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"stop walking in circles y/n, jun begged, i’m feeling giddy."

sat on the sofa in order to put his shoes on, jun was looking at you wandering into your shared apartment since at least twenty minutes.

"i mean, i’m always giddy around you but still, you’ll make a hole into the parquet."

finally looking at your boyfriend, you asked, feeling uneasy :

"but what if she doesn’t like me?"

frowning at your question, the young man mumbled, caught off guard :

"why do you think that? of course she’ll like you."

softly forcing you to stop your tracks, jun grabbed your chin to meet your gaze. your bottom lip nervously shaking, you acquiesced :

"yes, i’m scared she thinks i’m not a good girlfriend for you."

jun’s heart broke at your words, only realising now how worried you were. while he grabbed you hands to force you to sit next to him, you carried on :

"what if they think i don’t deserve you? what if she finds that i’m too much of a picky eater? and that i’m not interesting enough? and your step father? what if he think i’m stupid? and your brother? what if he thinks his present is lame? i’m just an outsider, maybe this was too early for me to come with you at such a family event like chrismas. i don’t want to be a burden."

jun received your flood of questions with full force, becoming fully aware of the fact that you were actually way more anxious by this dinner than he expected. of course, he knew that you were an introvert who needed time to get comfortable and that it was the first time you physically met his family but still, he thought he told you enough stories about how excited his mother was to meet you that you were less worried. but he understood that it only made your concerns grow, completely scared of not being enough.

"my mom will unconditionally adore you. she always asks how you’re doing when i call her to the point where i sometimes think she loves you more than me. you became a member of our family the moment i kissed you on your front door, you instantly had a place at our table for chrismas as well as for every family event and non-family event."

pressing a soft kiss on your temple, jun added without any hesitation :

"if you feel too overwhelmed, we can stay here tonight, i’ll tell my mom that i am sick."

"why? you exclaimed in panic, no don’t lie or stay for me! you can’t see them regularly, i don’t want to be a burden."

"you aren’t a burden, y/n. and i would absolutely hate to know that you’re spending christmas in a hotel room alone or that you’re forcing yourself for my sake."

"and i would absolutely hate to know that you’re not seeing your family for my overthinking ass, you retorted before ordering with a determined tone in order to suppress your nervousness, enough with the overthinking, we’ll be late, let’s go now."

"that’s my girl, jun murmured with a fond smile, don’t worry, they will love you. and if you ever feel tensed or uncomfortable, tell me."

"always. thank you for dealing with my stupid concerns," you whispered after hugging him tightly.

"if it bothers you, then it isn’t stupid, jun reassured, now let’s go for real or my mom will scold me for being late."

a/n : chrismas isn’t over yet, i’m still allowed to post this silly lil drabble. merry christmas everyone!

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