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Becoming You(Mika-The Boss[DGNA])

~We can do it in love again. We can do it in love again. I wanna give you love again~

"Because I need you to look at me when I tell you what I need to. I want you to see that I'm telling you nothing but the truth." You stayed silent, watching as the tears fell down his cheeks and noticed that he didn't wipe them away. It was like he wanted you to see him cry, because you knew that this meant he was opening up and letting you see what he was really feeling. "Can we sit down and talk, please."

You looked away and chewed your bottom lip. "Y/s/n will be over here soon, I don't think I have ti-." [y/s/n: your sibling's name]

"Y/n, please." He grabbed your hands and you went still, not daring to move. "Just give me some time to explain, please."

You sighed and nodded your agreement, heading to the living room to sit on the couch. Suhoon sat beside you and hissed quietly as he bent his knees, making you look at his knees and remembering that he was bleeding. "Did you fall?"

He looked over at you and opened his mouth, but apparently was too embarrassed to say anything so he just sat there looking like a fish. You smiled slightly at the face he was making, then got up and headed into the bathroom where you kept the first aid kit. He was touching the heel of his palm where he had a deep looking gash, and kept hissing in pain but continued to touch it. I guess some things never change, you sighed and shook your head.

~Meeting someone else and starting another love, I'm afraid that I will become used to it all again. All the things I couldn't say and all the promises I didn't keep, I remember them. They keep me from falling asleep~

"If you don't stop playing with it, it'll get worse. Let me see your hands first, and I'll look at your knees after." You told him as you sat on the coffee table in front of him and pulled his hand onto your leg. "You can talk as I bandage you up, okay?"

You saw him looking at you out of the corner of your eye and saw him smile. "Okay, so what all did you hear?"

You didn't look at him, instead finished putting the medicine on the wound and bandaging it. "I heard you saw you were fine with breaking up, that it wasn't that big of a deal."

He sighed and cast his eyes down before answering you. "I did say that, and I was talking about you but it wasn't like how you think it was. The manager had called me and asked me if I had seen what was happening, which confused me until I looked online and saw that there was a lot of rumors going around about us. Not about our relationship really, people were saying stuff that would affect not just me but you."

~And every day I think of you and every time all I need is you. I live, carrying all the beautiful memories with you~

He watched your reaction and waited to see some sort of reaction from you, which all you could do was look up at him in confusion. "What? What do you mean stuff that would affect me?"

"Exactly what I said. Somebody had started a rumor with nothing but lies and all those lies had spread and it was starting to affect you negatively."

You sat there, forgetting about the hand in your lap that needed patching up, and thought about what he said. You had noticed the couple of days before everything happened between you two that you were getting hate messages on your instagram and twitter, but you didn't think to link these two together. "So, you decided to dump me?"

"No, me and my manager decided that the best thing for you would be to make the public think that we had broken up. I wasn't expecting you to be listening to us, I definitely didn't mean what I said that way."

"Wait a minute, you're telling me that you and your manager wanted the public to think we weren't together because of a rumor?"

He shook his head and sighed as he held my arms. "It wasn't just a rumor, I had noticed that you were getting more hate and no matter how many times I asked them to stop they didn't. You think that I never noticed that you would wipe tears away every time you read those messages? Or that you would silently cry yourself to sleep? You never told me about the hate and thought that you could handle it, right?"

~And every day I think about you and every time to time I need you. I love you for restarting my life that was stopped~

You stayed silent and watched as he smiled at you, "I'm sorry I didn't say anything about it before. Maybe if I had we wouldn't have had that accident. Y/n, you need to know that I never intended on breaking up with you. Never in a million years would I dream of being apart from you, let alone break up with you."

He pulled on your arms and onto his lap, wrapping his arms around your frame and laying his head against your shoulder. "I'm so sorry, I didn't want to make you cry. I hate knowing that I made you cry, and knowing that I caused you pain killed me. I was scared to come here, but I ran here knowing that you needed to know the truth. I don't care about rumors anymore. I love you and I'm not going to stop loving you, even if you tell me you never want to forgive me I will always love you y/n."

~And every day I think of you and every time all I need is you. Embrace me, for I am dyed by you each and every day. And every day I think of you and every time all I need is you. I want to go back and hold onto you and say~

You smiled and leaned back, cupping his face in your hands. "I hurt so much when I heard what you said. I didn't want to believe it, and I'm sorry I didn't hear you out sooner but I thought you hated me. Knowing the truth now though, I think that I had already forgiven you to be honest. Suhoon, I love you too much to let this be the end of us."

He wiped a stray tear of yours away and smiled brightly at you. "I'll never do this again, I promise. Promise we'll stay together forever?"

"I promise," you felt your chest lighten and wiped his cheeks as tears of joy flowed down them. Whispering his apologies and how much he loved you in your ear, you layed your head against his and closed your eyes. I'm glad, you thought, I'm so glad.

~And every day I think about you and every time to time I need you. I love you for restarting my life that was stopped. Love you I love you. I can do it in love and find you anywhere~