Cant Break A Promise If You Cant Make It In The First Place - Tumblr Posts

oouuughhhhhh you flatter mee but yessss zam the princess in the tower mapicc the guard dog outside the door lurking by the gate prowling through the halls forcing his presence into your home until even the buuilding feels like a stranger. changed by destructive fights and a fear that keeps you locked in one room for weeks until his broken routine and violent hands are the only familiar things you have BROKEN HANDS esyesyesss your hands are how you explore the world and change it but zam can't be trusted with that any more hands that wear rings forged in promises. you dont get to have that any mpre. you dont get to hurt me any more cant break a promise if you cant make it in the first place you dont speak to anyone else. you don't get the chance to fuck up. fuck me up again. you just are and what you are is mine yeah ......... do you reckon he slashed zam's achilles tendons at some point....... you dont get to run this is your punishment and you have to take it and while mapiccs visits are often they certainly are not regular. hes too impulsive for that. zam never knows when mapicc is just outside its never safe to leave but the cold cold isolation uncertainty of when he will next visit you could make you crave the warmth of your own blood dripping and his scathing words you miss him But then again he's always there because you never know when he is and isnt schroedingers dog there is no escaping this fuckkkkk this started out as some silly gorey musings and now im having the Big Emotions about it :[ mapicc was so hurt by zams betrayal is all this justified to him? necessary? obviously hes willing to go this far but does he see this in a moral way or is it more of a 'i want to hurt him and so i will' does he feel entitled? zam is mine and i can do whatever i want to keep him that way? either way. he is willing to strip the songbird of its voice and bloody its plumage to keep it in the cage if he misses how it was; does he feel guilty? or is it zams fault for forcing them both into this does he prefer zam this way?