Cisharmful - Tumblr Posts

I both hate and love being harmful. Cis and trans harmful. With different variations. I love having him beg for me to be harmful and to hurt him. I hate knowing others in his system dare hurt him at the same time as I am. It makes me want to be soft all over again.

I hate the push and pull between wanting to be sickeningly and uncharacteristically sweet, soft, and caring, to sharp, and cold and harsh and harming. I will never get enough of it, or enough of him.

I hate it. I hate how he makes me feel. I do like the anons, but they’ll never be as consistent, or as active. I’ll never form attachment aside from a few, rare occasions.