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hello beautiful people!

i really wish i wasn't writing this. honestly it's been a long time coming and i wish this post would be more positive. but unfortunately, i've come to the decision to leave this blog :(

over the past couple of my months, i've been dealing with heavy bouts of insecurity and self esteem issues. both in my writing and in real life as well. in the first place, i've always been insecure with my writing, and it's just come to the point that i don't particularly like the fics that i've published in this blog anymore.

also, in the spirit of transparency, i would admit that the lack of feedback and interaction in this blog has been getting to me lately. and this isn't to preach to silent readers since admittedly, i'm usually a silent reader myself and i've always believed that readers don't strictly owe writers a specific form of feedback that they aren't comfortable/motivated to give. but in my particular case, while i'm not gonna hound for feedback for my works, i guess the general lack of it just fed my insecurity even more. so please, don't take this to mean that i'm blaming anyone. if anything, i'd say this is a personal issue of mine and one i'm currently working on.

and to add to that, my personal issues in real life have also been adding to my insecurity. it's tough having to feel inadequate in all that i do, and this is also something that i really need to work on as well.

this is not to say that i've lost passion for bts and for writing fics. if anything, my love for these 2 things are still at an all time high. i guess what i really want, tumblr-wise, is a fresh start.

i'm not gonna deactivate this blog. i'm thinking of just cleaning it up and leaving it as an archive (or rkive, if you will). i'll be deleting some works that i'm not comfortable putting out in the open anymore (but to potential plagiarists, this doesn't mean my deleted works are free game!!!) but i'll also be leaving up some works that i'm fine with (most notably, mother knows best).

i'm not gonna be completely gone from tumblr tho! i love this odd site too much to ever completely leave it. in fact, i'm already starting fresh in another new blog, but i'm not gonna openly share its url bc then my "fresh start" would mean nothing lmao. but i'm still gonna be lurking here from time to time, mainly just to reminisce and stuff. and if i ever find the creativity and motivation to expand the mother knows best au (or other aus i'm leaving up here), i'll definitely be posting that here instead of in the new blog.

thank you all so much for your support this past year! i know i haven't been here long but i've had a blast creating all these worlds with yall. i love you guys so much and i wish you all the best! :) <3