Because Oh Im A Teenager - Tumblr Posts

Growing up is realising how much you missed out on in childhood because you were wishing to be an adult. Dressing up in more adult clothes just to look older instead of wearing the genuinely nice cute kiddy clothes you'd get made fun of for wearing when you're older. Ruining friendships because you're trying to become a different version of yourself like all the cool teenagers you see in films. Not enjoying basic childhood things just because it makes you look like..... a child.

I think we forget how much of an impact media in general has on kids. I went from being a really sweet child full of joy to now a depressed almost-adult because I lost my childhood to a dream I never achieved, one that I had literally zero control over because I would have to fundamentally change myself and who I am to achieve it. I have spent so many years just hating myself because who I am didn't make me like the cool teens in the movies. I've lost and changed friendships to become like them. I've changed myself so much I've returned essentially to who I was before: a lost 10 year old who is never good enough for myself.

I know that so much will still change, I'm not even an adult yet, I can't fully comment on this, but to think that I have essentially lost about 10 years of my childhood and my happiness to hating myself because I'm not how the media portrays teens to be. Childhood is precious and should be cherished, but instead society pushes us to constantly think about the future and want to change ourselves to fit the formula. My childhood isn't even technically over, but it feels as though it ended when I was 9.