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“C’mon, it’s gonna be okay.” [ for nancy from steve ]
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but it’s really not, is it ? things weren’t supposed to go like this. nancy had her entire life figured out. she was supposed to go to emerson; she was supposed to get the fuck out of this town and make something of herself. she’d already had to let go of her early admission at emerson; she couldn’t just leave hawkins, could she ? sure, she could attend later, but it still left a bittersweet taste in her mouth. and as if all of that wasn’t hard enough to deal with…now this.
he’s too calm about this. he should be freaking out. yell at her. something. but he won’t. and he doesn’t. and nancy wishes none of this was happening right now.
her hand presses to her stomach, and she refuses to look steve in the eye. maybe she could’ve dealt with this better in the future if she had her life together, but right now ? she isn’t dealing with it at all. a part of her thinks that she shouldn’t have said anything at all; dealt with it…discreetly, and steve would’ve never had to know. but then a wave of guilt hits her at the thought and she hates the conflicting feelings she has about it all.
“ how is it gonna be okay, steve ? ” she asks, with maybe a little too much bite to her words. “ i feel like my life is falling apart and i’ll never have it together. and this, ” she pulls her hand away from her stomach, “ isn’t helping. ”
nancy hadn’t been opposed to having a family of her own one day, but not yet, and certainly not any time soon. she didn’t want to be trapped before she had a chance to be able to do something with her life, first.