Destined To Be Alone? - Tumblr Posts

Destined to be alone?

How can I be sure, That I'm not too hard to love... That if I get close to someone they won't bail when they find out I'm neurotic. I mean it's not my fault I'm like this, Two "Narcissist" for Parents is just One Too Many! I put the word in perencices so I don't feel Guilty for calling them that even though its exactly what they are. So now I'm Burnt out. I am 22 years old and burnt out from raising my sister and burnt out from raising myself. But most of all, I'm burnt out from raising them. But... I can't say that Without the overwhelming sense of guilt that I am being ungrateful. At least not outloud, at least not without convincing myself that I'm being over dramatic. It is so... overplayed at this point, I get so frustrated with myself for not just letting it go. But since they left me so uncared for I feel, Unloved. To put it plain and simply. I never got so much as a thank you. "Thank you for raising your sister while I provided for us". We could have easily been a team, but she sees me as her enemy. They both do now that I think about it. So ya loving other people is tuff. But at least solitude is mind numbing enough that I have learned to not give a fuck🪐💕🍃