But Im Genuinely So Not Tired Its Sad - Tumblr Posts

TW: venting, hospitals, some spiraling

You don't have to read, I just need to get this out. Will probably delete later

My mom's in the hospital, she just went to the ER an hour ago. There's been so much going on tonight and I'm so scared.. she was fine all day but she started feeling a lot of pain in her gut. I'm watching her dog rn and she knows somethings wrong. I cannot regress even tho I can feel it coming, probably later. I don't want to be handing this alone but there's not even anyone in the co-con with me.. I swear in our system alters are so PRESENT until someone actually needs help. I've genuinely never felt more alone than I have in this moment, my mom is my rock. I call her for trips to target when I get social anxiety, how am I going to be able to function if she's gone?? I should never have moved out I feel so stupid