If Only You Know What I Know
If only you know what i know
Sae itoshi x GN reader
Warnings: no fluff, angst
🍓as always i don't know much English so if something is wrong correct me 🍓

"let's stop this mess"
"what?." You're confused at sae's words
"i wanna end this relationship"
You're eyes are widen and you raise your head from his shoulder to look at him
"what do you mean, did i do something wrong, i didn't forget any important things?"
Sae stop you from talking and just walked to the bedroom
"sae please what's wrong? Please i don't wanna end this relationship you promise me that we'll always be together I love you-"
You're words was cut by sae
"sometimes love cant be promise, you think ive loved you?"
You became silent frozen while his there taking all his clothes his really leaving you
You didn't think of anything and just hug him
"please sae please.. dont leave.. i love you"
He shrugged you off him and drag his bag
You kissed him and he gave in but pushed you away
"please sae-"
"i cheated on you.."
"what"
Theres so many happening here you wanna ask everything
"you don't deserve me, i fucked another woman than you i slept with her and kisses he-"
Sae's words didn't continue when a hand slap on his face
"how could you do this to me?. Sae i loved you, we've been together for 5 years..5 fucking years and this is what i get for loving you.!?...you know what its better if you leave now"
Sae nodded and said goodbye but you didn't make any eye contact with him you're just waiting for him to get the hell out of your apartment

"you have cancer, and I'm afraid that.. that you're son wont survive in this case, there are warnings that you didn't notice in him, its either he kept on nose bleeding"
Sae washes his nose it kept on bleeding but he shrugged it and thought it was just because of heat
"or losing weight"
When he step on the scale the nurse said he lost 3kg before he lost 2kg he kept losing weight every check up
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He curse himself, he was panicking everything went on his mind but the one that was pinned is you, how are you gonna react to this
His been covering his hair with wigs because he didn't want you to see it
He quits soccer yet you didn't know he excused that its their break so he can spend more time with you before he say his final goodbyes
His good at hiding his weak legs
If he tells you this you will never move on, you will not stop until his better, he knows your stubborn that's why its better to make you cry now when his still alive than his dead body
You didn't know that was the last kissed
Only 7 days now..
He looked up and tears suddenly fell from his eyes
If only you know what i know
He smiled and left a note saying
I love you too..

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What do i write?
I write
. polyamorous relationship
. Smut but only for those who are higher than 18
. Male reader, Female reader, and Gender natural reader
. I can do yandere aswell
What do you not write?
. Uh i do not like the illegal ones like
Step cast x reader
Father x step daughter reader
I'm still thinking if I'm comfortable with the professor x student reader
. What kinks in smut do i not like?
First of all pee kink like wtf?
Spit kink
Vomiting kink/ at first i didn't know this things exist
No disgusting kinks i mean like this above
I'm gonna add more if someone request me something i like or hate
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I'll kiss it goodbye (fluff)
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HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII, can I request a poly sbg x fem gyaru reader who gets bullied by Barron and his friends? (Angst but a very fluffy ending) :3
I'm not sure if you want this romantic or platonic so I'm gonna write it both
So you can read this in a platonic or romantic way
Btw sorry i was busy doing loads of commissions and I'm so happy theres so many requests don't worry i will do all you're request ^^

Characters: Tyler, Ben, Aiden, Taylor, Ashlyn, logan
Warnings: mention of sexual harassment, bullying, death threaten, suicide, self-harm
✨as always i don't know much English so if something is wrong correct me✨




You met them when you went to that scary mansion and became friends they love your style so much
Taylor loves doing you're nails and you love doing hers and sometimes you paint all of your nails tyler said he hate it but still wears it
Ashlyn and Tyler is the one defending you she doesn't like you getting picked on because of your style
Aiden well let's say your both dork and do nothing but do shitty things that annoyed you're friends
Ben loves playing guitar while you sang songs and sometimes you do band with them
Logan helps you and everyone study
They don't mind you're style they just know they love you and that's all that matters
But then one of Barron's friend kept bothering you telling you how small you're skirt is, how sexy you are and other uncomfortable stuff you didn't tell them because once you do they will start another riot
And they kept telling you that you should die already and the gang would be happy if you no longer exists
And your starting to feel insecure about your style so you started to change a big and that caught everyone's attention on you like you're still wearing a make-up but there's something different
Then Barron spread a fake rumor that your friends hates you aswell you didn't believe them at first then he showed you a video recorder hearing they're voice's talk shit
"i really hate that woman's make up i mean its to many makeup"
"yea and te way she dress psh pass"
But little did you know they were talking about that one woman who attacked Taylor
But yet you didn't know you started to avoid them and come less in the school
Whener your in the realm you didn't care if you did die In there but the only thing that comes to your mind is run away and never see them again
"what happened to her i cant find her anywhere..?" Tyler said with a bit of concern in his voice
"I'm starting to worry even in the realm we cant see her" Ashlyn said
They tried to knock on your door but everytime they went there you're parents shrug it off and say your just sick and you need more time to rest
There's no windows or doors that are unlocked no curtains were up your house seems a like a dark cave now
Then one time they knock again now really getting worried they were ready to confront your parents no matter what happens they wanted to see you but when they're about to knock they heard a loud screech
Ben heard it and broke down the door your as they went to your room they can see both of you're parents holding you while your dad was lifting you and your mom holding a phone calling an ambulance
When they saw you chills ran down they're spine
You were pale and purple and Taylor saw the rope in the ceiling and a chair knocked out

They were all in the waiting room your mother was walking back and forth while your father calm her down
They were all sitting there dumb founded they just saw you lifeless body on the floor
Aidens smile was never seen
Ben kept fidgeting non stop
Taylor and tyler were holding hands trying to comfort each other
Logan wouldn't stop the sweat in his hands
Ashlyn who couldn't sit still
They all love you they cared now...
Then everyones parents came to check on their children and they asked what happened to you
Ashlyn was so curious what you're mom was saying so she didn't care if her ears hurt she wanna know what the hell happened to you
"and then she said she was getting death threath and she started to get sexual harass by some guy and we don't know what happened they started not to eat and we noticed there are big scars on her wrist we tried confronting her but its just getting worst... And then this guy who I've heard Barron.. he beat up my daughter whom he was a guy-."
"BARRON?!" You're mothers mouth went shot when Ashlyn stand uo and looked at your mom
Her eyes were full anger and hatered
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She explained what she heard from her mother
Aiden tried to calm Ben down but he couldn't sit still just like that all because of this because of Barron
Logan was flaming anger aswell he knew about how Barron's treats to him
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( i don't wanna add a fighting scene here sorry)
They spend most of the days by your side they were still happy they were talking to each other joking around but they cant help get more worried about you
Not until they all fell asleep and you were awake and saw Aidens rubix cube you also noticed your parents on the couch you smiled slightly then looked at them down on the floor
Once aiden woke up he saw you playing
"look... I can finally do it..its hard work though" you said weekly
Aiden couldn't care less about the rubix he held you so tightly making the rubix cube fall which landed on Tyler's head
"ow! What.. what the heck Aiden!..." He whispered yelled when he stand up he saw you hugging aiden and when you looked at him with a slight smile he couldn't stop the tear drops
"please please never do that again"
Once they all woke up you said sorry to them but confusion started going in your head didn't they hate you you asked them why did they said those things
Taylor said they were talking about that asshole and not you
You cried in the verge of tears
"but please if you're getting bullied or something don't hold back to tell us please we don't want to see you or be like this alright?" Logan's smoothing voice said then you heard a loud sound coming from Ben he typed
"I'm angry but i love you"
You smiled as you were all now in the growing hugging
When you're parents woke up they panicked when they didn't see you anywhere but stopped when you're father noticed you were all in the floor

Bonus:
They found you're body in one of the bus in the graveyard and they protected it while you're still unconscious

And that's it sorry if i haven't done one of your request but i promise i will
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minahal kita higit pa sa sarili ko, Diyos ko

Jean x reader
Warnings: angst
A/N: the title was from a Filipino song i heard and aaaaaa i dont understand the words much but its making me sad:')
🍓as always i don't know much English so if something is wrong correct me 🍓

"I understand.." the only thing you spilled in your mouth
Jean just stand there looking down at you, guilty
How dare he, you love him more than anything but he ended up caughting someone's eye's
You've been together for 20 years and this is how he pay you
"I'm sorry"..." I know"
"(name) i-" he stopped and close his mouth when your about to speak he talks again
"(name) i know what you're thinking, that i didn't loved you, (name) your the one and only-"
" until i wasn't?"
"please let me finish.." you stayed silent there
"your the one and only in my life but...i-i just don't know ok when you've been busy in your work i feel like you aren't there anymore"
Now full of anger how the hell did he that to you before he even speak again you slam your palm on the table between him and you
"because i WAS working hard jean while you..you. You were just there i tried everything jean I've been trying. Remember that anniversary night when i was late i had to beg my manager to let me off early so i can go out with you and that's why the other day i was there all night because i have to cut my schedule that day, see while you're there whoring with some woman who will fuck other guy!"
"enough!" Now his the one who slam the table
"just stop.."
"stop what? Telling the truth? Jean i gave you my whole life... Minahal kita higit pa sa sarili ko...Diyos ko ( I loved you more than myself...dear lord) "
He opened his mouth but no words escape
"you can fucking leave now jean, i dont care where you go, or you i don't care about you jean so leave now, you are not staying here after getting the dick with somebody else than your wife"
He watches as you let the ring fall off your finger and threw it on his face
"i dont care if you sell the shit, and I don't care how expensive that is.. tomorrow were getting a divorced paper"
He took the bags and his hat and nodded at you
" goodbye ( name)"
he gave you a sad smile. But you gave him a bitter frown
"goodbye jean"

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I'm learning Tagalog and I really wanna listen to Ben&Ben songs!
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