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oh no, I'm falling in love again

requested! basically Sigma has time off one morning and reader and him decide to do cute things like styling Sigma's hair. thank you so much for the request! <33

Sigma wakes up and is absolutely ecstatic to have the morning off. he naturally wakes up early, and spends the entire time just watching you and admiring you. when he thinks you are going to wake up soon, he asks one of the casino workers to bring breakfast to the room. you have long, sleepy conversations and plan your morning. you offer to braid his hair, and Sigma is completely incapable of saying no. you clean up and immediately go back to laying on the messy bed. Sigma sits in your lap and you start to braid his hair. you put on a playlist that the two of you made together and he talks about everything that's going on in the casino. if it looks good, Sigma will be happy. if it doesn't, he will also be happy. he just loves you, and since you did his hair, that's enough for him to love it. then, if you have enough hair, he will try and do your hair and you'll talk about everything going on in your life. or you two will just gossip together, he secretly loves shit-talking people, he does not have anyone else to do it with. when that is done, you two just cuddle with each other. it is silent, you're both just comforted by being next to each other. no matter what, Sigma will cherish every moment with you.

this was really short. I broke down again randomly idek why. it was even a good, not sad song on my playlist. also, I had a pretty decent day, and I had a lot of fun with friends. I guess I have a lot of work to do and I'm so behind and I don't even know what to do.

edit: looking back at this, I am so horrified and also wtf is my old writing style????

I can(not) do it with a broken heart

requested, and it took me too long to do. I do love the request!! <33

sigma when he finds the reader cutting except I have not written something like this before. I don't know what it's like to cut myself. I struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts but I can't say that I understand what it's like to cut myself on the level that some others do.

(swearing and obvious warnings like blood, cutting, implied mental illness)

he is late to get home one day, but he's hurrying despite how he's tired. he cannot explain it; it is simply his intuition. so when he opens the door and finds you there, quickly and accidentally slamming the bathroom door, he just has to get to you. you don't lock it, you can't lock Sigma out, but you're filth. he is above you. he deserves so much better, but he's so above that in no world can you go against him. he slowly opens it and says your name a few times. he rushes over, quietly and shakingly calls your name again, but it takes a while for you to answer, and you answer with a choked-out sob. he does not know why you're doing this, but he'd give up everything if you could be okay. he runs to you but you back away. you don't have it in you to shove him, he's everything to you, but to taint someone as good as Sigma with your filthy blood, your filthy mind, your filthy, shitty issues, your fucking filthy life would be unforgivable. you have not dropped the boxcutter yet. he talks to you, and he is perfectly okay with how you don't respond. when your mind refocuses on him and your breathing is more stable, you still can't speak, but you've calmed down at least a little. neither of you know how much time has been spent in this bathroom already. he moves his hand towards the boxcutter, but you shove him with weak and shaking hands. he hits the wall, and shame curls in your gut. "Sorry! Sorry, sorry, sorry, so sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry-" you repeat. shame that you've made Sigma like this, shame that you shoved him, shame on you because every single thing you touch becomes sick. you can't get fucking anything right, all you've ever done is be a fucking monster. you're a fucking bitch, there's no goddamn way you deserve Sigma. (sorry, the being a monster and bitch is kinda my own insert. I am a horrible person, sorry y'all. I'm so fucking horrible I feel absolutely nothing from admitting how horrible I am) "It's okay, I'm sorry. It's okay. I love you. You're beautiful. Please, you're everything to me. You don't need to apologise, it's not your fault. Please let me make it a little closer to okay. You're so kind. I don't know how to make it better, but I'd do anything to make it a little better. I love you so much."

Not really a happy ending. For reasons that I won't disclose, I simply cannot finish it. :/

collection of sigma request answers

it has arranged marriage stuff, what he's like when he's drunk, and what he would do if he hasn't seen the reader in a while

sorry it took such a long time, I have so many Sigma requests and I wanna write other characters but I don't have time :/

If Sigma was in an arranged marriage, he would treat you well, but you would never be his first priority. It would take much more than a marriage for him to put you first. He didn't like the idea of an arranged marriage, but the DOA thought it was a perfect idea, and he couldn't say no. If he fell in love with his partner while in the marriage, best believe he'd do anything for you, though. And he would grow to hate Fyodor and Nikolai a little less, after all, they had come up with such a wonderful idea. You were perfect for him in every single way, and he would absolutely refuse to lose you. However, if Sigma was drunk, he would probably be a sad drunk. I don't see him being a lightweight, I mean, he's a perfectly average man, right ?(no our pookie sigma is absolutely out of this world and we love him sm) He would cling to you and cry for attention, so you'd keep him away from the DOA and public. It would probably be heaven, just staying in a luxurious room with Sigma just begging for your attention. He'd have a lot of regrets in the morning and will do his best to make up for it. He'd take the next day off because of a hangover, but when he's a bit better, he'd try to treat you however he can. Lastly, if Sigma was seeing you again after a ridiculous mission, he would devote as much time as possible to you. He has A LOT of money, so you're free to spend it as much as you like. Gifts his time, always his affection, and he would tell you how terrible it was without you. He probably had someone tell him how you were for the entire time he was gone, he refuses to risk your safety under any circumstances. It's hard to leave his side when he comes back tbh, he just wants to hold you, talk to you, catch up on everything, and know you're okay.

sorry it was short, I didn't have many ideas for any of these, so I just combined it into one post.

also, reminder that requests are OPEN!