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The first time I saw you, my gaze only lingered on you for a few seconds. You didn't stand out, instead blended into the colorful sea of humans.
The second time I saw you, we were in a cozy cafeteria. It turned out we share some friends, yet somehow we avoided eachother by accident. I had a headache that day. Everything was too loud, too messy, too bright. Weirdly, when I looked at you, my eyes didn't hurt.
The third time I saw you was in the school corridor. You were speaking to someone, intensively focusing on what he was saying and laughing carefreely when he told a joke. I didn't hear as beautiful laugh as yours before.
The fourth time I saw you, it was actually me, who searched for you. I found you at the library, reading a book in a small corner. Then you looked at me, and something inside of me flipped.
The fifth time I saw you was in a club. I didn't want to go there but my friends dragged me to it. You were there too, and when our eyes met, I felt calm, despise being in an overcrowded place that made me uncomfortable. We danced and talked a lot. It felt nice.
The sixth time I saw you it was on a sport event. You were playing with your teammates in basketball. You looked really cool. Your team won the golden medal and I wanted to go congratule but a girl beat me. She ran to you and hugged you so tight, I tought she was going to squise the life out of you. But then something happened that hurt me like crazy. You hugged her back, and smiled so happily, it was almost blinding. I didn't know you had a girlfriend.
When I saw you for the seventh time, we were already seniors. I was busy and you were busy but somehow still crossed paths at the grocery store. We talked again after many months. You told me that you and your girlfriend broke up. I felt horrible by the fact that I internioally cheered when I heard it.
The eighth, nineth, tenth and the other times went flying. We met more frequently, talked much more and after some time, you asked me out for a date, then to be your girlfriend. I, of course said yes.
Then the years flew, and I was already your fiancée. We were happy. We were going to get married. One time we had a very ugly fight. You stormed out of the door and went for a ride with your bike. I was angry at you.
The last time I saw you was when they closed your coffin. You died in an accident. The night when we had a fight and you went out to calm yourself. A car driver fell asleep while driving and crashed into you. You died on the spot. I have so many regrets. The last words I said to you were untrue. I hope you know that I didn't regret meeting you. That the first time I laid my eyes on you made my whole life better. I'm sorry yours ended too quickly for me to pay back.
I love you, forever.