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One Leads to Another
THIS IS FOR MY BEST FRIEND! hope everyone enjoys it! There will be a part 2!!
Changmo X Double K X OC
It’s been weeks since I found out my now ex boyfriend had been cheating on me for 2 of the 3 years we’ve been together. I ran out of our shared apartment with all of my belongings and crashed at my best friend’s house.
“Alright. So today, we are going to party our asses off okay?” She asked.
“Hell yeah. I need this.” I replied while slipping on my little black dress. This dress is perfect, it isn’t revealing, but hug and accentuates all my curves.
I gave one last look in the mirror before turning around.
“Damnn… you look smoking hot Y/n.” Chang IIl, my friend said while eyeing me. It was pretty normal for our group of friends to throw suggestive jokes around at each other, until I became part of a committed relationship which didn’t matter anymore.
“Thanks, but I’m not reserved for you today.” I said slipping on my heels.
Chang Ill walked behind me and put his groin against my bent ass and wrapped his hands around my waist to pull me up after I strapped the heels onto my ankles.
“You sure you don’t want to be with me tonight?” He whispered into my ear while teasing me.
“Chang Ill we all know how many girls you’ve been with. There’s no way I’m letting you in me.” I replied while laughing and prying his hands away from my body.
He gave a peck on my temple and said, “Well you know I’m always open for you to have me.”
“Nu uh, not a chance.” I replied while walking towards Joonkyung, who held my purse. He helped me sling the purse into my shoulder and pulled me into a side hug.
“Are you feeling better?” He asked.
Joonkyung was my brother from another mother to me. He was always there when I needed help. He was the best friend that I ran to after finding out about my ex boyfriend’s wrongdoings.
“Yeah, thanks to you as always.” I said returning the hug.
“Are ya’ll done?! I wanna leave!” Deok Kwang yelled from the bottom of the steps.
We were seated at the usual V.I.P. rooms thanks to the famous boys. Right away we got started with some drinks. After taking a few sips of my drink, I turned to Joonkyung who was conversing with one of the call girls.
“Joonkyung, I’m going downstairs to dance a little bit.”
His arms fell from the girl’s shoulders and grabbed onto my waist.
“Want me to go with you?” He asked.
I pushed the few strands of hair that blocked his eyes and shook my head.
“I’ll be good. Have fun.” I replied.
The bass in the song was so strong that I couldn’t help but to move my body freely along the upbeat music. Within a few minutes, I was joined by a group of girls and guys who wanted to dance with me. We all bopped along to the music. It felt so good to let myself loose after such a long time. As I took a sip of the drink in my hand, I felt a warm pair of hands land on the middle of my stomach. I turned around to see if it was Joonkyung who had come to check up on me, but I was shocked to see someone with bright silver hair.
“Hey, I’ve been watching you dance since you got here and wanted to know if I can join you.” He “whispered” loudly over the booming music.
I was so shocked to see one of my favorite rappers of all time behind me, holding onto me, and asking if he can dance with me. “Oh my gosh! Aren’t you Changmo?!” I asked, somewhat shouting so he was able to hear me.
He nodded and gave me a big smile. I placed my hands on his and rocked my body against his. As we danced against each other, it felt surreal. I was dancing with the man who I’ve only listened to on my Spotify Premium account.
“You want to talk for a bit?” Changmo asked into my ear which sent shivers down my spine. I nodded and grabbed onto the hand that he was holding out for me to take.
He brought me to a secluded room that seemed to be near the room I came from. We sat next to each other as a waiter brought another glass of drinks for us.
“So, what’s your name?” He asked.
“I’m Y/n.” I replied.
“Well, I’m Changmo. As you know. I just wanted to get to know a beautiful person like you.” He said while tracing his fingers on my forearm.
“Is that what you say to all the girls you want in your pants?” I questioned laughing.
“No, I usually don’t have the courage to do this.” He replied somewhat sincerely.
I gave him a flirtatious smile and said,
“Well, you’re doing a good job in trying to have me want you.”
He returned the smile and shifted closer to me.
“Well then is it okay for me to give you a preview with my lips?”
“Just keep in mind I have high expectations.” I said smiling and then leaned in to close the gap between us.
The next morning, I woke up with my head buried in his warm chest.
“Told you that preview I would be worth it.” He groaned making me chuckle.
“Wait. Changmo.” I said abruptly pulling away.
“Yeah?” He asked, eyes widened.
“You didn’t know wear a condom… You’re clean right?” I asked warily. I always wore a condom, not just to avoid pregnancy, but in case of exposing myself to diseases.
“I’ll get you a morning after pill. Sorry about that I completely forgot.” He said trying to pull me into his arms again.
“No, I’m on birth control so that’s okay, but I’m asking about other things. You don’t have anything right?” I asked.
He chuckled, “Sorry, no one’s ever asked me that before. But yes, I am clean. You’re the first person I’ve ever had slept with without a condom.”
“Okay, just making sure because I always do, but I completely forgot as well.” I said easing back into his arms.
“Are you clean?” He asked teasingly.
I lightly slapped his arms, “you think I would’ve asked if I wasn’t?”
I closed my eyes feeling tired from the intense workout while Changmo continued holding me and placing kisses on my face.
“You give so many kisses to a person you’ve just met.” I said without opening my eyes.
“I usually don’t, but I can’t help it.” He replied.
After a tiresome day, I made my way to Chang Ill’s studio.
Hey.” I said slumping down on the sofa.
Without turning away from the computer screen, he humphed a hey back.
“Are you working on a new song?” I asked.
“Yeah I got a sudden inspiration.” He answered.
As if he remembered something, his body jumped and swiftly turned to face me behind him.
“What?” I asked without opening my eyes.
‘Where’d you go yesterday?”
“You could never guess…” I said while sighing.
“Did you go home with Changmo?”
My eyes popped open and I jumped up, “how’d you know?”
He nodded with a grin, like a parent proud of their child’s achievements and said, “I have my ways.”
And just like that, our lives went on. Changmo lived his own. I lived my own. That was until I got sick. And I mean very, very sick.
“Ugh… I didn’t even eat anything… why am I like this…” I groaned against my pillow.
“Chang Ill is bringing medicine and porridge for you so hold onfor a bit.” Joonkyung said while brushing my hair that was sticking to my forehead.
“Did you sleep without the A.C. on?” He asked.
“No… I don’t know why I’m like this.” I replied.
“Since when did you say?”
“Maybe like two days after the day we went out? I think..” I groaned once again feeling like throwing up.
“And you haven’t eaten properly since that day, right?” He asked cautiously.
“Yeah.” I said and got up to run to the bathroom once again.
Joonkyung followed behind me and patted my back as I tried to release the toxicity in my body.
“Y/n… you said you guys didn’t use a condom right?”
With a big frown, I looked up at Joonkyung and said, “Joonkyung, I’m on birth control. I’ve been on it for the past 3 years, since I was with Dong Hae.”
“You do know birth control isn’t 100% effective.”
“That’s like 1 out of a million. There’s no way that it could happen to me.”
With a concerned look, Joonkyung shook his head. “That 1 could be anyone.”
My body stiffened at that thought and I could feel my blood rushing to my heart rapidly. Biting my lips I walked out of the bathroom and over to the nightstand where my phone rested.
“Chang Ill.”
“Hey, you okay? I’ll be there soon. I’m like 10 mins away.”
“Bring a pregnancy test too.”
“Fuck. Are you being ser-” and I hung up. Joonkyung walked over to me and pulled me into a hug. Tears slowly escaped my eyes as dug myself deeper into his warmth.
I stood in front of the mirror, just staring at my reflection. I was too afraid to look at the test.
“Y/n.” I heard Joonkyung’s voice from the other side of the bathroom door. My head turned towards the door, but I couldn’t say anything.
“Did you take a look?” He continued.
My head whipped towards the pregnancy test that sat on top of the closed toilet.
“Y/n? Is everything okay?”
Taking a deep breath, I slowly picked up the stick and took a look.
“Y/n. Answer please.”
My heart dropped at the two big red lines that stuck out on the white stick.
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.” I chanted roaming back and forth in the bathroom.
The banging on the door became louder.
“Y/n?! Open up! Open the door! Changmo! Look for the bathroom keys in the kitchen drawer!” Joonkyung shouted.
“Y/n, it’s okay. Just let me in okay?” He begged. My hand was shaking as I continued to stare at the stick that changed my life. Why hadn’t I used a condom? But I was on birth control. But if I had a condom, I wouldn’t be like this. My reflection in the mirror showed my disheveled hair, shaky body, with tears falling freely to my chin. The door to the bathroom jiggled open and came in a rushing Joonkyung and Chang Ill. They knew the test was positive from my current state and pulled me into a hug. I was crying in the arms of Joonkyung as Chang Ill brushed my hair out of my face.
“We’ll be here for you no matter what okay?” Joonkyung whispered.
“Yeah, don’t worry.” Chang Ill added.
It’s been 3 days since I’ve found out about my pregnancy. Joonkyung and Chang Ill stayed over at my house since the day I found out. I was taking in the truth better than the previous days. I still couldn’t eat, but Chang Ill forced me to for the sake of the baby in my womb.
“How are you today?” Chang Ill asked.
“I’m feeling better… thank you Chang Ill.” I said while gripping his hand.
“Hey, no need to thank. It’s what friends do.” He said giving me a hug.
“Are you going to tell Changmo?” He asked.
“I don’t even know his number… And it was a one night stand. He wouldn’t want a child from a one night stand.”
“I could try to get you in contact with him. And he deserves to know even if you decide to get rid of it.”
“Chang Ill, I know that, but what if he says to get rid of it? I don’t want to live with the fact that I got an abortion and an innocent baby died because of my or his selfishness. I’m not getting rid of the baby.”
He sighed with a look of relief and gave me another hug.
“I was so scared that you would say you wanted to get an abortion. Oh God. I feel my legs shaking.”
“You’re not the one pregnant or even the father.” I chuckled.
“Yeah, but I’m going to be the Godfather.” He replied.
“Uhh… that’s Joonkyung.” I joked.
“Hey!” He said pulling away from the hug.
“Just kidding, of course it’s both of you.” I said smiling.
“There’s that shining smile.” He said poking my cheeks.
Four months have passed and I was entering my second trimester. I haven’t met Changmo since that day and I was somehow able to convince Joonkyung and Chang Ill to not let Changmo know because I was afraid that he would make me abort my baby or take it away from me. Joonkyung was busy with his new album so these days I was hanging out with Chang Ill more. There were rumors that Chang Ill was becoming a father since he was seen so often with me shopping for baby supplies. Luckily, my face was not released to the public. There only were pictures of Chang Ill with a lady that looked pregnant occasionally joined by Joonkyung. Since the weather was still warm in late September, I had a thin shirt with a loose cardigan.
“Chang Ill, what do you think about this?” I asked raising a pair of baby Jordans.
“That’s so cute!” He replied with a giddy expression.
“Let me get it for you.” He said taking it out of my hands.
“No, you already bought so much for us! I want to buy it!” I exclaimed.
“But Coco is my first godson. Of course I have to buy it.” Chang Ill whined.
“I told you his nickname is Peach! Not Coco!” I said while smacking his hand away.
“I think Coco is cuter.” He said as he skillfully took the Jordans out of my hands and ran to the register.
“Chang Ill!” I yelled slightly as I finally caught up to him. He gave me a grin as I smacked his back.
“For my baby, anything.” He said giving me a side hug.
We were headed for my favorite ramen shop for dinner as Changmo got a call from his boss, Dong Gab
“Chang Ill, can you come into the office right now?” He asked.
“Umm, I’m actually out with Y/n right now and we’re getting dinner right now. Is it okay if I go in a little later?”
“Actually, can you both drop by? It’s important.”
“With Y/n? I can -”
“We’ll be there soon oppa.” I said cutting off Chang Ill.
“Alright, thanks see you.” Dong Gab said before hanging up.
“Y/n, we already know what this is going to be about. You’re pregnant. It’s only going to stress you out.” Chang Ill said looking back and forth from the road to me.
“Chang Ill , I’ll be fine. Dong Gab oppa isn’t going to yell at me or anything. Don’t worry. I’m stronger than you think.” I said trying to lift his worries.
He sighed loudly before saying, “Wait. Oppa? Dong Gab oppa? Yah! I’m older than you and Dong Gab, but you never call me oppa! Why is Dong Gab an oppa to you?”
I chuckled and said, “That’s because mentally, you’re younger than me!” which resulted in a pouty Chang Ill driving to 1llionaire Records.
“Hey Dong Gab oppa. How have you been?” I asked as he welcomed me with a hug.
“Good. What about you? How’s the baby?” He asked as we sat down.
“Peach is -” I started before I was cut off by Chang Ill shouting,
“Coco!” I glared at him before continuing,
“PEACH is good. He’s 4 months now, half way through!”
“That’s good.” Dong Gab said smiling.
“I called you guys in because right now there’s a video of you two going around at a shoe store buying baby shoes and Chang Ill called the baby his baby. And fans are going crazy right now.” He continued.
“A video? At a shoe store? That was literally 30 minutes ago.” Chang Ill exclaimed.
“Yeah, and Y/n, you’re face was revealed in the video. I’m trying my best to have lawyers take it down immediately, but then again because you were with someone famous, and it was taken in public, it might be hard to.” Dong Gab sighed.
Feeling overwhelmed at the situation, I took in a deep breath.
“Is there anything I can do?” I asked.
“No, you’re not revealing yourself to the public. Your face was enough.” Chang Ill said. If I were to come out and explain my situation, then 1) I would be telling everyone in Korea that I am a single mother 2) I would get backlash about being a single mother 3) I would get backlash about being a scandalous woman… the list could go on and on.
“Chang Ill’s right Y/n. There’s no need for you to expose yourself to the public. We’ll do that for him, but as for you, try to stay on the downlow and don’t hang around together in public too much.” Dong Gab said with a concerned look.
Chang Ill and I nodded as we drifted into our own thoughts before it was interrupted by Dong Gab’s million dollar question.
“Are you planning on telling Changmo?”
I froze and just stared blankly back at him. Changm Ill instead answered,
“She doesn’t want to because she’s afraid he might tell her to get an abortion or take the baby away from her.”
Dong Gab nodded before adding, “But you don’t know that… shouldn’t you at least try? If it doesn’t go well, you know we’ll all be here to make things right for you.”
“That’s not the only reason.” I started.
“What if he thinks I did that to him on purpose? Or like I’m lying about him being the dad, but want him to take responsibility? I don’t want to become a pathetic person.” I said finally letting out my true feelings.
Dong Gab got up to sit beside me and gave me a hug.
“You’ve got it all wrong. Look at you, you’re 4 months pregnant right now and you didn’t tell the father. He should know then you didn’t do it on purpose or that you’re trying to force him to be responsible for a baby that’s not his. Changmo is smarter than that.”
So somehow, I was now in front of Changmo’s studio. Chang Ill palmed my cheeks and lifted my head so I could meet his eyes.
“No matter what happens, remember that I will always be here for you. That includes Joonkyung, Dong Gab, everyone. Okay?”
I nodded and stirred up a smile so that he wouldn’t be too worried. One part of me wanted Changmo to accept the baby and become a responsible father. The other part of me wanted to turn around, go home, and hide in my bed covers.
“I’ll be out here so don’t worry. Call me if you need me.” He said lightly turning my body towards the door.
I stepped in and was faced with a young lady who was managing the front desk.
“Hi, how can I help you?” She asked.
“Hi, I’m here to meet Changmo.”
“Are you the new program’s producer? Did you make an appointment with him?” She continued.
“Umm… no. I need to speak to him as soon as possible for a private matter. Is it poss-”
“Honey, you’re not the first to try this tactic. If you really want to meet him, make sure you buy tickets to the next concert.” She said while shaking her head.
“No, I do know him personally. I just wasn’t able to get in contact with him privately.”
“Well, maybe that means he doesn’t want to speak with you. I’m going to have to ask you to leave.” She replied getting up from her seat.
“No, please. Can you just tell him Y/n is here to speak to him. He’ll know. Plea-”
“Y/n?” A familiar voice cut me off.
“Changmo!” I exclaimed.
“Hey, how you’ve been?” He asked while reaching out for a hug.
“Could’ve been better…” I said while returning the hug with my side, trying to avoid hugging him with my stomach that was bulging out.
“What brings you here?” He continued.
“I’m actually here to see you. I need to speak to you, is that okay?” I asked lightly grabbing his fingers.
“Yeah, of course. Let’s go to a cafe in the front.” He said taking my hand into his own.
“No, let me!” I said trying to push him out of the way from the register.
“No, no. I want to treat you.” He said blocking the view. Rolling my eyes, I turned around to grab a table.
To be continued......
One Leads to Another pt.2
It sucks, but hope y’all enjoy it!
As I waited for Changmo to come to the table, I texted Chang Ill that we were in a cafe and that he can go home, which he replied with a big “NO!” to. We were finally seated in front of each other by the window. He took a sip of the hot chocolate that he ordered for both of us.
“So, how’s work going for you?” I started.
“Good, I got a new album out recently and I’m working on a single for now.”
“I heard your new album. It was good.” I replied.
“Yeah? Which was your favorite?” He asked.
“I liked Night Letter and Wrist Watch.” I said smiling.
He smiled back and said, “I was thinking of you when I wrote Night Letter.”
Shocked, I brought my hand to my mouth.
“What?”
“You were my muse for that song.”
“No way…”
“Yes way.”
My heart felt so fuzzy and began to race uncontrollably.
“Thank you.” I said.
“No, thank you. Because of that song, my album got a lot of recognition. I owe it all to you.” He said taking my hand.
“What about you? How have you been?” He asked.
“Umm.. you see… this is the reason why I needed to meet you. First I’m going to explain why I didn’t come earlier. Okay?” I said with a shaky voice.
“Is something wrong?” He asked worried.
“I was afraid at first about what you would think of me. Would you think I did on purpose, I was lying to you. And then I was being eaten by the thoughts of you telling me to get rid of it or even take my baby away from me. I was scar-”
“Baby?” He said taking away his hand.
“Wha- what do you mean?”
“Changmo, I’m pregnant.”
“What?”
“And you’re the father.”
“No way.”
“I’m sorry. I didn’t want things to becom-”
“You said you were on birth control.” He cut me off.
“I was. For the past 3 years, but birth control isn’t 100% effective.”
“Bu- but..”
“The reason why I came to speak to you today is not to throw sudden responsibility on you. I’ve thought about it for the past 4 months and it was only right for you to know, as the father, of your son. I don’t expect you to throw away everything to take on the proper role for our mistakes. But I’m here to ask you to let me please keep the baby. If you decide to not be a part of the baby’s life, then please I will never bring you into the picture ever again, so please don’t take him away from me.” At this point I was sobbing.
“I will understand and accept your decision, but let me keep my son please.”
Changmo stared at me blankly. He mouth was slightly agape. We sat in silence for a good 10 minutes.
“I… I…” He started.
“I’m sorry, but I’m not ready to become a dad.”
My heart squeezed with pain, as if I were shot. With tears brimming, I nodded.
“I understand… I wasn’t ready to become a mom too, but here I am.” I smiled sadly.
“I’m sorry y/n, but there’s so many things I have to do.”
I shook my head. “Just promise me that you won’t interfere with our lives. Please.”
He nodded. Feeling some sort of relief, I thanked him.
“That’s all I have. Sorry and thank you Changmo. Goodbye.” I said getting up.
“Can I…” He stopped me.
I turned to face him.
“Can I give you one last hug?” He asked.
I nodded with a smile. He pulled me into a hug burying his face into the crook of my neck. I was patting his back as he tightened his grip.
“Changmo, it’s too tight.” I muffled, my stomach feeling suffocated.
“Sorry…” He said slightly pulling away. His eyes ran from my face to my bulging stomach. His warm hand moved from my back to the top of my stomach. Where his hand was placed felt like it was burning.
“I’m sorry.” He whispered tears brimming in his eyes.
“We’ll be okay.” I whispered back placing my hand above his.
And with one last peck, I walked away with a pained heart, but with relief. I was about to press the call button on Chang Ill’s number, but stopped myself. I didn’t want him to see me crying. Mommy is hurt Peach. But I will only cry today okay? I thought as tears escaped my eyes. I made it home and slumped on the couch. I couldn’t hold in the tears that I’ve kept in for so long. I was expecting that kind of reaction from Changmo, but I guess somewhere in my heart, I wanted him to come and be with us. I cried my heart out as I rubbed my belly. I will only cry for today I promised myself. As I got up for a cup of water, my phone buzzed.
Did you go home?
-Chang Ill
I completely forgot that he was waiting for me and I came home without telling him.
Do you want me to come to you?
We could eat ice cream and watch movies!
-Chang Ill.
Sorry I completely forgot you were waiting for me… I’ll give you a call tomorrow, I want to sleep early today. I texted back. He probably knew that the conversation didn’t go well.
Okay, let me know if you need me. I love you, good night.
-Chang Ill.
I sighed at the last message feeling relieved at the fact that there is at least someone I can rely on. After filling a glass of water, I headed for my bedroom and sighed at the endless amounts baby furniture that Chang Ill and the other 1lliambition boys bought for me. Not wanting to do anything that required me to move around, I simply laid down resting on my side.
5 months have passed since that day, I was about to give birth soon. Chang Ill helped me come about the pain by hanging out with me more which led to more rumors. It was an ordinary day, I was supposed to meet with Chang Ill, but an important meeting for his work came up so I decided to travel the city by myself. I had my earphones on, listening to Hash Swan’s new album as I took a sip of my iced peach green tea. I looked around, looking for stores to go into until I felt a strong pull in my stomach. Something didn’t feel right. I was about to sit down at a bench until I felt water drizzling down my legs. My eyes widened realizing I was going into labor. “Fuck.” I muttered. Rummaging through my bag, I frantically looked for my phone. Once I was able to get a hold of my phone, I immediately dialed my emergency contact.
“Fuck… pick up…” I said.
Hey, still in the meeting, I’ll give you a call in 10 minutes.
-Chang Ill
Chang Ill, my water broke.
After that message, there was a call immediately.
“Where are you? Are you home right now?” He shouted panicking. I could hear his voice echoing, probably running in the halls of the studio.
“I’m at the cafe we went to the other day… near Swan’s new store…” I replied as calmly as possible.
“Why are you out?! I told you not to leave anywhere without me.” He scolded.
“I’m sorry… Chang Ill, should I call an ambulance?” I asked.
“No, I’ll be there in 5 minutes.” He said before hanging up.
“Ma’am are you okay?” a young man approached me. He saw the puddle by my legs as I stood in a weird position.
“Do you need me to call help?” He asked.
I shook my head no, “my fri-friend is on the way. He’s coming soon…” I tried to reply, softly.
“Would you like me to stand here with you as you wait?” He asked.
“Yes, please. If you don’t mind.” He immediately grabbed onto my arms, trying to help me keep balance. I tightly gripped his arm as I felt my contractions.
“Sorry, this baby is eager to get out.” I stated with a nervous chuckle.
“That’s okay, it’ll be okay. Do you know when your fri-”
“Y/n! I’m here!” Chang Ill yelled getting out of his porsche.
“Thank you.” I said with a smile to the young man that stood with me. A crowd of people was forming as they realized the rapstar that was here. Chang Ill tried shielding me from the phones of the people as he sat me down in the passenger seat.
“Hold on, okay? Everything will be okay.” He reassured me.
I nodded before he closed the door to run over to the driver’s seat and zoomed off to the nearest hospital.
After a dreadful 17 hours of labor, I finally gave birth to a beautiful baby boy whom I named Young Hoo, Lee Young Hoo.
I had my eyes closed until I heard the door open. Chang Ill came in, rolling Young Hoo’s bed. I smiled and tried to sit up.
“Stay still. I’ll help you in a few” he stopped me.
After parking the bed right beside my bed, Chang Ill helped me to sit up. I looked at him as he ever so softly held Young Hoo in his arms.
“He’s so beautiful.” He said with sparkling eyes. As Young Hoo came into my arms, I couldn’t help, but to tear up.
“I can’t believe this.” I whispered. Chang Ill sat down beside me placing his hands on my thighs.
“You did it. You’re going to do so well and I’m going to be next to you in every step of the way, okay?”
I nodded with trembling lips. He pulled me into a warm hug and pecked my temple. We pulled away at the sound of the door opening once again. In came Dong Gab, Sungbin, Stephanie, Joonkyung, and Jinyoung.
“Hey, congratulations y/n!” They said coming in.
“Shhhhh….” Chang Ill shushed them pointing to Young Hoo in my arms.
“Wow, I understand why people would think you guys are a family.” Jinyoung commented looking from afar. Chang Ill and I smiled at each other, I was thanking him with my eyes and it seemed like he understood it.
After everyone took turns holding Young Hoo and conversing with me, one by one, took their leave.
Chang Ill stayed behind and even asked Dong Gab for a few weeks off to help me settle in with the newborn which I immediately refused to, but Dong Gab insisted on it.
“Are you okay?” Chang Ill asked while I was breastfeeding Young Hoo for the first time. I couldn’t take my eyes off of Young Hoo and just nodded.
“I’m happy. Thank you Chang Ill, for everything.” He shook his head, saying that he did nothing.
“You know, people really think that Young Hoo is my son after the video of us rushing to the hospital.”
I looked up at Chang Ill’s face.
“As long as you’re okay, I don’t mind.” I replied.
“I don’t mind people thinking that as long as you’re okay.” I said once more.
Chang Ill smiled, “Then I don’t care too.”
We were finally on the way home. There were even more rumors about Chang I’ll getting secretly married, having a child, and more as photos of Chang Ill and I leaving the hospital with a baby were released by fans. Chang Ill didn’t approve or deny anything, but posted photos of Young Hoo on his instagram which resulted in his posts firing up within seconds.
“Hey.”
“Hmm?” He hummed looking up from the sleeping Young Hoo.
“It’s been two weeks now, shouldn’t you get back to work? Or at least stop with posting Young Hoo on your story? People are literally attacking you..”
He walked away from the crib to take a seat next to me on the couch.
“Dong Gab said I could take as much time as I was off since I released 3 albums in the course of 2 months and who cares what other people think?!” He shrugged.
I sighed, lightly slapping his thigh.
“Did Changmo contact you yet?” He asked.
I froze at his name. Shaking my head, I said,
“I told him not to and he hasn’t. Which is good.”
“I mean, but he’s the dad. He’s not even a bit curious? He probably saw the pictures of us and he even saw my stories of Young Hoo, but he hasn’t even contacted me.” He replied.
“Is that why you keep posting on your story?” I asked.
Like a burglar caught in action, his eyes widened and vigorously shook his head no.
“I just want to share Young Hoo to the world.”
“Whatever Chang Ill. You should really go home now. You haven’t gone home in 2 weeks.” I said getting up to fold the small clothes I had hand washed with the help of Chang Ill before.
“I’m fine. I like being here with you guys.” He said following behind me.
“Chang Ill… you can’t keep doing this… I know, I know it’s because you care and maybe even pity us.” I sighed.
“What?” He exclaimed turning me around to face him.
“What do you mean? Of course I care, but what do you mean pity you? Where did you get that thought?”
Tears were welling up in my eyes and I couldn’t face him.
“No, stop. Don’t turn away from me. Tell me what you mean by that.” He said palming my cheeks that were getting wet with my tears.
“Y/n. I don’t know if you noticed, but I like you. I like you more than a friend. And I want to become a part of your lives.” He whispered.
My eyes widened. I didn’t know that Chang Ill had liked me more than a friend.
“I… I… didn’t know that… Chang Ill, you could do so much better than me. I have a son, that’s not even your child…” I said surprised.
He continued to hold me and looked deeply into my eyes.
“I don’t care. I love you for who you are and Young Hoo for who he is. He’s practically my son.” And my tears were activated like a waterfall. I couldn’t stop crying. Chang Ill pulled me into his arms and rubbed my back, trying to soothe me.
“I want to become a part of your lives.” He whispered.
I pulled away lightly, “Chang Ill I’m thankful for everything, but I can’t do that to you. You deserve so much better.”
He pulled me back into a hug and dug his face in the crook of my neck, “No. Don’t say that. Please. I want this. I want you. I want Young Hoo.”
I stroked the back of his neck. “Are you sure?” I asked.
He pulled away and with tearful eyes, he nodded. “I know I want this.”
Young Hoo was now 6 months old. Chang Ill and I were doing better than ever as we were deeply in love not only with Young Hoo but also each other.
“Y/n! I need another diaper!” Chang Ill yelled from the bedroom.
“Ugh! He always forgets.” I muttered as I let go of the laundry and trotted up the stairs. Just as I was going to nag him about forgetting to refill the diapers, I saw him leaning into blow bubbles on Young Hoo’s tiny belly which made him squirm in glee. I couldn’t help but smile at the sight and walked over.
“Chang Ill, I love you, but please stop forgetting to refill the diapers….” I said as I peck the side of his head.
“Oh my gosh and don’t forget to take a shower… you stink.” I said pulling away.
“I think we both need to take a shower babe.” He said as he changed Young Hoo’s diaper.
We were happily living in the moment. I got rid of social media of any sort because somehow people had found my accounts and started terrorizing me about Chang Ill. Knowing that, Chang Ill stopped posting about us and tried his best to focus on his music.
An alarm went off to feed Young Hoo. I picked him up and sat down on the feeding chair.
“How much longer are you supposed to breastfeed him for?” Chang Ill sked grabbing the bib and placed it under Young Hoo’s chin.
“I read around 6 months is good, so soon slowly start with formula and soft foods.” I replied.
“Can you get me the pillow over there?” I asked. Chang Ill walked over and helped me get comfortable with the pillow. After getting situated, he took a seat on the arm of the chair. He stroked the back of my hair as he looked at the two of us.
“Is something wrong?” I asked as I heard him sigh.
“Umm… I should probably tell you.” He started.
“Tell me what?” I asked.
“Changmo has been contacting me for the past couple of months…”
“What? Why?” I asked.
“Well… he obviously heard about Young Hoo and wanted to see him. I told him you wouldn’t like that, but he kept insisting. He wanted to call you, but didn’t have any way around it.” He sighed.
“He promised to stay out of our lives…” I sighed stroking the side of Chang Ill’s thighs.
“But you know, he does have the right to meet Young Hoo at least once.” Chang Ill said trying to persuade me.
“I will only if you’re there..” I said softly which he returned a nod with a big smile.
“Does the baby bag have extra clothes Chang Ill?” I yelled from the bathroom.
“Yep. I just put it in.”
“Okay, thanks.” I replied as I finally got my hair in a ponytail.
Chang Ill peeped his head into the door and asked,
“Ready to leave?”
“Yup.” I answered.
I walked over to pick up Young Hoo who was engrossed in playing with the new toy that Dong Gab had got for him for turning 6 months old.
“Let’s go baby.” I said pecking the top of his head.
“Porsche or Wagon?” Chang Ill asked before opening the front door.
“Babe. Young Hoo needs to go too, of course the bigger one.” I replied with an ‘are you serious’ look.
Chang Ill laughed and opened the door for us to walk out. Once we got off the elevator, I buckled Young Hoo into the car seat, I walked over to the passenger seat and sat as Chang Ill got the car ready to leave.
“Are you okay?” He asked grabbing my hand with his right hand.
I took in a deep breath, “I’m just nervous that’s all.”
“Don’t be. I’m here for you. Okay?” He reassured me which I responded with a nod and a big smile.
“Thank you.” Chang Ill returned the smile and placed a peck on my lips.
We were finally in front of the restaurant that we decided to meet up at with Changmo. Chang Ill got out first to get Young Hoo out of the car seat as I sat in the front trying to calm myself down. The door of the passenger side opened and there stood a tired Young Hoo, who just woke up from his quick nap, cuddled into Chang Ill’s neck.
“Everything will be fine. Trust me Y/n. Okay?” He said with eyes full of care. I nodded and got out of the car. As Chang Ill held Young Hoo in one hand, he held my hand in the other and we walked into the restaurant.
“Hi, we have a reservation for 4 under Chang Ill.” He told the host.
“Follow me this way please.” The host directed us to a private room. The people in the restaurant were going crazy as they saw Chang Ill walking in with a baby and a woman whom he was holding hands with. I tried to hide behind him as people were taking pictures and videos. Finally we were led to the room and the door closed. Chang Ill sat Young Hoo down in the highchair and took a seat in the middle. He saw me being tense once again and turned to calm me down. He was murmuring sweet words into my ear as he held my tightly by my waist. Just as he placed a peck on my temple, the door opened. I wasn’t active on social media after my last trimester with Young Hoo so I had no idea what to expect when Changmo walked in. There he was, with a smile, shining so brightly, flaunting his now natural brown hair.
“Hey, how have you guys been?” He asked as Chang Ill got up to give him a handshake.
“Good. You?” Chang Ill asked as they hugged.
“I’ve been doing good.” Changmo replied.
I was standing behind Chang Ill still nervous to greet Changmo
Chang Ill moved to the side and I came face to face with Changmo
“Hey, y/n.” Changmo said opening his arms.
I moved up to give him a hug.
“Hey Mo. Good to see you.”
“I missed you.” He said tightening the hug.
“Me too…” I said returning the hug.
We pulled away and I turned to Chang Ill who was smiling at me.
“Well, let’s sit down.” He said holding onto my shoulders.
“Is he?...” Changmo wispered as he sat down.
“This is Young Hoo, Lee Young Hoo.” Chang Ill answered as he picked up Young Hoo from the highchair and walked over to Changmo. I sat down in my chair and saw Young Hoo, for the very first time interacting with his blood related father.
Changmo’s eyes widened and any sort of hearing seemed to cease for me. All I saw was my baby that I loved very much in the arms of his father for the first time. After a good ten minutes of Changmo being with the baby, we finally sat down and began to order.
“He’s six months old right?” He asked.
“Yeah, just 3 days ago.” I replied.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there.” He said.
“Changmo, we made a promise before. I’m grateful you kept it. Really.” I replied.
“Then I’m sorry that I said I wanted to meet you and Young Hoo.”
“That’s okay, you have the right to meet him at least once.”
“It took a lot of work convincing her Changmo.” Chang Ill joked trying to lift the mood.
We all let out an awkward laugh. The air was incredibly thick in the room.
“So, are you guys like together?” Changmo asked.
I nodded as Chang Ill answered, “Yep, almost six months now.”
“Wow, that’s it? I thought you guys were together for longer than that, based on like the news and stuff.”
“Well, people think I’m secretly married and think Young Hoo is my child. What’s new?” Chang Ill laughed.
“You guys do look like a family.” Changmo muttered. “It looks great.”
“Thanks, I really do think of Young Hoo as my own son so I’m happy to hear that. I should thank you also for helping in giving life to Young Hoo.” Chang Ill said genuinely.
Changmo seemed like he was forcing a smile as he gave a nod.
Young Hoo who was sitting nicely until now started to throw a tantrum by throwing the spoon and fork he held.
“Hey, don’t do that.” Chang Ill scolded slightly taking away the utensils which led to Young Hoo crying.
“I’ll take him out for a second and get him settled.” He said warily walking out of the room.
Now with the room left with only Changmo and me, it was even more awkward.
I didn’t know how to start the conversation.
“The reason why I asked to see you was because…” He started. He seemed to think as he talked, trying to say the right words.
“I don’t want this to sound condescending in any way, but… I wanted to start fresh with you and Young Hoo.”
“What?” I gasped.
“I regret it so much. I regret saying that I wasn’t ready. I regret letting you go that day. I wanted to grab you after you walked out of the cafe door, but my body was frozen. I want you. I want Young Hoo. I want us to happen for real.” He said grabbing my hand.
Tears of anger were filling my eyes. How could he think that I would just let him in, in a snap just because he regretted it?
“Y/n. I know you’re with Chang Ill right now and that’s probably because you need someone to be with you, but think about Young Hoo he’s going to need a father, a real father who-”
“No!” I cut him off. “Don't you dare underestimate my love for Chang Ill. And as for Young Hoo, he does have a real father. He’s been loved even before he was born by his father who isn’t related to him with an ounce of blood, but with pure love. Don’t think you can squeeze your way into something you rejected before, but want now. I told you. I told you, if you were going to leave, I’m going to need you to leave for good.” I started crying.
“Changmo, please don’t think of breaking our family. I’m grateful that you took part in creating Young Hoo, but this family that Young Hoo has brought together is far more precious to me.”
“I’m sorry. I just realized what I’ve lost after I’ve let it go. I just hoped for you to come back.” He said.
“I’m willing to have you meet Young Hoo occasionally, but only after your heart of wanting something that will never happen to be gone. So until then, please don’t contact us.” I said picking up the baby bag and my bag and heading for the door. I was still in tears, but had to wipe them away to face Chang Ill. I didn’t want to tell him what happened. Before I could open the door, Changmo held me back. He grabbed me into a hug from the back.
“I’m sorry for everything. Please don’t hate me okay?” He whispered.
“I won’t hate you.” I replied as I pried away from his arms and out of the room.
As I was walking towards the front of the restaurant, Chang Ill called out for me.
“Y/n! Where are you going?”
“Changmo suddenly got called in from his company so he needs to leave. Let’s go.” I said pulling him towards the door.
“Really? I didn’t even get to say goodbye.”
“He said he would call, come on, let’s go.” I rushed him.
We finally made it home and I prepared dinner that Chang Ill wasn’t able to eat before.
“I’m going to lay Young Hoo down and lay down for a bit okay?” I said as I placed the food in front of Chang Ill.
“Okay, I’ll be there soon.”
“Eat slowly, don’t choke like the other day.” I said before walking up.
After laying Young Hoo down in his crib, I walked over to our bedroom and laid down on the bed. I was lost in my thoughts as I felt strong arms wrapping around my body.
“You okay?” Chang Ill asked.
“Mhm.” I hummed.
“Thank you.” He murmured with his lips against the back of my neck.
“For what?” I asked.
“For saying you love me.” He replied.
“I heard you today. I was going to walk in, but heard Changmo start his whole speech. I’m grateful for this family too.” He continued.
I turned to face him. “I’m sorry you had to hear that. I didn’t want you to hear that..” I said pecking his forehead.
“I will forever be grateful for you being with me and Young Hoo. I really do love you Chang Ill. I will continue to love you even if you don't love us anymore.” I said with tears welling up.
“What are you saying. Of course I’ll love you guys forever. I’m thankful for you guys being in my life.”
This was it. From being miserable after being cheated on, to finding a man who loved my son and I unconditionally. Happiness came with the price of one thing leading to another. And I was 100% sure that I would go through every sort of pain again if that were the only way to be with this family.
Was listening to Changmo's UNDERGROUND ROCKSTAR album and I came to the realisation that he should try to make country music😭😂
From CHANGMO to COUNTRYMO. Yeehaaawww🤠🤠
Dingo staff x Changmo
Changmo x Dingo Staff
Plot: Dingo has decided to collab with ambition boys once again, taking them for a 1 night trip away from the city. Changmo and the boys agreed without a fuss after all, its Dingo who’s paying for everything.
During the filming, Changmo noticed an unfamiliar staff member, someone who wasn’t part of the last video that they filmed with Dingo. For sure, she has caught Changmo’s attention as well.
The filming was going through smoothly, Mina has gotten used to how everything works specially collaborating with big stars such as these Ambition boys. They have to provide them with everything since all of the boys were high maintenance.
Mina is currently studying film and directing, and she was fortunate enough to be hired as the director assistant for Dingo. She gets to learn, and she gets to see her favourite artists, it’s a win win for her.
“Damn, Changmo has been working out huh.” She mumbled to herself as she stood next to the director, filming the boys get thrown in the pool before getting ordered to hand them towels. She acted right away, grabbing an armful of towels while walking towards them.
She approached Hash first and made her way down to the last guy, which is Changmo. She doesn’t know what is it about him, but for some reason. She’s fucking attracted to him, not in any romantic way.
He turned around to her direction and immediately, thoughts came running in his mind.
“Thanks” he suddenly said, which caught her off guard his none of the boys said it but him.
“Ah… all good”
She went back to her position, writing down all the things the director is telling her. After a while, they all took a small break from the pool. She sat down on one of the benches off set, watching everyone interact with the boys, except for her.
But being an assistant, you really don’t get any rest. The stylist approached her with a shirtless changmo beside her, she immediately stood up; putting her phone away.
“I can’t find Changmo’s things anywhere, can you show him where did you put it? I got to fix up ash’s brush ass hair” she groaned before walking away, Mina couldn’t even protest.
“I— uh… follow me I guess?” She tried to look .away, yet she couldn’t, it was such a rare sight to see him with such exposure.
Changmo caught her shy behaviour, finding it cute. However, he always saw her swallow a lump in her throat, giving him the thought of what she thinks of him.
They walked towards the rooms upstairs where she placed his things, she wasn’t sure where she was supposed to put his belongings, so she just took a wild guess.
Once they reached the room, there was an awkward silence while he rummages through his things. It was dead silence until she heard him spoke.
“I haven’t seen you before. You must be new right?” He walks towards her, towering over her small frame. She looked away from his bare chest, not wanting to fawn over his exposed upper bust and be obvious about it.
“Y-yeah I’m new.” She fumbled with her words, unable to speak properly. If you were in her position, breathing won’t be an option.
He studied her facial features, finding her eyes cute when she looks away; her cheeks heating up from embarrassment. Her subtle movements were taking a toll on him and being in a closed room like this wasn’t helping.
“H-hurry up and put your clothes on, we need film the closing segment” She turned around but Changmo turned her back around, she widened her eyes in surprise.
“Don’t pretend that you don’t like it, the stylist told me that you’ve been thirsting over me before you even worked here.” He laughed which made Mina even more nervous, she wanted this more than anything. Like holy fuck, its Changmo; no one really knows how he is in bed.
A few moments later, Mina wrapped her arms around his neck to pull him down and captures his plump tiers on hers. She wasn’t the type to be verbal about the things she wanted. Taking actions is definitely better.
Changmo curved his lips into a smirk as he hoists her off the ground, wrapping her legs around his waist while reaching back to lock the door so he could finally take her on the bed.
He slammed her down on the mattress, pinning her down with his fingers around her neck.
“Is choking alright?”
“yes”
“Spanking?” He hooked his fingers on the hem of her pants, pulling it down in a swift, caressing her thighs before sending a stinging slap against her skin. She let out a quiet hiss, daring to make a sound but Changmo kept her quiet by pressing his lips on hers.
“can’t be too loud baby”
“You’re literally the one being loud” she whined, raising her legs up in the air as he slid her pants off her. Changmo gripped on her jaw to keep her head still while the other is making its way down underneath her panties.
She let out a gasp when his fingers found its way on her aching heat, circling the sensitive nub.
“Oh? What a reaction” he said cockily, licking his lips as he picked up the pace; his fingers toyed with her clit until he was driving her to edge. He enjoyed the faces she was making; however, it wasn’t easy for him either. His pants were getting uncomfortable too.
He licked his lips, satisfied on how affected she was just from teasing her sensitive clit, her moans made him groan; eventually giving in. He gave her a cocky grin before spitting on his fingertips and sliding his two digits past her entrance.
“yeah you like that?” He kept his other hand wrapped around her neck as he abused her heat, enjoying the warmth feeling of her walls as it swallows his fingers in.
Mina parted her lips to let out a throaty moan, biting it when he started to move his fingers in; repeatedly pumping it in and out and curling them until she was shaking once again.
“Changmo I’m going to cum- “She whispered, grabbing onto his wrist.
He smirked, pulling his soaked fingers away to rub her clit to edge her again and again. It was getting painful and frustrating that he wouldn’t give her what she wanted.
“are you gonna do it?”
“Yes, Changmo please…” She pleaded, almost sounded like a sob but Changmo couldn’t care less. He liked the way she begs.
“Yes? You’re gonna cum for me baby?”
Mina just nodded, tightening her grip around his wrist as she tried to reach her orgasm without interruptions but of course, Changmo won’t have that.
He pulled away once more, giving her heat a light slap before pulling his pants down along with his boxers. He wrapped his fingers around the girth of his cock, stroking it until it was fully erected.
His other hand left her neck, caressing the mark it left before teasing her heat and finally lining the tip of his cock against her core.
“You want this? Yeah?” The way he teases by asking questions with the most obvious answers just made her more aroused and frustrated. Changmo really enjoyed toying with her.
He pushed the head in then pulling it out just to see her reactions, he continued to tease until he himself couldn’t hold it in any further.
He pushed himself deep in her, gripping onto her waist as her walls engulfs his cock tightly.
“Baby you’ve got to relax, you’re so fucking tight” He muttered under his breath, biting his lips when he started to move; starting with a swift rhythm, thrusting in and out of her in a slow pace.
“Oh fuck” She closed her eyes, savouring the feeling of Changmo being inside, wanting to voice out the pleasure that she was receiving but she couldn’t. His breathy moans blended in with her soft moans.
Mina would accidentally let out a yelp from time to time as his movements became harsher and his pace became faster. He would grip onto her neck again, limiting the air she’s receiving until her moans were quieted down.
“So fucking tight” His nails dug onto her skin, earning a small hiss from her but she didn’t mind as the pain was soon replaced with pleasure when he snapped his hips harder.
Mina realised that Changmo is a big talker when it comes to sex, asking her a lot of things; he was just so verbal with everything and she loved every single bit of it.
“You like taking this cock baby?” He asked, working his hips against hers as he pounded harder and faster, making her moan in approval. Though, she couldn’t give him an answer since she was too occupied and distracted by his cock hitting her spot repeatedly. Changmo didn’t quite like that.
“I asked you a question princess” he let go of her waist to grip on her jaw, forcing her to look at him before giving her cheeks a slap. She moaned loudly from the unexpected stinging sensation from her cheeks. It wasn’t something that she thought she wouldn’t be into but surprisingly, it gave her a sense of satisfaction being slapped.
“Yes I like taking your cock in me Chang-“
“Oppa” He gave her another slap,
“O-Oppa” She cried out, making his movements harsher each time passes by.
He then stopped to turn her around, pressing her head against the mattress and lifted her ass up in the air as he pounded into her from behind. He let out a groan while sending her ass a harsh spank over and over again.
“Fuck… Yeah you like that?” He gripped onto her hips once again, triggering his own orgasm as he repeatedly abuses her spot. She cried out in pleasure, clenching her fist on the sheets as she felt her walls contracting around his cock.
“Oppa I love it so much” Her moans were muffled by his hand pressing her face against the mattress before getting another spank from him.
“You love it?”
“Yes… please let me cum Oppa” She cried out, not caring any longer if she was being loud.
“Cum baby”
He pulled her up against his body so he could thrust deeper and faster, grabbing her face to capture her tiers for a heated messy kiss as they both reached their own climax.
Her legs tensed as she reaches her orgasm, closing her eyes to ride her high as he kept moving despite from reaching their climax.
“You alright?” He pulled away and tucks a strand of hair behind her ear as he laid her properly on the bed. She nodded, mentally cursing herself after realising that they didn’t use a protection.
“Changmo… I’m not on pill” She muttered, lightly slapping his arms while burying her face on the pillows. He laughed and gave her cheeks a kiss.
“Shit, I’m sorry. We’ll get you a morning pill tomorrow”
She groaned, trying to stand up but he stopped her. “Just stay there, it’s okay.”
“What do you mean just stay! I’m supposed to be working!” She whispered, hiding her body as she watched him peek behind the doors.
He got off the bed after putting his boxers on and walks towards the door, opening it quietly and peeking in to see if everyone was around. Surprisingly everyone was gone, he opened the door completely and saw Mingyeom walk past with a cup of water.
“Ya, where’s everyone?”
The small rapper gave him a scowl.
“They all left because you disappeared! I swear to god, we have to film again the next night” Mingyeom whined, earning an apologetic laugh from Changmo before shutting the door on his face.
“This ass hat!” Mingyeom sighed before walking away.
“They’re all gone lol” Changmo went back to the bed, wrapping his arms around her body. “Fuck, what if I got fired” She chewed on her lips but Changmo stopped her by placing a kiss on her lips.
“Then you can work for ambition, So I can see you more often”
THE END.
fuck i didnt check the spelling errors and shit because im too lazy but here it is!!
who I stan? 😂 the moment i fell i love with him