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jeon jungkook | wc : 888 | part 1/14

yandere!au

jeon jungkook had never been the type to have crushes or even be into woman sexually. but that all changed when he saw you.

🤍 : sorry if its short 😅 there are a lot more chapters to come. i was extremely nervous about putting this out so if you could tell me what you think i would appreciate it :D

part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5

i love you.

you should know that.

i made it obvious.

but i haven’t made it obvious that it is me that loves you.

however you will know soon. im shy. i cant casually say all the dirty things i’ve been writing to you. that’s not polite.

your rather innocent- well, you act like you are. i know for a fact that your a virgin, yet you’re very aware of anything and everything having to do with sex. your jokes are dirty, foul and playful; sometimes dark but that generally depends on your kind of mood. i genuinely see you as a very funny girl. i always laugh when im around you, sometimes to the point where im hunched over and can’t breathe properly.

thats what i like best. you always know how to make me smile, even on days where i dont think it’s possible.

you find ways to comfort me. you listen to me and let me vent. you tell me your thoughts and even ask questions to get a better understanding. and frankly, it makes me feel special that you care that much to want to know more.

you give me insight. you dont give me advice because you know thats not what i want to hear, most people venting dont wanna hear it either. but the insight you give me has helped me to great extents. ive gotten to know myself better, my situations and other prevailing issues. the world became a little less scary since you’ve been in it, and im eternally greatful.

thanks to you, i found out that i am a demisexual. i thought i might be a flat out asexual who had no interest in romantic dating let alone sex. sometimes i even thought that there was something wrong with me, and for a long time i believed it. why wasnt i interested in dating? all my friends were invested in it, but why couldn’t i be? why did i have no sexual desire when it came to... well anything? all my friends raved about how great sex was, yet i saw something equivalent to kissing thin air.

but when i met you... and got to know you. i unknowingly became attached to you and developed a one sided intimate bond. once that happened, i started experiencing something i never have before: romantic and sexual desire. but only towards you.

please understand that i’ve never dated anyone in my life, i was never interested in that aspect of life. so all this is very new to me. never in my whole existence have i wanted someone more then i wanted you; and in more ways than one.

i think about doing all kinds of things to you. and you have no idea what im thinking about you as you work at your desk and i work at mine. i sit only a mere foot away. as i sneak glances at you we periodically make eye contact, but you look away so you think i didnt notice. oh but i notice, i notice everything you do.

you dont know how much i wanna hold you in my arms and sleep soundly next to you all night. i wanna do cheesy couple things and take you on picnic dates, or to the movies, hell, even make cookies together when we’re bored.

i want to ruin you. i wanna be your first for many, many things. just the thought of us exploring a new world together, experiencing things my friends have rambled on and on about, being each other’s first...god, it gave me chills. i have literally dreamt about it. of course im sure a dream versus the reality will be a hell of a lot different.

you have absolutely no clue what you do to me. but im praying that my little letters i send to you express enough of what im feeling. more specifically, how you make me feel.

call me a coward, i dont care.

just understand one thing: you are mine

and i think you got the message. i hear how giddy you get when you tell your friends the contents inside the letter everytime you receive a new one. you arent shy about it either. you tell them it all in fucking detail. if you weren’t so cute when you talk about my letters, i would’ve shut that shit down a long time ago. but i do have to give you some credit; you keep the more... dirtier rather than vulgar letters to yourself. im glad you kept that part to yourself. no one needs to know, its our little secret.

days turn into weeks, and weeks turn into months. im still working up the courage to ask you out. im quite bold in my letters though. so why can’t i be like that everytime i see you? it probably has to do with the fact that i’ve never experienced this kind of feeling, nor had to deal with the facets of dating.

despite how excited you get when you read my letters, i have no idea if you have feelings for me.

for all i know, you’re in love with the anonymous secret admirer who sends you letters all the time... and not me. not jungkook. maybe i made a mistake there... im not sure.