was helpful for some of you and sounded not too shallow or silly written. I know some of you disagree with some points, but I don’t want endless arguments about holes in my logic or points. See ya. greetz Dirk