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I wish we had more time

Baji keisuke x Chifuyu Matsuno angst

A/N: Sucidal thoughts, spoiler warner and Sucide

Wc: 1.2k And thank you @/notmiintee in TikTok! For inspiration

Inspired by: Mr lover man and line without a hook<3 credits to @ambrodias for the song suggestion

Just why…?

Why did this happen?

I wished I stopped him.

I LOVE HIM!

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS

Chifuyu hated what happened, he can't move on. He wanted to kill himself for not stopping him. He loved him. Chifuyu refused that he died.

Why can't he have something good for once?

Chifuyu's pov:

I looked at my window again not expecting a lovely couple walking pass my house. I don't know what came over me but tears fell down my cheeks. I held my cheek looking away, I wish Baji was here..

Why didn't I stop him?

Why didn't I help him..

Why didn't I call the ambulance!?

Narrative pov:

Chifuyu hits himself crying in remembering Baji's dying body on his hold. He wished that Baji lived and is with him, holding hands, and hugging eachother. He wished he Baji was alive but can't. He's dead.

Chifuyu heared a knock on his door making him wipe his tears away and walked to it, opening the door. Someone who he least wanted to meet.

His mother.

She was in tears and when Chifuyu opened the door she slapped him. "If you were a true friend you would have helped Baji!" She yelled at him and slapping him over and over again as she calmed down. "I'm so sorry…" Chifuyu started to cry yet again and closed the door ignoring the yells of the woman.

He wanted to be alone but wanted comfort. Chifuyu slid down the door sitting on the floor, the yelling of Baji's Mom left. Chifuyu grabbing his phone opening it calling his friend, Takimichy. As he accepts the call Chifuyu cried yet again.

"Chifuyu…"

"Why wasn't it me that died?"

"WHY?!"

"he deserves to live.."

"WHY DIDN'T I HELP?!"

"Chifuyu calm down!"

Chifuyu ended the call expecting comfort but wasn't met with his expectations. He needed someone, someone who will comfort them. As that someone died in his arms.

Chifuyu looked out the window yet again to see its midnight, he stared at nothing as he sighed and stood up walking to his room. He entered the room and was immediately met with a mirror when he turns his head. Chifuyu had red circles below his eyes, nose being red from crying and dried up cries on his cheeks. He scoffed.

"If only Baji was here he would scold me"

He chuckled then it soon died down remembering his not here with him anymore. He sighed and layed on his bed, it started.

You don't deserve him

You let him die

You didn't care

If only you stopped him

If only..

If you…

Chifuyu's mind exploded and filled with negative thoughts. If only he was stronger..

He turned around to see an empty slot on his bed, it was reserved for Baj since he usually sneaks out of his house to cuddle with Chifuyu. Chifuyu grips on the sheets and remembers the painful memory. Tears fell down yet again, Chifuyu can't count on how many times he cried since his death.

He wanted to take a nap peacefully but his mind had different plans. He went off his bed and looked at the frames on his bedside tables. One being them together hugging and sharing Yakisoba and one with Baji smiling widely. His heart melted at the memories but he was in pain, he grabbing the frame and faced it down. He did the same to the other and walked out of his room. He walked to his kitchen wanted to drink water but in his fridge is a left over Yakisoba. His and Baji's favorite food. It pained him to see this so he quickly grabbed the water bottle and closed the fridge.

He sat on a chair in his dinner table, he looked around seeing so much memories were made in the room. He smiled forgetting he died, he spaced out remembering and cherishing the memories fills his head. He didn't want to stop, a call interrupted him. He looked around and sighed wishing the memories continue but can't. He looked at the caller id to see that it's Mikey, his leader. He sighed and answer it.

After a while of talking and forgiveness he ended the call, he threw his head back and sighed. Chifuyu looked out of his window from the kitchen to see the sun setting.

Little did he knew..

Baji was there..

Dead but could see what his "friend" was doing..

"Chifuyu… the sunseting looks beautiful isn't it?"

Baji went beside Chifuyu and placed his head on his shoulder.

Chifuyu's eyes widen when he felt something lean on his shoulder. Chifuyu sighed and sniffles came out of him trying to stop crying again. He wished Baji was beside him, comforting him but he isn't.

Chifuyu stood up from the chair and walked to his room. On the way Chifuyu's head lighten and collapses in the ground. He can't breath, can't talk, can't reach for something. He slowly closed his eyes.

"Chifuyu!"

"CHIFUYU!"

Chifuyu woke up, eyes blinking softly. He looked where the sound came from and it's Mikey and Takimichy. One calm and one panicking, Chifuyu smiled softly looking at the two.

Atleast…

If…..

If they are happy I must be happy for them too.

Right..?

It's been months, Chifuyu haven't moved on from Baji's death. Emma died, and Draken died. He cried to himself and wanted to kill himself from the endless pain.

Endless pain..

Chifuyu's mind filled with negative thoughts..

He wished he never lived.

He loves Baji but can't seem to move on.

Even by the countless set ups the gang setted up for him.

He wished to die.

Baji was watching over him, he cried and cried hearing Chifuyu's thoughts. Even had a break down hearing him want to die so he and Baji can live together.

Chifuyu got up from his bed, dressed himself up and looked at the mirror. His room was messy, eye bags in his eyes, water bottles were around the room. He wanted to give up.

So..

He gave up.

He wrote a note and placed it on the fridge, he looked at the sink and grabbing the knife..

Oh why did this have to happen..?

Chifuyu looked at the knife.

The clean knife now a bloody one.

Dear Toman, everyone.

I love you guys so much but I can't bare the endless pain and suffring I have been feeling since Baji's death. I simply can't move on, I know it takes time but it hurts. It hurts to live without him. He's my other life. I feel empty without him.

I love him dearly, I love everyone but.. my time has end.

Kazutora, I hope you grow an adorable pet shop.

Mikey, you have my praise for making a new era of deliquents.

Mitsuya, your born to be a fashion designer, don't stop doing what you love.

The annoying twins, I wished I was your first customer in your ramen shop in the future.

Hakkai, don't be scared of talking to girls ok? :)

Peh yan/pah chin, you guys are best bros and I envy that. I hope you guys are still friends since both of you are like a golden duo.

Shall we meet in another life?

-you former friend Chifuyu Matsuno.

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