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the-aviary-system
11 months ago

some people don't get introjects

the comic is 25 images. each image includes a plain off-white background, captioned text, and a correlating drawing. the text in the first image reads, "sometimes, to us, it feels like people don't really get introjects. like they don't get what it means for us to be introjects." [end text.] there is a disclaimer at the bottom, written in italicized, parenthesized text that reads, "uh this post is kind of about traumagenic systems so, respectfully don't come for me about the descriptions i might use." [end text.] the drawing is of a tall, dinosaur-esque monster with purple skin and long, fluffy, dark purple hair. she has bright yellow eyes and is wearing a white t-shirt, black jeans, and a large dark green jacket. she is smiling nervously, and there is text beside her, with an arrow pointing to her. the text reads, "me. i'm so cool. i'm an introject and my names susie." [end text.] she is an introject of susie from Toby Fox's game, "DELTARUNE". [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "all alters are going to be based off of [italicized,] something [end italicization]. something that was at one point perceived by the body. little situations, minor traits from people you've met, things like that are going to combine with a ton of other little sources to create an alter. can't make somethin' outta nothin', y'know? it'd usually be minor things, like so minor that it's kind of unnoticeable and impossible to track the sources of". [end text.] the drawing shows several subjects: a sun in the top left corner, a person smiling and waving in the bottom left, and a city on the bottom right, with groups of clouds hovering over it. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "introjects just happen to take most of these things from one source, and that's not even 100% of the time. hell, i doubt it's even the majority." [end text.] the drawing shows susie grinning at the viewer, with one hand raised, pointing outwards. there is a text bubble in which she says, "why make your brain come up with its own stuff when you can just steal someone elses ideas? (joking)" [end text.] [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "there's introjects who take like [italicized] everything [end italicization] after their source, but there's also introjects who take very little from it, or somewhere in-between. sometimes we're based off of the system's interpretation of the source and not the canon source itself. there's even introjects who take things from several main sources, not just one." [end text.] the drawing shows two subjects. one depicts an introject of Error!Sans, an "UNDERTALE" fan-character created by CrayonQueen. he is a black-colored skeleton with red-and-yellow eyes. there are blue lines extending from his eye sockets to his jaw. he is wearing a red t-shirt, a blue scarf, and a black jacket with yellow and blue accents. he has an annoyed expression and is flipping off something unspecified. the second depicts an introject of Charlotte Emily from horror franchise "Five Nights at Freddy's." she is a young girl with long, black hair. she has green eyes and two thick, purple lines extending from her eyes to her jaw. she is wearing a large jacket with a furred collar. she is holding a plushie of the character "Shadow Freddy" and is sticking her tongue out. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "in our experience, even our non-introjects sometimes show hints or signs of a larger source that might've influenced things about them. just not enough for them to ever actually identify with it. and, like, just like alters who aren't introjects, we'll also be made up of a lot of those little sources from before, alongside our main sources. they might not be as [italicized] obvious [end italicization], but they're usually not [italicized] obvious [end italicization] for non-introjects, either." [end text.] the drawing shows two subjects, standing beside but facing away from each other. one depicts the character "Nightmare Moon" from TV show "My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic". she is a black pegasus with a unicorn horn. her mane and tail are a flowy, starry blue, reminiscent of a night sky. she wears a blue chestplate, helmet, and boots, with moon symbols displayed on them. she has a battle-esque stance and is grinning. the second is black fox, with patterns reminiscent of a silver fox. she has black-and-red eyes and is wearing a purple chestplate with a moon symbol on it. there is a blanket-like cloak over her back; it is purple with moons and stars on it. there is an arrow gesturing from Nightmare Moon to the fox. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "pretty sure all these things are why you'll meet introjects who have different appearances, pronouns, personalities, literally anything compared to their source. [parenthesized] people can also just grow and change but. you get it. [end parentheses]" [end text.] the drawing shows susie, grinning with a thumbs-up. beside her is a pixel drawing of her source character. the render is picked straight out of the game. there is text above the render that reads, "she/her ??" [end text.] with an arrow pointing to it. there is text above susie that reads, "she/they/it/he" [end text.] with fire emojis and an arrow pointing to her. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "being considered an introject doesn't magically make you not-an-alter or different from non-introjects. we're all alters who are based off of things perceived by the body, at varying amounts. all things your brain might've found comfort or use in, that kind of stuff". [end text.] the drawing depicts two frames referencing comedian Eric Andre's sketch in which he screams, "let me in!" outside of a gate wall. the drawing shows susie in place of him. the gate wall is labeled, "alter privileges," with susie reaching for it in one frame, exclaiming, "let me in!!". in the next frame, it is a more close-up shot of her face as she yells, "[capitalized] LET ME IN!!" again. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "i'm just trying to stress how 'fluid' this whole process can be, and how the process of splitting introjects is practically the same as alters who aren't." [end text.] the drawing depicts two subjects standing beside one another. on the left is a humanoid with dark-tan skin and fluffy brown hair. he has black-and-green eyes and a scarred face. he has tan horns, black wings, and black fox ears. he is wearing a black sweater with a plague-doctor-esque collar. he is frowning and fiddling with his hands. on the right depicts an introject of Octavia from web series, "Helluva Boss". she is a tall, anthropomorphic owl with pink eyes and long, side-swept black hair. she has a black beanie with a yellow crown on it, and is wearing a grey t-shirt with a black distressed sweater. she is hugging herself anxiously. there is text between the two subjects that reads, "spot the difference, [parenthesized] impossible [end parentheses]. (half joking)" [end text.] [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "pseudomemories, or 'source memories', as they're sometimes called, are fake memories created by the brain to go with an alter. as an introject, your pseudomemories, if any, may be directly influenced from your source/sources. memories from a 'life before the system', sort of thing. though often not talked about... non-introjects can, of course, have pseudomemories too." [end text.] the drawing shows susie, looking down and smiling with her eyes closed. there is a thought bubble to her left which displays her sitting at a desk with another character, "Kris", from her source. they have yellowish skin, mid-length dark brown hair, and a green-and-yellow striped sweater. susie is playfully punching them. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "sometimes it feels like people treat it like an introject-exclusive thing. it's weird, like, hell, our non-introject alters have more in-depth pseudomemories than most of us introjects." [end text.] the drawing shows two books beside one another. the book on the left is very thin, and is titled, "my pseudomemories". the book on the right is comically thick, and is titled, "this other dude in my system's pseudomemories. [parenthesized] he's not an introject [end parentheses]". [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "prettyyy sure that the memories tnd to relate to the system's trauma or experiences in some way, and, well, that happens for introjects' pseudomemories, too. i won't get too into the sensitive bits. but, just because we have sources our memories might be influenced from, doesn't mean that system memories won't potentially sprinkle in or warp them." [end text.] the drawing is reused from the comic's first image. it shows susie grinning nervously. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "and, chances are we're not going to be able to know everything about our source. so our brains fill in a lot of the gaps with its own junk. like, i have pseudomemories of playing game with my in-source sister. games [italicized] our system/body [end italicization] used to play with [italicized] our brother [end italicization]. if that gives you any idea". [end text.] the drawing shows susie looking down at a younger girl. susie is holding a console controller, smiling mischievously. there is a speech bubble in which she says, "you wanna play black ops II zombies??". the younger girl bears a resemblance to susie's species, however she has ears reminiscent of an elk or horse. she has purplish-pink skin, and freckles. she has strawberry-blonde hair in a loose ponytail, yellow eyes, and is wearing a red sweater. she is smiling up at susie with her fists clenched excitedly. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "but, onto my main point... the way people treat introject alters vs non-introjects... confuses me. it feels like people forget that introject is just a label [capitalized] FOR [end capitalization] an alter. like people treat them as two completely separate categories sometimes. people either view us introjects as one of two ways:" [end text.] the drawing shows a person with both arms raised, each with a label floating above it. one label reads, "introjects", while the other reads, "alters". they are looking at each of them in confusion. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "the first one: not an alter whatsoever. just a character or person who was magically placed inside one's head. we aren't treated like individuals at all. some people address us as if they [italicized] know [end italicization] us and only view us as that source come to life, or just a persona we're playing as." [end text.] the drawing shows susie engaging in conversation with a person. the person is excitedly looking at her, and through a speech bubble they say, "omg i loved you in deltarune!". susie is glancing off to the other side, one hand placed behind her neck nervously. she is smiling as she replies, "thanks", but above her, her thoughts read, "i'm a person..." [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "going off of that, there's also some people who only like introjects when they fit their idea of their source. so when an introject doesn't act like or remember things the way someone might expect, suddenly it isn't worth getting to know them?" [end text.] the drawing shows two subjects engaging in conversation. on the left is a person with their hands tucked against their chest. they excitedly ask, "what were hoodie and masky like??". on the right depicts an introject of Jeff the Killer from "Creepypasta". he has off-white bluish skin with long, black hair. he is wearing a white hoodie, and has cuts along his face. he is holding a cup of a hot beverage and innocently responds, "who?" [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "because of this, our introjects have felt embarrassed to even say where we're from. those of us who have 'cringey' sources feel pressured to change things about ourselves just to feel more respected. often it feels like we're blamed for having these sources." [end text.] the drawing depicts an introject of Hollyleaf from book series, "Warriors". she is a black cat with green eyes. there is a holly plant decoration placed behind her ear. she is frowning as she says, "my name is hollyleaf. but i think it's stupid and annoying when people won't take me seriously due to my source. so i just go by holly to distance myself from it." [end text.] [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "it 100% makes us feel like we have to [italicized] earn [end italicization] the respect and the, 'you're a real person, i'll now give you the time of day!' card from others, even people we're close to. it makes us want to just keep ourselves completely private from everyone outside of our system." [end text.] the drawing shows a phone screen displaying a layout reminiscent of the app "Simply Plural". it reads, "privacy settings. visibility, currently: private. make public?" [end text.] along with a "yes" and "no" button. there is a shaky hand reaching for the phone, hesitating on what to push. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "the second way we're viewed: we're seen as alters, but so much so that people believe we need to [italicized] completely [end italicization] separate and not associate with our source at all. like the identities, personalities, pseudomemories, whatever of non-introjects are accepted and okay, but introjects are sometimes expected to just throw all that away to 'be a new person'?" [end text.] the drawing shows a person pointing at susie. they are frowning as they ask, "why haven't you changed your name yet?" susie is frowning back at them, surprised with wide eyes. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "'source separation' gets thrown around a lot, but everyone seems to have differing opinions on what it means. we've always seen it as the ability to recognize and accept that you are a separate being from your source, no matter how similar you may be." [end text.] the drawing shows susie looking into a mirror, her hand rested on her chin in a thinking manner. beside the mirror is a picture of her source's in-game render pinned to the wall. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "you can still be you and have all the traits and/or pseudomemories that you do, co-existing alongside your source without feeling that you [capitalized] ARE [end capitalization] the only it. you're able to hear criticisms of your source without feeling offended or hurt. you're able to be okay with 'doubles'. [parenthesized and italicized] something even i'm still working on. hey, it's a process. [end parentheses and italicization]" [end text.] the drawing retains the scene of susie and the mirror. she has now stepped forward and has grabbed ahold of the picture pinned to the wall. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "but we do believe it's healthy to source-separate in this way. it's just because we feel it's unhealthy to not see yourself as your own person with your own autonomy. it's that kinda junk that allows us to grow as people and discover new things about ourselves. if we're just forcing ourselves to only ever be our source, well, that's no way to live. trust me, we've been there." [end text.] the drawing retains the scene of susie and the mirror. she has now stepped back again, and the picture has been removed. she is looking into her reflection with satisfaction, her hands on her hips. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "and for those of us in our system who have pseudomemories... well, we'd never claim to have actually experienced them, but they still affect us, especially the ones that are heavier or more negative. things we can't really just force away or make disappear, even if we wanted to." [end text]. the drawing shows a mostly obscured person in the bottom left corner. all that is visible is their hand, which is pointing accusingly at another subject. the other subject depicts an introject of Dabi from manga and anime "My Hero Academia." he has light skin with dark, purplish patches of burn scars along his arms, neck, lower face, and beneath his eyes. he has short, ruffled black hair, and blue eyes. he is wearing a white shirt with a black jacket with golden armbands. he is frowning and looking at the hand with annoyance. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "as far as the whole 'change yourself' thing goes, i feel like changing your name or appearance and stuff should be a personal decision [italicized] you [end italicization] want to make. that's all i'm really trying to say, that and i don't believe those specific things should be required to be source-separated. like... i'm susie, based off of susie from deltarune. but i'm not [italicized] susie from deltarune [end italicization]." [end text.] the drawing is reused from previously, where a person is pointing at susie and frowning, with susie looking surprised. only now, the text in the person's speech bubble has been removed. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "it sucks because it feels like we're being pushed-and-pulled between two standards. i just want to live, man! some people only respect us if we're nothing like our sources, and other people only respect us if we're exactly like our sources. other people won't respect us at all. where's the grey area? what do you want, society?!?!" [end text.] the drawing shows susie standing wide-eyed and frowning, facing the reader. there is a person on each side of her. the person on the left is hugging her arm, arguing sadly. the person on the right is tightly holding susie's wrists, arguing back angrily. [end ID.]
the text in the next image reads, "welp that's the end of my yap session. TLDR i just wish people would remember that we introjects are alters. we aren't special and i don't think we should have special treatment. we're just... ourselves? just like non-introjects. we exist and are the way we are for the system's survival in some way. just like non-introjects. we are just like non-introjects." [end text.] the drawing is reused from the start of the comic, and shows susie grinning nervously. [end ID.]
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amazing work as usual! as an introject heavy system I want to reblog this so I will!
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that-salmonberry-punk
1 year ago
that-salmonberry-punk - The Most Okayest Salmon
Here Is My First Draft Of TBB Echo For The Clones In Suits Series! UwU Precious Boi Deserves An All-out

Here is my first draft of TBB Echo for the Clones in Suits series! UwU precious boi deserves an all-out smile for everything that he is 🥰 <33 Tysm for waiting, hell week at work is over so I'm back on track for this series 🥳 :3

Outfit is subject to change on final output.

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*For a look at the finished portraits so far, see this post here UwU

**If you'd like to be added to the taglist, feel free to let me know in the comments and I'll add you. Thanks! 😘 <33

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*eats your art* yummy amazing work as usual! clones in suits echo my beloved
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