Just Landed

just landed

This is my favorite part of my day 🍃

Laying in bed, listening to my music while playing on my silly little apps. 👾

Radiating gratitude for everything the day brought me. 🫧

And praying to God that all my dreams come true.🐚

ziggysigningoff

Destined to be alone?

How can I be sure, That I'm not too hard to love... That if I get close to someone they won't bail when they find out I'm neurotic. I mean it's not my fault I'm like this, Two "Narcissist" for Parents is just One Too Many! I put the word in perencices so I don't feel Guilty for calling them that even though its exactly what they are. So now I'm Burnt out. I am 22 years old and burnt out from raising my sister and burnt out from raising myself. But most of all, I'm burnt out from raising them. But... I can't say that Without the overwhelming sense of guilt that I am being ungrateful. At least not outloud, at least not without convincing myself that I'm being over dramatic. It is so... overplayed at this point, I get so frustrated with myself for not just letting it go. But since they left me so uncared for I feel, Unloved. To put it plain and simply. I never got so much as a thank you. "Thank you for raising your sister while I provided for us". We could have easily been a team, but she sees me as her enemy. They both do now that I think about it. So ya loving other people is tuff. But at least solitude is mind numbing enough that I have learned to not give a fuck🪐💕🍃

I love to start fires

Would you rather have a house by the ocean or up in the mountains?

definitely the ocean, I would love to wake up to the sound of that everyday🐚🌊🪼

Not Quite Midnight

Today was a great day. I Love the kid I babysit, and the weather keeps getting warmer each day. I spent the evening with my sister, I made us tacos, then took her too the bakery to get something sweet!🍭🍨

I hope you have a wonderful weekend!🥭💞🌀

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